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I am grateful, for the people, who have surrounded me, with an open and accepting mind, during my times of struggle.

Thank you, @franciemarnie

@Abstract reading your posts, I am reminded of my own struggles, but for different reasons. Just coming to the local library, on a daily basis, is a huge moral victory, for me, which my medical team have been encouraging me, to do more, on a daily basis. And yes, group settings beyond 4 people...

My friends and medical team have been telling this, to me, for several years, but I can't believe them, yet.

Tomorrow is, Trans Remembrance Day (November 20), which the transcommunity remember those, whose lives end brutally, whether by their own actions (suicide or OD) or by the hand of others (murder). For me, this day is very powerful and emotionally charged, given my history of abuse and suicide...

Am feeling a little less anxious today, after yesterday's meeting with the social worker, but have a dentist appointment tomorrow morning, which is always, a very stressful time, for me. Thank you, @D123 for your supportive thoughts.

I helped a blind older man, to get from my doctor's office to the bus stop, on the other side of the road, and helped him, to find a seat on the bus, once we had boarded it. I know this is from yesterday, but I wasn't in any shape to be near people (going to the library, to log on to a computer...

@Ayesha please don't be so harsh on yourself. We all make mistakes, even the best of us. As for school being the cause of your agoraphobia, I understand and relate to it.

Thank you, @franciemarnie . Hold in there, @BlackbirdSinging .You can do it.

Extremely anxious, nauseous and scared, about my first appointment with the social worker, this afternoon, to the point, I can't do anything around my apartment, which needs to be done.

@Ayesha agoraphobia is a terrible thing to have to endure, as I know, from first hand experience, over the past 7 years. Am getting better, in dealing with it, but it is a constant struggle for me.

Personally, I would go for the total exchange of myself, memories and all. To wake up, in a body that's not alien to me, would be heavenly. But, it's only a dream.

Feeling sore and guilty, for not visiting my dad's gravesite, as I am sick with a bug and a very nasty cough, which has made breathing very painful. Anxious, as my need to isolate, has gone through the roof, to the point, I am becoming agophobic, again.

Where do I begin, concerning my immediate family? There are so many things that are kept hidden, from both sides of the family tree. Whether, it is my brother's abusive behaviour, towards my mom and I, his alcoholism or my mental health battle, which I have kept secret, until January 2011, given...

I think, in my case, it's an issue of trust and limiting my exposure to others (control), as I try to block the time, which I am, outside of my comfort zone. Especially, when I have to book my medical appointments or do shopping, as I have to take public transit, to get around, to avoid having...

Absolutely nothing, which involve stress, as the next 6 days will be very stressful for me, with various medical appointments and visiting my dad's grave.

I bought kitten food and cat's milk, for my friend's kitten, which was given to her, after the kitten's first human host was evicted from my building. The kitten is emascated and just recovering from a severe virus.

Feeling frustrated, as my annual November bug has made it's presence known, as I have so many important appointments to keep, over the next 6 days. :bawling:

Feeling guilty, for past events, in my life, which nearly cost me, my life.

Another day of near freezing temperature, north of me, there is snow, on the ground. The sun is trying to warm up things, but the windchill is too powerful. The forecast for the weekend calls for 14 C temperatures.

Tired, but relaxed, having slept most of the day away. First time, in a long time, for me.

@zaniara , thank you, very much.

Anxious, depressed, angry, and hurt, as I begin my 10 darkest days of the year, for me. Too many memorials and anniversaries, for me. Many of them, are associated around my dad and I. Am dreading, this coming Friday, as I make my pilgrimage to my dad's grave, to mark the 15th anniversary of his...

Sadden, as my personal ten days of sadness, starts today and ends, on November 20th. A time marked by memorials and anniversaries, for me. This made worse, by the fact, my depressive season is now.

I shopped for another tenant, in my building, who has mobility issues.