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Why and how normal people go mad Great article about what can happen during torture. The shame I carried for years about losing it also contributed to my ptsd. Scientifically it wasn't all my fault.

I've done a lot of therapy. But, I am currently looking for a new therapists. I've healed from a lot. I am just looking for other techniques. Like a therapist taught me seeped timed breating. And another the importance of schedule regularity and physical health. Also meditation techniques, but I...

I was on an anti psychotic, but it made my period stop, and I started losing my hair, so I have to get off of it. It did make me sleep 12-14 hours a night and if I didn't I'd feel bad sick all day. But, it made me emotionally numb and made everything ok. I didn't think much, and just watched one...

Reading and educating myself about other people who have been tortured is helping. I am one of many people who have been tortured who like me didn't deserve it. Torture doesn't work on interrogations better than just strict scrutiny, and it doesn't make people do what one wants. Most times it...

Contemplation is good. A person can say love with all the obnoxious hate in their heart so the words mean nothing. It will be their bad karma in the end, even if like my own karma it doesn't show up for lifetimes. Anything put out into the world comes back, or has to be held on some level within...

My dad bought my sister a Kia for 22k, and bought me a Hyndi for 12k. They said my sister is brand aware, and it's a big deal to her. It is, and she gets her hair done and nails done, and my Dad pays for her kids braces while she has lots of clothes and makeup and shops. This is normal for my...

Ok well pts d is getting better, but it is coming and going today. Lump in my throat emotional pain, and yet joy from my perception is felt at the same time. Trying to wrap the pain in love and allow it to be until it transforms into compassion for self, and others involved. I have had many an...

I was in a situation where I couldn't escape. My every move watched and I was stalked even in my own home. I was sexually degraded and set up for my psychological brains to be blown out of the water with what was a cruel joke. No one would believe me I tried to get help from. I was abused for...

I had a really bad few days when I joined this group. Today I woke up with my ptsd pulling in my thoughts, but before it got to be a morbid reflection of the past I got out of bed. I'm my morning habitual wake up routine I still felt the pull. I did not Google things that would exacerbate the...

Thank You! It also explained my dad's combat veteran ptsd when I was growing up.

No one knows I'm here. No one needs to know. My life has been a cycle of learning to keep family secrets, taking the blame, and cleaning the mess. I was a mess eventually, when I couldn't escape, when the bullying was inside, and outside the home. I started to run away because my mom was drunk...

I'm not in therapy, but seriously need it. I moved when I was a kid at 10, and was so excited to move and live by the beach. But, within 6 months was being bullied badly, and spit on it never got better. I was bullied by the same people until I was 23, and moved (I could avoid them more after...

I moved last week, and have been getting flashbacks this week. Lump in my throat, depression, intrusive memories, and thoughts of suicide have been my life the past few days. My body went into flight or fight anxiety last week a few days before I moved as the day got pushed back last minute, and...

I have had ptsd for 23 years now, probably longer from childhood traumas, but 23 years major ptsd. I'm not the only person in the world who has been tortured in their life. I recently moved with the stress of that, the holidays, and finals in school I've had flashbacks the past few days. I hope...