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Going to the mall, hanging out, and talking with my beautiful mom:)

Yeah. It feels so much better to tell someone:) Subsequently, my mom and I went to the mall today. We shopped for a bit and then went to the food court. We were eating Baja Fresh when we suddenly took a hard turn into our experiences. I finally told her that I was seeing another psychologist...

Many prayers for you and your doggie.

Wow, your awesome descriptions make me want to watch all of those. Especially Bates Motel and Hannibal. :) I don't have too many Must-Watch's, but the one show that comes to mind is Sherlock. They just put the Third season plus a few behind-the-scenes episodes up on Netflix. There are only...

I'm still hanging out at my best friend's house. We watched something that triggered me and he saw that I was upset. So we went to his room and I finally let it all out. I told him everything. He listened. Reassured me that I would get through this and that I would be stronger. And if I ever...

Thank you, @KwanYingirl. I've never heard of that before. I'll definitely look into it. :)

I'm sitting on the couch, hanging out with my best friend for the first time in a month:)

Yes. Definitely. The news, Law & Order: SVU, CI, or anything like it, and pretty much any social media website, triggers me and makes my anxiety and panic skyrocket. I avoid them like the plague. I feel really disconnected from everything I loved before all of this and today's world events, but...

It's a terrible, vicious cycle. I'm only seeing a psychologist at this point. And I'm not really comfortable with medication. I can't afford it anyway. I'm already spending a lot with my psychologist. I actually try to listen to podcasts and audio books to try and sleep. They're semi-effective...

I've always tried to live my life like an open book, so I just say everything that comes to mind. I'm usually staring off at their desk or their rug, coffee table with books on it. A little knick-knack, so...it sounds weird, but I imagine that they're on the phone with me and not physically...

I'm watching it:) I'm not really knowledgeable about teams or players or anything specific, but my family and I have a fun time watching it. I guess Brazil? Can I say that? They seem pretty good. :)

Hello, Josey:) and a big, warm welcome to the forum. I'm Ti. You are strong for overcoming your childhood. You are strong for wanting to help others that have been/are going through what you have, you are strong for being able to work 4-6 hours every day. And you are very strong for opening up...

So many to choose from. Can I do a Top 5? 1.) Apocalypto. I think it came out 2005 or 2006. I love learning about Meso-American civilizations on my free time. Probably not the most realistic portrayal, but it's still pretty cool. 2.) Full Metal Jacket. Powerful, scary. Stanley Kubrick's best...

It's cool and breezy outside right now. Almost chilly. The sun is setting, but it's still light out. Between the day and the night.

Alone? Not a chance! You have desiderata310, loveneverfails, me. (Hi, I'm Ti. :)) You have all of us. And the rest of the forum family. And we'll heal together. :)

I can relate. Thinking about it now is unsettling. And like you said, repulsive.

@seedling: Of course. And I mean it with all my heart and then some, and that's the thing, you don't have to- you're not going through this alone. You have us. :) @Flossy: Yes. The anticipation is horrifying. I've had to cancel on friends a few times because I was in such bad shape. But...

Yeah, I try not to give a day and a number so much power, but a part of me can't let go. My psychologist is working with me enough as it is, and I'm already running short, so I'm not sure if that's possible. But yeah, I guess it won't hurt to try. Thank you so much for your kind words. :) and...

@seedling. It just feels that everything's going fine and then, bam. It just hits. They never said it would be easy. But I guess if there's a night, then there has to be a day, you know? It takes tremendous bravery to open up:) I glad that you're coming out of your low period and are doing well...

I'll try that too, @Flossy. Writing down the day-to-day necessities and thinking positively whenever fear kicks in will help ground me. :) The unpredictability really is the worst part, @Solara. And I'm so happy to hear that you're improving. Thank you guys very much and I wish you the very...

I'm male and both of my psychologists so far have been women. I don't know otherwise, so I can't say for sure, but I feel more comfortable talking to women at this point. They've both been very understanding and empathetic.

I was raised in a Buddhist household. Became atheist by myself. And I was bent on that whole idea. After what happened, I found myself praying to God for help and strength, and to protect and pull everyone- women, children, men, through who have faced far too many lifetimes-worth of strife.

Total roller coaster. Life's sure taking me for a ride. I'll have to tell myself that. "This is part of a healthy healing." I guess it's been hard coming to terms with that. It's great having all of you helping me along the way. I can't thank you guys enough for pulling me through. Love, Light...

Maybe I'm just really confused and lost at the moment. I'm sure I am. Is it "normal" to have ups and downs? Really steep ups and downs? One minute, one day, I feel pretty okay. Pretty good about myself. I love going out and enjoying myself, but then the next, I feel completely low. Like a...

Before all of this, I used to be really into weightlifting. Started in 2012, when I first entered college. I went from 125 to 178/180 over the course of almost two years. I've been dropping weight lately though. I still go 4 times a week, but I've kinda lost all of my steam. I hope to get it...