Sufferer Hello!

[0722]

Hello everyone.

I have just been diagnosed with PTSD by my doctor, and it broke my heart. But at least I have been diagnosed now after all these years. I am 23 years old, a single parent to my 16 month old daughter.

I knew I had to change my life around when I came out of my second abusive relationship. The first one was my daughter's father who I was with for just over a year. The second relationship lasted just over 6 months and I noticed the signs straight away, so I got out of the relationship before he got worse like my daughter's father. I have all sorts of symptoms. I think I had PTSD before these relationships, just not as severe as I am now. I used to have lots of friends in school, but now I have hardly any, only 2 from school. I have made one friend who I met on a course to help me from the abuse I received so it's been good to chat about it with her.

I hate having PTSD, but it's good to know I'm not alone, even though having it is horrible.

 

[Dragonfly-Dawn]

Hi,

I'm totally new to this forum, and posting. I'm 24 and can totally relate. Abusive relationships and dealing with PTSD. I'm glad you are reaching out. I find it kind of like a double edge sword, finally knowing a name for everything that haunts you but also having to deal with the actuality of it is a lot to take in.

Best wishes to you and your journey!

 

[0722]

Thank you for your reply Dragonfly-Dawn, I only came out of my second relationship on Thursday, as the night before when he was drunk he said I was nothing... Great confidence for my PTSD! I know I'm better off.

I hope you get through it too... So hard when it's been most of my life.

 

[Dragonfly-Dawn]

Good for you! To know where the line is and that you do deserve better. I am a mother as well, and I'm sure that it wasn't an easy leaving the relationship, but I want you to know that I actually find what you did extremely empowering.

This is something I have also lived with most of my life. It sucks to be in such a horrendous cycle. Especially when I desperately want to break it.

You are worth so much and I'm glad you stood up for yourself.

 

[0722]

The second relationship was easier to get out of than the first one, as the first one I was renting a flat with him and we had a child together, whereas the second one I didn't. Plus I went to school with the first one.

I must admit the first was extremely difficult to get out of, so I understand totally how you feel. If you ever need a chat, you are more than welcome to message me, I'm going to try and visit this forum a lot as I desperately want to overcome PTSD, plus I have anxiety and depression.

 

[Dragonfly-Dawn]

I would love to chat more with you. You are also more than welcome to message me anytime.

I too suffer from depression/anxiety. I also have a lot of trouble with dissociating.

Today was my first time ever on any kind of forum and I'm truly happy to have talked with you even briefly. It makes me feel like I'm not completely alone in this world with these feelings. Thank you for replying back to me and I hope we do talk more in the future.

 

[Bees Are Awesome]

Hello and welcome @0722 ! (Also @Dragonfly-Dawn)

 

[0722]

Thank you Dragonfly-Dawn, it's good to know I'm not alone, even though I hate having PTSD. No one really understands it who is close to me, my best friend understands I think as she was quite alone as a child too. It's good you have joined this forum, I am on a collectors forum too which I go on daily and I used to be on a pregnancy forum when I was pregnant but I don't go on that anymore. It's good you've had the confidence to go on a forum, it's a brilliant start!

I've just noticed, there are people from all over the world on this forum!

Hello Unraveling1! Thank you!

 

[intothelight]

@0722 Welcome to the forum!

Having a diagnosis will also provide you with options for getting better. I hope you find the time here helpful.

 

[Friday]

A diagnosis only describes what's already there... It doesn't change anything about you... It does allow you to get the right help for the right problem.

 

[0722]

Thank you Intothelight, I was on medication last week but it made me feel really tired and aching, all I wanted to do was sleep so I came off them and my doctor prescribed me with some different ones, I start them tomorrow so hopefully they will help! I've also been referred to a therapist by my doctor so hopefully I will hear from them soon.

Hello FridayJones, I'm happy I've finally been diagnosed, I always knew I had some kind of disorder but it's relieving that I know which direction to go in now to finally help me.

 

[joeylittle]

Welcome to the forum, @0722 - there's tons of good info here, people to connect with, and I hope this community can give you some support.