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Should I try being nice to pinkie even I don't notice her cause most of the time I don't she only really came out the whole day after I had the nightmare of her being raped and I felt like an unsafe child. Sometimes I randomly feel unsafe for no reason and I'm not sure if it's pinkie. also I...

I'm thinking pinkie (child me) sent me body memories and then her being raped maybe cause she was trying to process it and she put me in her head space so maybe she didn't think she needed to send me the body memories for a bit. I think she has been trying to ease me into processing for her by...

It hasn't done it for a week but I've not been able to feel much of anything. I don't feel like drawing reading painting and I seem to have temporarily given up learning Japanese. I've only felt anxiety about my old kooth worker not getting back to me so I don't know if she rang my local mental...

I like wearing wigs sometimes so I can change my hair colour and I noticed that sometimes when I feel bad I will put on a wig and pretend I'm someone else I have my purple one on now and I have to take it off to go to bed but I don't want to feel completely like me again. I want to be lilac.

I tried emdr and during it my down there was throbbing similar to after a flashback I had of being pinned to a bed but more subtle. Ever since the flashback I've had my down there throb randomly quite a lot I don't know why this keeps happening in general and during emdr. I can't ask a therapist...

Is imagining your a child and fantasising about your abuser touching child you or getting child you to touch yourself, normal? I always do this I never imagine anyone else just that person but I don't remember them ever touching me down there though I do remember them touching my bum whilst...

Straight after I had a flashback of being held down on the bed and that's all I saw, my down there started throbbing really strongly for a few seconds which made me feel even more stressed out. Ever since I will just be sitting down and keep noticing my down there randomly throbbing though much...

I am awake but my brain has half drifted to another place I see a bed and no room An aliens hand on my arm Hear a voice in my head Stop stop The image fades away My body reacts It makes no sense I go to sleep I see me on a bed A man is there though I don't see him He tries kissing me So I move...

I've had nightmares before and then later remembered real incidents. I don't have a therapist I did speak to my autism worker and she thinks my nightmares are real incidents. We've agreed that in the flashback I had when I was awake of grandad pinning me to the bed likely happened and I was...

I don't have a diagnosis of ptsd but I was abused and it's possible I have it. I don't remember being raped but I've had 3 rape nightmares which have started since I spoke about my abuse. The most recent one was the worst I spent the whole next day feeling like I was a child and feeling really...