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I found the Drama Triangle interpretation to be really interesting . The similarities of my situation through this lens is scary and very accurate. I had never heard of such a thing and contrasted with the winners triangle is ipens up new possibilities.
Thank you! I will share more as I...
It is so true the past can't be changed and for a really long time I didn't care because I was leaving the past in the past. I promised myself that I would never acknowledge my past or give any energy to it. I decided my past (pre-14) that was full abuse - sexual, physical, emotional would...
For me crying must be buried deep too.In my past I cried so infrequently. Early on my dad used to spank me with his belt (bare bottom). He would tell me how many times and have me count. It was never much to start -like 10 times. The thing was if I cried he would start over. For some reason...
This is very interesting - I had no idea. I have just been taking the one med now and the only time it was in conjunction was last year when I was tapering off the Mirtazpine (Remeron). I was pleased with the transition because it sounds like stopping can be difficult. I could look into mail...
Thank you - to the best of my knowledge the manufacturer has not changed but I will call out pharmacy to confirm. Do you mind if I ask how long is a long time that you have been taking Wellbutrin? - just curious.
I think the dilemma seems to be mine because he isn't bothered by it. I internalize his behavior (that this is about me- which it is not but somehow I place my value in what others think and go back to wanting to be supportive to help him change and believe he should have enough reasons to want...
Two years ago I was prescribed Mirtazapine (Remeron) mostly because my sleep was almost non existent. Last year, I couldn't take the side effect of weight gain anymore. I had gained far too much weight and was very concerned (15+ lbs). I was then prescribed Brupropion (wellbutrin). I started...
Yes- there is more going on or so I believe. Paying attention to mental health is relatively new for me and I really do not know all the factors but I would say he is very depressed, probably has some OCD tendencies and issues around anger ( not expressed often but when it is I completely shut...
Thank you for your thoughtful reply - you said a lot and I need to let myself take it in.
My T has helped me to see some of this for myself and also been very up front with me. Now seeing your responses and others is an eye opener because i see it is not one perspective. I guess until we reach...
Excellent Questions! That is part of the craziness. . . I don't even know how to answer because really nothing is wrong other then his heart does not beat normally. My husband who is very health conscious regarding food quality had complicated heart issues which were greatly helped when he took...
I so appreciate your direct and appropriate response. I get frustrated because in the moment, circumstances/situations/thoughts carry so much weight that is becomes overwhelming and hard to see the forest beyond the trees. When I step back, write it out and reach out for help with an objective...
I have been married 19 years -that is a lot. Once upon a time I was happy go lucky. Sure I had stress- my husband had stress. There were occasional bumps for for the most part we were always in the same page ... I guess if I were to be completely honest - my DH is difficult to live with and...
Thank you for your perspective - it has been eye opening how all the responses lead to a similar path - I think I make up my mind of what I should think or how things should be and make the assumptions that I know best. This whole conversation thread has challenged some of my assumptions that I...
Wow - you cut to the chase and summed it up well. I guess I have/had lots of biases around how I think the therapy process should be and how I think I should react. This is exactly one of my issues- I have always THOUGHT my way through challenges and the feeling part never integrated because I...
I dissociate in every session but it is the awareness around it that has been helpful. My T often points out how super valuable dissociation was for me as a child. That was how I was able to cope in the situation. It had a very important function. Now that I am older the same coping mechanisms...
Here goes - I am embarrassed and have too many crazy thoughts as to why but maybe someone has a suggestion that may help.
I have no trouble going to sleep. I then wake when my DH comes to bed which could be 2am, 4am or around 5am. (Yes - my husband has sleep issues too -usually falls asleep on...
Sounds very wise . . .i wasn't really thinking that a group was something for me but rather thought that I was all alone to have been struggling with my past and most people healed faster and without the drama I think I have
Wow - I am kinda surprised that anyone has replied and yet there have been responses. While I have worked through what seems like a lot of stuff -there seems to be more and to know that others have had their own journeys (parallel) is comforting and was not really considered by me. I am amazed...
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Thank you for your response and parts of it resonates. I do feeling like an rambling idiot and then remind myself that statements like that don't help me build self compassion. I want to keep everything I have dealt with in separate boxes well organized so I can decide when and how to...
I resisted taking anything for a long time. But then I too took it for a year. Initially I had been down to sleeping 1.5 hours a night and it definitely helped me sleep. It did knock me out but I woke more rested in the am. I was gaining too much weight and needed to stop. As for that - I read...
Thank you for your honesty. When I go back and read what I wrote, I see the flaws in my thinking but I had been questioning the process for awhile. I operate a lot from fear and didn't really understand that. I don't like the pit in my stomach and I want to be in the present. I hate whining. I...
Thank you - glad to hear you are in a better space. Somehow over the past few years, I have lost a lot of feeling and almost don't remember how I used to feel. Encouraged to hear that it is possible - maybe my journey will be longer because i am older and buried it for so long.
Hi - I hear you but "is it possible to deal with all our issues?" I am in my 40's so that is a lot of stuff. . . it seems like there can always be something.
I do think objectivity is important which is why I put it out there and find your perspective interesting. What you don't know about me...
Sorry for such a long post. . . I don't know what I feel but my journey has been nearly 3 years since an emotional scare stirred up emotions in me that I was ready to jump out of my skin. Three years later, I have shared so much. . . from an emotionally absent mother to an abusive father...