Opened Up For The First Time

[Ti Vu]

I'm still hanging out at my best friend's house. We watched something that triggered me and he saw that I was upset. So we went to his room and I finally let it all out. I told him everything. He listened. Reassured me that I would get through this and that I would be stronger. And if I ever need to talk, that he would be here. Cliche words to many of us, but it sure helped me. I trust him. He has been through so much too. Much more than I have. I love him so much. I thank him so much.

 

[GWhizz]

@Ti Vu that's really great you have a good friend you can trust and confide in. It's hard carrying this all by ourselves so it's nice that someone close can understand you.

 

[Ti Vu]

Yeah. It feels so much better to tell someone:)

Subsequently, my mom and I went to the mall today. We shopped for a bit and then went to the food court. We were eating Baja Fresh when we suddenly took a hard turn into our experiences. I finally told her that I was seeing another psychologist. We went on to talk about her life growing up. Turns out that most of our family has had a rough time mentally and emotionally. Sometimes I wonder if we're cursed. She had faced so many emotional struggles growing up. She didn't have anyone to talk to, so she muscled through by herself. She told me how she has always felt alone. That's when we both broke down in tears. I reached out and held her hand. It was only a minute or two, but it felt like an eternity. She has a Fighter spirit. A true survivor spirit. I hope that it's hereditary. My mom and I have always been able to relate. An almost psychic connection, I would say. I have no idea how long we were there, but it felt so good to be able to talk to her. And she told me that me holding it in makes her sad and worried, so I should talk to her whenever I feel like it. I love my mom to the ends of the world and back. That phrase makes no sense. And can't possibly begin to describe how much I love her. I love you, Ma:)