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When i think about my sister and mother who were innocent i do feel a justifiable anger. wjhen i feel angry on my own behalf it is not justifiable yet for some reason the anger i feel about what he did to me is bigger. it shouldn't be but i am probably just selfish.

that scripture was once one of my favourites. i also liked Jeremiah 31:3 and Isaiah 49:14-16 as comforting verses

i like that verse. it is beautiful....very hopeful

Incongruous maybe i should take up writing....i don't know where i would start though.....i don't think i have a book in m, seriously. but i don't think i have anything to say. abuse is the only thoing in my head right now,,,i wanted to write my story as a book once but was told that what i have...

if you want to follow my posts feel free.....i am a believer but am struggling with God becaus emy abuser was a christian and he tol dme God told him it was my fault it happened or that i was making it up....i struggle to believe how a loving God would shisper such horrible things into my...

i'm a cHRISTIAN

i have moved away from my abusers why don't i feel ok now???? why am i still so afraid ogf them. why my father is still alive he has power over me

I can relate to that. remember feeling helpless all through my childhood.....i stil feel very anxious at times like my life isn't my own and i have limited autonomoy . if i try to talk about trhe abuse i am silenced. or rejected...

I know i need to go away and self sooth.......but i am scared to stop the tears becaus ei never get to cry or feel sorry for myself- it is a lkuxury for me and if i suppress the tears now i will never get this release again......anfd once my CPTSD gets better I wil be left alone again.. to face...

hi, my life has been one long story of abuser abandonment and rejection. the pattern keeps repeating itself in my adult life ahgain and again. relationships end because my trauma keep scoming up. I keep fearing rejection and anticipating so i push people away and end up more alone than ever. Am...

i wrote a post in childhood called Keep Feeling the Urge to Talk About Two Weird Memories....lots of views but no response...i just feel people find my meories to disgusting to want to help.....it has been the same in RL. all they can do is give me pills and stitch my wrists up but i need more...

The memories are coming up Ronin....i can't deal with them alone......feeling abandoned agaoin...all my life oeople have abandoned me and told me to just go away.....only came out of hospital last week and feel very vulnerable and alone already.....

i need someone who understands severe abuse and CPTSD...Horrble thi ngs have happened and i don't trust anyone IRL to help. been abandoned too many times

i hate my name becuase i hate myself. for letting abuse happen..........i'm in pain right nbow, so much pain....

I was too afraid to help my sister or anyone. I was paralysed with fear so I couldn't move... it has been horrible....after all i was a victim too- my dad would SG me one day then my sister the next or my mum, we were all hurt by him

I was only recently released from a short stay in Psych observation due to a small breakdown. I am really struggling today but feel odd about phoning the Crisis Team as don't want to be admitted. I don't really find the Samaritans helpful...my issue at the moment is very specificslly trauma...

Really struggling today...need to reach out to someone. is anybody there???

What is it I need Just now? I think there is a part of me that needs validation for it, but I don't know if that desire is appropriate or not? My father always said that I was overreacting but I don't know whether to trust his opinin or not- we never gort on very well and I never trusted him...

Hi, I ama CPTSD sufferer who suffered verbal aemotional and physical abuse from my father from age 2 up[ until i left home at 24. i was bullied constantly by my peers as a child and that also was behind my PTSD. Have been in psych treatment with diagnosis of BPD, OCD as well and am battling...

feeling the same too....when something triggers me when i'm not specifically thinking of the abuse i get very emotional but when i talk about what actually happened to me it as though it didn'yt happen to me i have only recently realised how much trauma i had happened to me that i minimised or...

I hear you....my dad abused me repeatedly and in a nasty way well into adulthood until i had the courage to leave,,,,,i don't li98ke my name otr being me but i don't have the guts to kill myself

i either feel everything at once or nothing......finding that middle ground is hard....

You are not alone PandaBear....God bless...i need to get away from here now and keep myself safe.....God bless

I am in that same place now....not the running as i am immobile anyway due to a muscle disease but in the fact that6 i will be ok it is just trying to get the feelings to pass

perhaps that is what i need to do....i'm trying to keep away from the blades and pills but i just keep thinking "why not? why not take the pain away just one more time?" I cannot understand why i am so worthless