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@OliveJewel i read your post about fawning with an older guy and I've realised yep I was definitely fawning with g when he lived with us. I guess it sort of makes sense cause I couldn't fight or escape and freezing wouldn't help. I thought with him living with us, something happening was...

I'd love to have a trauma therapist I can only ever find counsellors which the one I saw was still helpful to talk to but I like a more guided approach but that isn't really available. You can always try to find a counsellor who will just sit back and listen but they have this whole I don't give...

From what I researched, if you meet the criteria for cptsd then you meet the criteria for ptsd but just with some extra symptoms. Only some professionals recognise it as a separate condition.

I've felt sick and once been sick cause of anxiety around people. It's cause I don't breathe properly when I'm really anxious. You probably cause a new symptom cause you were with them. Maybe you were just more anxious than normal.

I know rationally it was. I had accepted it was and I have had counselling for it but today I've just had this thought/feeling that it wasn't sa. It might be cause of s situation and the baby seagull dying. And maybe cause I'm still getting nightmares which still aren't making sense. Oddly...

It's another person who wasn't at all what I thought

I thought dissociation is mainly involuntarily but focusing on something and then not being able to feel your body is dissociation. Is forgetting a memory of abuse for years even if you didn't dissociate at the time, a form of dissociation? I've tried emdr on myself and when I thought of things...

@GreySouled @Givrali @OliveJewel I'm pretty sure g abused my mum as a child. She said she doesn't remember being abused but she remembers being his favourite and that she'd always go to him for hugs and attention cause nanny has never been affectionate, but then she remembers feeling...

I spent years being scared that g would abuse me but I think that's normal cause he was in prison for abusing others. I'm pretty sure it caused my severe anxiety around people. I only dealt with it by becoming so anxious that I couldn't really cope with seeing any of the family so I also stopped...

I feel like I shouldn't be talking about this but I need to. I found out today s got 10 years and it shouldn't really be a surprise cause someone else on the news got the same time for doing a similar thing. I know he was encouraging violence but it still seems like a long time, he wasn't the...

I went outside in bare feet and sat near the baby seagull. It came towards me and pecked my foot. I stroked it and it was so soft and fluffy. It's just this small ball of grey fluff. I wanted to pick it up and kiss it but I didn't.

Confused why I was in so much shock when I saw earlier that s got 10 years. I don't feel he was that dangerous.

Probably I don't know I'm not diagnosing myself

I've found out you can have flashbacks when you wake up, I thought you couldn't before. It's not like I heard the speaking literally as I was waking up so I wasn't talking in my sleep. I layed there for a couple of seconds after I woke up, I didn't feel at all groggy and then I heard it, so I'm...

I hate both words victim and survivor. Innocence is a weird word that doesn't really mean anything to me. A crime could happen to a criminal.

Food is your medicine Your body is like a car it needs fuel to work These are things I got told

I've looked at the diagnosis criteria before when I kept being given PDFs and links about trauma and PTSD and I seem to meet most of it. The only thing I was unsure of was avoidance. I don't have a problem talking about things on here but it's more difficult in person, it makes me really...

Slight problem though if the two things are mixing together autism professionals don't deal with mental health and the same with mental health. I saw someone on YouTube who said they developed did just from growing up autistic and struggling with it (not saying I have it just saying autism makes...

I think whether I just wasn't fully awake or it was a flashback, it's just my brain processing.

@Sideways autism is not a mental health condition, it's a development disorder though it makes mental health problems more likely to happen. I don't have mental health professionals in my care. My autism support worker who I used to have has no mental health training. I am waiting to hear to see...

It was similar to what I heard myself say in a flashback and I was confused about it and since people have trauma on this forum, I thought it would be fine to ask it here. I haven't ever been assessed for ptsd. No diagnosis doesn't mean you don't have something. Maybe I do maybe I don't. But I...

I thought psychotic episodes have to happen for a certain amount of time, not just one incident. Though they can be quite short I think. I researched psychosis before cause I was just curious. I've not had psychosis before.

I've had an irrational phobia of toilets since I was little, specifically looking down them and worrying something horrible will be in it even though I know that's ridiculous they still terrify me. I go to the toilet backwards and haven't looked down my toilet in years. I still to this day have...

I don't know normally I only hear things when I'm falling asleep and it's just a noise not anyone speaking. I know you can hear stuff when you're waking up so I know it's normal but hearing that particular thing was weird. It sounded like someone had actually said it I thought something was...

@Givrali i don't get why I heard something from a flashback that I had months ago when I woke up?