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This has probably been covered countless times, but is it normal to not want to leave my house? I really tried to get out more in the beginning by going to the mall or going skating or taking long walks, but recently, I just feel really anxious/scared of leaving home. Too many people and...

Reviving. I used to swear excessively, I feel, before all of this. Every sentence I spoke or thought I had contained at least one F and one S. Sometimes more. Most of the time more. Never gave it too much thought or used it out of frustration, surprise or anger, it was just "a part of me", I...

Blank. Don't exactly know how to describe it. Neutral. I'm not sure if it's a good thing or not.

Checking in again. Been getting more sleep as of late (thankfully). Not so bad with the heart racing and jolting awake, but I still get one or two nightmares/bad dreams a night that make me wake up for a bit.

I put that everything's kinda messy but I sorta know where to find things. There's a lot of things, random stuff and knick-knacks around my family's home and my own desk. We don't really throw things away too often. Everything either has another use or has some sentimental value attached to it...

Congratulations! :)

I spend most if my days plugged into my iPod, or just listening to music in general. Ever since I was a little(r) guy. I've been just adding and adding onto my interests, but at the moment, a lot of kinda uplifting, light modern pop like Lady Gaga and Katy Perry. Lana Del Rey's amazing. Cumbia...

I'm going to go to Target to pick out some patio furniture for my mom:) and I should start studying Math for the upcoming semester. Haven't done any in two years, so this'll be rather daunting.

Reviving. I voted for hyperarousal a while back, but very thankfully, that has lessened. For the time being. In the long run, I think the triggers are the worst. Mine are very common things. Technology, for example. Social media. It's everywhere today. I hear about it and my brain'll just run...

I understand you, bedtime anxiety is absolutely horrible. The constantly interrupted sleep only to wake up with my heart racing. At the moment, it's 2pm to around 4-5pm. At least I'm able to ground/distract myself more now. Thank you so much for sharing your experience with me:) and I hope...

Justice.

I think that there is a silver lining:) Today, at least. I would still give absolutely anything to go back, to before the experience. But I know I can't. But now I actually feel true purpose in my life. My psychologists always talk to me about "The Wounded Healer", and they think that I'm...

I'm not artistic by any means, but I enjoy drawing and painting a lot. A lot of letter forms. Calligraphy, Script, Block letters, organic style lettering/making them look like animals or monsters/kaiju, cartoony versions of characters from movies, tv shows, comics, or games I like. I also...

I hang out on channel 58-3, Create, a lot. It has a bunch of cool cooking shows like Lidia's Italy/Kitchen, America's Test Kitchen, Simply Ming, all that good stuff and Antenna TV, which shows classics like Three's Company, The Ropers, and Too Close For Comfort. Good laughs:) Also TBBT, I Love...

First and foremost, that's a very brave move and sometimes the hardest. But I'm glad that you are reaching out. And you couldn't have chosen a better place:) and happy almost 18 months on being med/drug free:) It's definitely difficult to come to terms with, but, it happened. Whatever "it" may...

That's good to hear. Taking optimism a bit at a time:) whenever you can. It'll add up. :) I don't know your story and can never experience what you've experienced, but, here's to justice being served:) and as @Santa_Laurie said, you are strong and we'll all be with you in spirit as well:) Well...

I don't think I can ever ask them to. It's just how they are. And only my mom knows what's going on with me so it would seem weird to ask, you know? They're happy though. On my "Up" days, it makes for a lively household which makes me kinda happy:) Sometimes it gets to be too much. I guess I'll...

In the short run, a little show/concert this Friday:) It's in this local skate shop. Yay big by yay big. 40/50 people tops. But it's always super fun.

Reviving an old thread. I really don't know how old I feel anymore. Young and old. I'm 20. Very naive and new to the world. So many people I know can remember back 20 years as if it were just yesterday. Anyway, I don't really know anymore. But it feels like forever since this experience.

Sorry for wasting another thread, everyone, but loud noises and commotion really gets me upset and makes my anxiety kick. I don't know when this started, but I can't stand too much going on around me anymore. My family (God bless them) have absolutely no inside voice when they speak and I find...

Thrive

Better than ever. I only woke up three times. And my heart didn't race too bad:)

I think that that's a great idea. :) Do things for yourself right now. What you love, for the love of it. This is all about you and your personal fulfillment. I'm certainly no artist, but I do enjoy drawing/painting/sculpting/etc. and the feeling that what I did is not good enough (which I get...

I still listen to punk/Hardcore-related music, but the not so aggressive stuff a majority of the time now. Something lighter and more melodic but still fast and uplifting. But when I feel angry or am working out, the faster, aggressive side comes in handy. And now I find every genre enjoyable...

Not too bad. I'm a lot slower now, I feel. More "ums" and long pauses. Kinda hard to find things to say. Or want to say.