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A friend I'm dependent on, life is improving. She just found out she's pregnant so she plans on moving out and getting married. I know my emotional dependence on her is unhealthy, so the suicidality came up again. Thinking about her leaving feels like a weight that lessens and increases...
A part of me feels disconnected from my younger self, even from my parents. Since they're not abusive in that way anymore it all sort of feels fake. My mom sometimes says and does things that suck, but she's supportive of all of us improving our mental health. My father is still emotionally and...
Please feel free to offer insights and tips if you deal with something similar. I would appreciate feeling less alone.
I've been posting on this forum for a while now and never knew about introductions. After discovering it I think it'll be (for a lack of a better word) freeing to release things...
I completely relate to what you mean about shutting down due to lack of trust. For me when I feel like I'm not being heard or I fear something bad might happen when I speak I up I literally can not speak. For people who have never gone through this feeling then it's hard to explain. Simply...
I actually haven’t thought about that, thanks :) I think this will actually be fun in session. Hopefully my uncoordination don’t cause me hit my therapist in the head lol but I’ll definitely will ask her if we can try this
Since dissociation techniques usually don't work for me I use things that are mentally stimulating that also grounds me in the present. We did one session where we played a game. This helped a lot. It took my mind out of a state of hypervigilance and derealization. For me, it feels more like a...
I decided to lessen my caseload by only having one client a week. Though I'll have to find other avenues to make money, I know I'm not in the best headspace to provide adequate care that'll be that beneficial. Though with this client he's pretty easy and it's minimal work which is somewhat of a...
Yeah, it's something we've both been considering though for whatever reason I can't move on from my current therapist. Something I'm trying to find a better understanding of as well as discuss in my upcoming session.
It wasn't a termination session. It was a miscommunication. I think after hearing her say that it might be better to try other options with my therapy my mind emotionally shut down and then blocked out the part where she said 'I'll see you next week'. I feel sort of dramatic now. A taunt I use...
This is more as a soundboard on whether or not I should resign from my current job.
It's my dream job in the sense of doing something I'm passionate about as well as can grow in. The pay is okay though it could be better if I was given more opportunities with having additional clients...
I was wondering if anyone had any tips for combating derealization in session? I tried physical groundings like sand and ice cubes. However, it doesn't help as much. Every time I step foot in my current therapist's office I feel as though I'm entering a dream world that can easily switch to a...
Right before this, I was worried about trauma brain ruining another relationship. I had to set boundaries with a friend after their parents did something that made me uncomfortable. She said she wanted to still grow as friends and still hang out. However, she stopped talking to me. And now my...
Thank you for saying this. I struggle a lot with assuming other people knows what I’m feeling with subtle cues, though with compassionate I realize it’s a coping mechanism from not knowing when the person I’m talking to is trust worthy. But being straightforward with my triggers is the best...
Yeah a few times she has things that instantly triggered me and early on, before she knew about my history, she sat on a couch with me without warning. She was trying to show me an article and got up to sit next to me. Which sucks is that instead of announcing my uncomfortable feelings I shrunk...
I’m trying to understand what type of transference I have with my therapist. My mind keeps telling me she’s like or going to do things a past abuser has done. A lot of my memories are repressed and I only have the covert abusive tendencies (like being made to sleep in the same bed, and limited...
Artificial in the sense of being one sided. We know nothing more than superficial things about our therapist that they might tell a coworker. Though we bare our soul to them they will not, nor should they, do the same with us. They might add some information here and there in relation to showing...
I can understand with the money aspect how things can be seen as fake; however, every relationship has some form of currency. Something that the other person is getting in return. In everyday relationships, it would be companionship, the sense of belonging, or love. In the therapeutic "alliance"...
I didn’t even see it that way. But stabilizing myself is a goal. Or even trying to help the stagnant feeling. I guess I need to reevaluate my goals, put which ones have a higher priority. Though putting them on hold still feels like I’m not making progress.
I’m going to try an open discussion though besides this she’s a good therapist, and there’s already an established therapeutic relationship that I don’t want to repeat.
Yeah, I guess you’re right. I guess I have blinders on an equate progress to reaching goals. I guess focusing on getting a...
I’m not for sure. I’m leaning more towards the no simply because she’s a regular counselor and not a licensed specialist. Adding another day doesn’t really seem like an option either. I know I asked a few times to come in for an earlier day and she said there was no openings. Don’t mean to shoot...
I have my goals mapped out, what I want to overcome, and want to get out of therapy. I guess I need to track better how I'm achieving those goals. I just don't know how to achieve them. I guess that's why I wanted to lean on someone with better knowledge. A goal I have currently is being able to...
Whenever I mention wanting homework for my goals she usually tells me that what I'm doing already is working for me, but it doesn't help me feel like I'm working towards them. Don't get me wrong I know I'm impatient, and she's helped me reach some of my goals. I'm better at setting boundaries...
I had the same concerns when my therapist asked me to go in for an assessment for hospitalization. I still have that fear every time I go into my sessions after having a week of suicidal ideations. Though Intensive Outpatient Hospitalization helped a lot. They focused on DBT skills which helped...
Thank you :) I know I need to start with grounding first. But I guess wanted a better idea since it’s a current goal with my therapist. Was going to ask her my previous session but got side track with other things going on.