Search results

If you feel that people who have *died* are out to get you... yeah, you need to see a professional about that.

If you have to cut your body to deal with your life, things are not ok. That's how I look at things. Doesn't matter if other people want you to stay-the-self-destructive-course. If you have to abuse yourself to do what people want... that's not ok.

I was thinking about this thread more yesterday. I haven't been able to get more than 6 hours of very broken sleep in a night in over three weeks. At this point I'm probably down 4 or 5 nights of sleep over three weeks. The sleep I do get is so restless and not restful it barely counts. I am...

People can develop destructive, damaging coping methods that allow them to look very "functional" from the outside. Everyone around you will insist that you should keep doing what you are doing because you are really fine. You just think you aren't. I'm absolutely done letting other people...

I'm a little confusing. I put both that my partner and I pay 100% with no reimbursement (currently true) and I put that my government partially pays because for the majority of my life that was true. If I chose I could still request help because I was the documented victim of a violent crime but...

Of course I had to look up where I am. I'm just a few months behind you. I recognize your name. I enjoy your contributions to conversations. I feel like I have benefited from having you in my extended net-sphere. Thank you for sharing your perspective and opinions. It's a wonderful gift.

Therapy is about finding a trained professional to help you on the journey you are on through your individual life. Some journey's involve forgiveness and some don't. Whatever is right for the individual is right. It is completely unprofessional and wrong to make ultimatums as a therapist. It...

Wow. Ok. This is hitting a nerve. Breathe. Tap fingers. Think. Well, I am "very high functioning" while being incredibly distressed. The way I make this something people cannot ignore is I blog publicly and I have for going on two decades. My mental health processing is on display for anyone who...

HOLY TOMATO. This is where you went with this?

Breathe. Keep breathing. That's all you really have to do right now. Yeah, I guess food will be useful at intervals. It's ok to drop everything. It's ok to be alone. It's ok to ask for help. It's ok to do whatever you need to do. The only really important part is breathing. The rest can be...

If something is painful I tend to want to spend a lot of time beating my head against it. This all the travel. Sigh.

I'm not sure what triggering means for you, exactly. I have a lot of anxiety with travel but I do it anyway. I travel a *lot*. I spent 5.5 months last year driving around the perimeter of the US with my two small children alone. So travel scares the absolute cr@p out of me... but I do it anyway...

We spent a lot of time talking last night. Noah says I hit him frequently, but it is closer to a tap than an injurious assault so he doesn't comment. He says if I were A) hurting him B) intimidating him or C) escalating he'd make it a big deal but I don't. What I do is more like smacking his...

Maybe unconscious isn't the right word. Dissociated? Unaware? Oblivious? The other night my husband and I were in a martial arts class and at one point I was a complete jerk and I smacked his head. It wasn't part of the drill. I was being a show off jerk because I was proving I could get around...

I take breaks from this website. My level of reactivity is mostly about me not about anyone else. If someone rubs me wrong... I need a break. I don't want other people to have to change so I can be ok.

I needed to see that video. Thanks.

Oh goodness. I've been meditating for a month and my depression and my suicidality are going through the roof. Interesting! Thanks for sharing.

I think you are allowed to be quite graphic in diaries. I'm neurotic about owning my words so I mostly do that writing elsenet. But I've read *graphic* stuff here.

The second time you write it the words will come easier. You will like pieces of the writing more. It's ok to lose work sometimes. It was practice. (I'm a writing teacher and I've written a few books.) It's ok. Just breathe. :)

Yeah. I was in foster care. It started around 3 and was on and off until I was a teenager. I stayed with my mom from 16-18 before I left for good. I'm 34 and still compulsively searching for a mother.

I am incredibly overwhelmed inside my brain so I'm just skimming this thread. I'm sorry for not having higher reading comprehension today. All of the things you are apologizing for are things I've apologized for. I've been in therapy for 31 years and counting. I, too, was born inferior and I...

The problem is I had a super disruptive therapy session *literally* right before the acupuncture session. I don't talk to my therapist again for three weeks.

I'm afraid the acupuncture may have been a little too aggressive this morning. I haven't been doing well for a while and today has just been... I'm walking around town crying cause I literally can't stop. I'm getting really overwhelmed by all the strangers who want to hug me to "make me feel...

That is precisely how I would word something in order to not assign gender to a specific person. I work very hard at excising gender from my language unless it is absolutely necessary because I have a gender ambiguous child and I just plain need the practice. I'm really sorry that it read in a...

Yes. She has been doing it for decades, specifically with PTSD patients. Just about as long as I've been alive.