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Went to mom's on Friday and then work Saturday. My team lead wasn't there to give me the talking to I'm expecting, and the team lead that was there is the one I adore and he seemed cool with me, but he seems cool with everyone always, and all my work friends were like, OMG! You're back! I...

I went down to the lake (Charlotte beach, on lake Ontario). Stopped at a flea market on the way, got a few books (4 for $3, 2 Stephanie plum books, a James Patterson, and a random chick lit), stopped at 711 for some fruit, sweet tea and pretzels, and then spent the day at the "beach". Finished...

Ok. Time to get myself less foggy....I hope. Left work early Monday, called in Tuesday. Ended up going to open interviews and getting a job offer, training starts 8/26 ,fingers crossed. It'll be the best paying job I've had in years. Oh wow, that just clicked as I typed that. I've been again...

When did I start taking everything so gosh darn seriously?

I wish I was like other people, and when I left work early it was for a fun reason, like, oh, just playing hooky, goin to the beach, or a concert, or out. No, I leave work because i can't stop crying. No good reason to cry. Just existentially angsty. And I just end up at "home" berating myself...

It's funny you replied to this today. I guess i needed the reminder myself. But I wonder if it's the reminder to keep going, or to not be so pretentious. I don't even know. All I know is I just walked out of work because I couldn't stop crying, not even over anything important, just the feeling...

Lmao thanks @ladee , I'm at least chuckling through my tears now. Hugs to you too! Who cares if we fall on each other? Lol

Salty af right now. I just want to read, but in my old age, apparently I can't read in moving vehicles anymore or I get sick. Tried it anyway. Feeling pukey. Woke up early, fine, had to go to the bank before work anyway. Before that I went to McDonald's and got coffee. Went to family dollar for...

When my t switched jobs earlier this year, I knew it was coming, so when my phone rang with the clinic number, I let it go to voicemail, and now I listen to it every once in awhile. Like I just did after reading this post lol. I miss him a lot.

You're welcome @ladee and also, thank YOU. I might say more, but came in to get a few things out lol. It's weird, I know you read this, and others may, but this still is definitely a diary, and, somehow easier than just writing in a notebook, so I'm writing not necessarily for anyone else. So I...

Also, as time passes, it's becoming clearer that dbag isn't necessarily the biggest issue at the house. My friend.... I'm not feeling him right now. He claims to be all enlightened, but recently told me I'd have to give up orange is the new black if I wanted to be enlightened, because i...

Ok. She's fine. This time. I know sometime she won't be. I guess I should know that when that time is.... its not my fault.

Feeling weird. Yesterday I went to see Mickey Dolenz of the Monkees. He was my first crush. I loved the Monkees, I wanted them to adopt me. When I was a kid I listened to them all the time.... including at night, as I was falling asleep.....while horrible things we're being done to me. 5 55...

Wow. I just blew my own mind! A couple of weeks ago...actually, 2 weeks ago today, I called my mom in the afternoon, and she didn't answer. And didn't answer. And didn't answer. And I freaked out. Cause in 2009, I called her, and she didn't answer, and when I finally got to her house after...

Ok Bananie. Take a step back, and a breath in, let it out now, put your chin up, you can do it tiger, you a woman now, and in your dream it's time to do the best you can now. Left work early last night and called in today, I don't feel well. I feel fevery. and just generally not well. Is it...

Yay!!!!! Congrats!!!

It's funny, I know he can't write back, so I wasn't expecting a reply, but I guess I still was, so, I'm a little down to not hear back. But I'm kinda just down in general. I'm supposed to go to see u2 next week. It got too expensive for the trip, I'm barely scrapin by, and I've been feeling...

I did it!

It took 6 years, but I finally got my license!!!!! And I want to call or email old T to tell him

Hope things got better after your strange day, @ladee ! Lol, started that yesterday, then just.... didn't post or write anything else. New job.....is goin. Thanks for asking. It's telemarketing, so.... that says it all lol. But I don't hate it as much as the taxi place, and no one is stalking...

Oops, hit post by mistake, can't delete, that I can see. "Your cat was meowing at me today. Is she out of food?" Mofo, I've had her for 14 years, and she means more to me than anyone or anything, so no, she's not out of food. She was probably telling you to eff off, you effing eff. Ugh. I was...

"Your cat was meowing

On the way to the first real day, in a super foul mood. Funny how my internet didn't go out for almost 3 weeks while dbag was away, and now.... it's not working. Bill is paid. Company says there are no service issues in the area, or problems with my lines. It's just not working. Tech is coming...

Another "childish" action on my part this morning. Woke up to the Spanish music blaring, bass thumping. So I finally plugged in my woofer at and four speakers and started a rap/hip hop playlist, first song "I don't f**k with yoy" by big Sean. The music upstairs didn't last much longer. I am...

Seems like time for a little ramble, while I have a few moments. Not that I don't have free time. I guess I just feel like gettin some things out for meself. Two days of training down so far, three to go. It's not a bad place.... People seem cool. What sucks is that they actually still hold the...