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For me it has been since February 2017 but I hovered a bit before. Came looking to explain some of what was being talked about in therapy and struggling with the idea that trauma could have had any impact in my life- shocked by the numbers of people affect - yes my head was buried really really deep

This would only better if I could handle all the baggage that this brings up. I wish I could be more reasonable but the thought of a conversation is enough to destroy me. On some level I long to show who I am but I am terrified for being judged and the long term outcome. Regardless there are...

Sorry this is not a nice post. I think sometimes a little knowledge can make things harder. My anxiety is high. On one hand I can’t settle down and on the other I don’t want to do anything I have to do. Is this anxiety? Is this depression? Is this PTSD? Does it even matter? I can’t seems to...

We all have different communication styles -this doesn’t sound like a fit - you can talk with him about it but it could be that the fit is not right. I have reflected upon my experience and feel fortunate that the first therapist I saw has been a great fit for me- that said I spoke to 6...

Agreed!! @Muttly - not whining but trying to make sense of it all-we can only get what we need when we put it out there. Thank you for posting and validating that this stuff is crazy hard and we need support to navigate it. You are not alone.

@EveHarrington I learn so much from you and your no nonsense views. Since I am one who cowers from conflict I am not sure I could handle your direct approach face to face but in the forum I can read and reflect and reflect and reflect and read and reflect some more and come to a deep...

Here’s what I want to say... He deserves to be given the opportunity to understand and then you can both decide to be sexual and loving to you btogether. You will never know what he really will think or how supportive he would be unless you share where you are with him. The reason why I wrote...

Hi PTSD is a recognized disability. I would make sure you are upfront with your employer that you have a disability and the type of accommodation you are requesting - such as: receiving feedback in a harsh, critical manner with voices raised, etc is triggering. You believe you are an excellent...

No idea but I had been with a number of men who justified their behavior because they were addicted to sex- they did things like creating more opportunities if women had sex with them. Then when they didn't get their fix and ended up drinking and it led to me being told I wanted it and I was...

Part of my hesitation is that I am embarrassed that I can't handle everything in my own. My t has recently brought up that I don't have support that I can talk about things that come up. Upon reflection maybe it would be helpful if I shared. But then i wonder if she thinks it were not helpful...

I have found this website/forum very helpful and validating. There is an incredible network of support - my experience has been very positive. I have not told my therapist that I have looked up stuff online or regularly post/contribute on this site. Does it matter and do others share this...

We (family and I) have too much stuff in our house. We really do and I am not just saying that! - we do a great job of stuffing and hiding when we need to. My husband and I have been a bit anti-social so we haven't done the "stuff and hide" in months. The clutter is taking over. I took another...

Please don't think I am a nut and hear what you want and ignore the rest. Your ability can be developed more but that may not be what you want. I believe some of us are more "sensitive or in tune" with tapping into events on an energetic level. In some ways I would relate it to someone who...

I have looked into stuff as it related to me and I didn't understand so I needed more info. My t made a comment early on that my reaction was very common for those with history of abuse. My internal response was that she has it all wrong - "that wasn't abuse - I was a bad kid" Sounds stupid...

On one hand I think I share mostly everything but I get so caught up in what she will think. I have so much negative self talk and sometimes I can't say more than 3 words aloud. I trust my t and that came early in because I didn't get what was happening to me so I shared a lot. I read all the...

Forgiveness to myself for I did what I could. Self compassion. Confidence in being me. Gratitude for TODAY. I am here and I am alive.

I still have a deep sense of fear too and my abusive adopted father died several years ago. I have a hard time and need to often remind myself that I am safe when triggered. (Often it is my husband triggering me). I am plenty old enough. Our fear has no age but we are safe. Sorry for the...

How long do you practice EFT for at one time? Is it a few minutes or sustained for a long time? Or several times in a day? Thanks.

I have been more anxious than usual and at these times when in therapy I am triggered more easily and then dissociate. I think I know what is going on but when I dissociate I loose the moment, my mind goes I don't know where. The words have no meaning and it is super frustrating because I have...

Hi - Sorry you have to deal with this. There are 2 possibilities -1) According to the American with disabilities Act - employers (USA) many not ask if you have a disability including PTSD. You could report them to the employment board of the state. And 2) some companies opt to have a separate...

Thank you @ladee and @Rain. I went deep inside because I didn't know what to do. Here is a recap - sorry so lengthy. This is really hard to post or talk about because of the situation. I don't have an outlet to talk about it. In short my oldest (teenage) son was with a group of friends and...

i am tough as nails right now. I want to break down and cry or something and I have nothing- still years and I can't shed a tear yet I have so many reasons too. I had an incredibly hard day and somehow it has just put me in this mode of no emotion - go through the motions- and be disconnected...

I did this (going to bars, getting way drunk, and ending up in bad spots) for YEARS and eventually looked at my behaviors when I was working through stuff. I was able to recognize what I was doing. I hadn't really considered it Self Harm behavior but i clearly was not being good to me.

It is a good sign that they welcome parent volunteers and you get a good idea of being there consistently such as reading stories from 2:00 -2:30 on Tuesdays - or offering to help with a craft and clean up once a week, - if it isn't a healthy environment - volunteers are discouraged.

I am fairly certain it is not legal to ask about disabilities before an interview (possibly depends on which state) - unless it is revealing something about the applicant that would call snider them unable to perform but PTSD and computer programming?? CIA agent and PTSD - maybe relevant That...