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  1. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I am a narcissist and a loser. I always think I’m right. Everton thinks I’m lying but it’s the damn truth. Good things are not happening to me anymore and I am depressed. I thought I had the best life, and now that I’m living in the moment, it is too much. I think if I tell people the truth that...
  2. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I was set up! I was set up! And I can’t pull my life together or fix it! He knows everything about me and used it against me! No one can help me pull my life together!!!! Not one person can help with the mental instability. The yes, no crap that happens in my mind because of him! Always changing...
  3. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    No one believes me, but my life is going to hell in a hand basket. I can’t stop the bad things from happening l. All because of my ex. He told me he did it all to be vindictive. Now, I can’t erase the past. My life is so effed and no one can help me.
  4. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Ugh...bad stomach flu today. Awful cramps and feeling like crap. I just wish I could feel better. Also wish things in my life would get better. How does everyone else do it??? I used to be so happy until everyone turned on me. I can’t stop shopping or smoking. It’s insane. And pulling myself...
  5. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Everyone else in life can move on. I can’t get rid of the feelings and things associated with all of this. I am not good at making friends, and it is haunting me for the rest of my life. I will never be able to meet anyone because no one is interested in me anyway. I’ve been beat up so bad by...
  6. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I lost so much trust in people that it has ruined my life. I can’t form decent relationships with anyone any more. My work relationships have suffered, I have been ruined financially, my confidence is at an all time low, I can’t deal with my emotions. Every mistake I make is held against me...
  7. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    No one gets it. No one sees it but me. My life is literally going down the tubes. I can’t handle the stress anymore but I have no choice but to move on. I messed up a completely good relationship with someone all because of a goddamn psychic. These damn readings have ruined my entire life.
  8. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Therapy has ruined my life! It really has! Now I have to take on everything by myself. I will never find anyone, I can’t make amends. I can’t do anything. I can’t fix myself. I can’t do it, but no one will help me get out of my own way.
  9. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    You don’t understand. My life is going to sh*t because of all of this stuff that has happened. Because I am crazy! I am too emotional to everyone! Except for those that have gone through crap too. My life is going to hell in a hand basket.
  10. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I messed with the devil. My ex told me he was not a nice person, now my life is effed! No one can truly help me. I have so many issues on top of the charges that I just can’t take the physical pain in my body anymore. But the judge didn’t care. Neither did the police. No one cares. ?
  11. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I hate my life. Nothing ever works out for me. It’s the complete opposite of everything I have ever wanted. Now, I’m a criminal, who has nightmares, freaks out all the time, can’t have kids, attracts people I’m not attracted to, and all this other crap. I hate my life. Oh, and my parents are...
  12. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    No one can help me ? Therapy doesn’t help, nothing helps. No one can help me for real. My life is going down the drain and no one can help me. ?
  13. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I just wish something would work out for me. I had such an amazing life before, and now it’s all for sh*t. I can’t even pull myself together enough mentally to get things done. My life went to crap, and his is better. I can’t ever change things and it sucks. Life is a joke! It’s all a joke! No...
  14. AnnieMae

    Dom Violence I’m a domestic abuse survivor who's now extremely nervous around guys I’m attracted to

    This is EXACTLY how I feel. I don’t know what is true and what is not. It’s so difficult. I’m pretty sure I know though. Because I am looking for what I had in the past, but I am not who I think I am. Not anymore anyway.
  15. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I can’t fix my life! Everything is a huge mess and it’s all because I met the wrong person. A manipulator. Now, I can’t stop viewing everyone else like that. And I can’t stop feeling like one myself. I will never be better than my abuser because I am a baby. My family babies me and coddles me. I...
  16. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I am so screwed. He warned me and I didn’t listen. Now it’s coming. It’s really coming. I will always be stupid, stuck, crying and full of animosity. I will never be happy or find another form of happiness. I’m confused but that doesn’t matter. None of it matters to people I want it to matter...
  17. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Nothing goes as planned. Absolutely nothing. I’m so tired and tired of the stress in my body. I just wish I could be happy and things would line up, but good things just don’t happen to me. I wish they did. I soooo wish they did.
  18. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I was set up and my life just keeps going down the drain! Every person I meet, everything I do is wrong. This damn psychologist has ruined my life! She knew how my ex was, now she is telling me it takes time, just like everyone else. I can’t escape my life. I will never be happy again. It was...
  19. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    This is all bullsh*t! I will never find love because I am always alone! I have no way of meeting people, getting my life together or anything. All I have to do is not think about it, well all I can do is think about it because I am now a loser. I am a loser! My life went to hell in a hand basket...
  20. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I’m in such big trouble. I’m in soooo much trouble. I am being manipulative and stupid trying to weasel my way back in. His life is better and there is nothing I can do to make mine better. I pretend this are ok but they are not. I am a true loser. No one can help me. It’s not PTSD when your...
  21. AnnieMae

    does anyone else feel angry at God sometimes?

    I feel this way all the time. I was raised to believe in God, but I believe he exists for others except for me. Makes me cry. ?
  22. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    I have no real friends. I have no one and nothing. Everyday is a living hell. A living nightmare. It’s not fun. I will never have a relationship with anyone. It’s always go, stop, go, stop. My life is useless. I have no real friends let alone actually meeting a love of my life. I suck as a...
  23. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    Today is a rough day and I am feeling the heck out! Meeting new people and stuff gives me more anxiety than I would like. I hate it. I hate the way my life is going. I really do. Sure I am lucky to have what I have, but I can’t get my life back on track. I never will. I keep telling myself I...
  24. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    No one can help me. It’s never going to get better, be better. I will never be in a relationship with anyone for the rest of my life because of my bad experiences and my past. I’m so tired of not knowing and being on edge. No one can help me and I am f**king pissed! I will always be pissed!
  25. AnnieMae

    My diary of random thoughts

    It’s hard to not be loved by anyone. It really is. People tell you they love you and give you ultimatums and then say you are selfish if you don’t take them. My life is so messed up because of the trauma. I can’t fix it. Things aren’t getting better. I think about buying a house but I don’t have...
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