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Thank you @gizmo, You are so kind, I truly appreciate every word you said. Your post brought me to tears. It's been very difficult.

I'm not quite sure what to say. I read your post and feel compelled to reply back. I can relate to your post and my heart goes out to you. Some people can be just so cruel. But you are safe here. So far for myself, everyone has been really kind and non-judgemental. I would like to extend that to...

After having an awesome work out last night I am feeling more grounded and would like to continue my experience. From my previous post I'm sure it's evident that things went downhill from there. He tripped me and crushed me with his weight. I just remeber being scared I was going to pass out...

Wow thank you @Saetva! That post really does cover everything. It seems to me that this forum is exactly what I've been missing in my recovery so far. The amount of understanding, compassion, advice is substantial in itself. Although for me, what's struck me the most is I've forgotten how to...

Completed a 2 hour bootcamp with weighted vest. Including 100 sets of stairs, 100 burpee's, 100 bicycles, 100 jump squats and many more fun things. I love to sweat out everything I got! I'm blessed to be able to do so.

I think this is correct, but I have no clue. Attempting to start my dairy. The truth will set you free, but first it turns you inside out. I'm avoiding most of my childhood, so this is most likely backwards from what I should be doing but it's the only place I know where to start from. It's...

I completed one hour of spin with a weighted vest. Followed by an hour bootcamp outside with weights and some trail running. Finished off with 30 burpee's and half an hour of obstacle training.... You'd think I'd sleep well enough!

Is it coming up on the anniversary? Or maybe this time of the year is usually difficult for you? I know for myself I have started to notice that I become worse off when either the aniversary is around the corner, or sometimes when a special event that included them comes around. Places can...

Thank you @Ocean5. I read your comment this morning, and I needed a hug. Another nightmare... Currently trying to not let it bother me. It's not real. It's not real.

Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! This forum is really helping me. Although I come here mostly in my worst times and it's usually hard for me to be honest because I'm scared of judgment. I have always received kind contructive advice. My dream was really weird, it's def. not something I...

Hello/ Good.. Morning, to those just waking up! I had a brutal nightmare last night. Even though I'm awake now, and just starting my shift at work this morning I can not rid myself of this unnerving feeling. I feel distraught. In my dream I killed certain parts of myself at the encouragement...

I am 24. We have a 3 year old together and ever since I was pregnant we have had issues. But we went to couples therapy and started to work things out. Than I got sexually assaulted and everything has changed. He spent a while thinking and telling me to fix myself and to snap out of. To be...

Thank you, I will try to figure this out. I don't want to do anything stupid. I'm just so overwhelmed, so thank you for being supportive.

No I've never been, it just seems so scary. All of the doctors, questions, possible meds. Everything about it scares me. Plus I have to work today, it's Father's Day and no one can take my shift. I'm thinking about going into the hospital after work but I'm supposed to work tomorrow as well. I...

I'm so scared though. Thank you for replying. I appreciate it.

I'm in a bad place. My therapist does not work weekends and he is in training this coming week. So I can not call him for support. I am scared. Everything is so overwhelming. I cried myself to sleep last night. After being in a fit most of the night either yelling or dissociating. I've been...

That does make sense. Thank you. Reading that last comment about this place being safe and the people here being unlike our attackers made me cry. It does feel like the attack left me with peices of him stuck in my mind like a thorn.

Thank you for replying and your kind words. Its comforting to know that there are people who can understand to some degree.

Hello Everyone, This is my second post after introductions, and I hope I'm doing it correctly. I feel very alone and empty. I hate myself. So much so that it is overwhelming. I feel like there is no escape from these feelings or from my life that has resulted from my assault. I wish I...

I would love to chat more with you. You are also more than welcome to message me anytime. I too suffer from depression/anxiety. I also have a lot of trouble with dissociating. Today was my first time ever on any kind of forum and I'm truly happy to have talked with you even briefly. It makes...

Good for you! To know where the line is and that you do deserve better. I am a mother as well, and I'm sure that it wasn't an easy leaving the relationship, but I want you to know that I actually find what you did extremely empowering. This is something I have also lived with most of my life...

Hi, I'm totally new to this forum, and posting. I'm 24 and can totally relate. Abusive relationships and dealing with PTSD. I'm glad you are reaching out. I find it kind of like a double edge sword, finally knowing a name for everything that haunts you but also having to deal with the...

Hi, I am completely new to this forum but also this in general, reaching out to talk to people. Not to mention doing it on the Internet. I am not to comfortable in sharing all to much at the moment. I'm scared, I'm scared of my family, my partner, my workplace, my therapist (although he is...