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That is well appreciated, sun seeker! Sometimes, a hug or compassion look can do far more than any verbiage. In fact, that is quite often the case. Thank you so much.

I struggle with the notion of God purely because the agony PTSD, and Clinical Depression in the '80s, has made it next to impossible to believe in a loving deity. I went into treatment for drug addiction in 1980 and became a dedicated NA member for years. I was told all my emotional woes was a...

It's one of these mornings I am really struggling with trauma following another night of horrible nightmares. I'm so damn upset about it. It's got me all screwed up. I don't want hurt like this. I don't want to be disassociated either, as was the case the past couple of days. That's even worse...

AlmostFellForIt: My heart is with you!

I turned 62 today and am not in real good shape at all! This has been the very worst year of my life, as my PTSD got much worse. I have no career or relationship goals left; I am retired for good, and I have the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with. But I am living in constant hope I...

Link Removed -- I am so sorry you are in that much pain. How can I support you? I've never had a suicidal ideation, only because I am terrified of dying. I'm afraid there might not be an afterlife and I would just cease to exist in any form. I am desperate to learn how to enjoy my life again...

FROGS - Sounds like you've gained tremendous ground. Focus on that progress rather than what growth still lies ahead.

It seems I've gotten real stuck again the past few weeks. I wake up from nightmares with paralyzing trauma, then after several hours, I shut down and completely dissociate from all my emotions. The latter always causes my muscles to spasm. Then I go to sleep and the same crap occurs again the...

Nightmares are my most prevalent trigger and the one I can't avoid! I was on a plane that nearly crashed years ago, the latest in a series of traumatic episodes throughout my existence, and I have suffered from nightmares continuously since. They differ from night to night, but all have a...

JUSTMEHERE - Boy, can I identify with you. I have the dilemma when I take a benzo like Ativan. They do tend to make me emotionally numb (disassociate) as well. Sometimes, that's even more difficult to bear than the anxiety itself. When I shut down, I get stuck in my head, and my mind begins to...

DESIDERATA: My heart really does go out to you! I can empathize completely. It seems like I live my life trying to avoid triggers, because once I become retraumatized by one of them, it takes days, sometimes weeks for it to pass. Yet, I have to believe it will get better some day, that perhaps...

ROAMINGGNOME: So sorry you are suffering. Hopefully, that will improve overnight. Although the Seroquil could and should help with the Bipolar symptoms, it won't impact the joint pain. Since that is exclusively a side effect of Zyprexa, it will have to leave your body completely. The Seroquil...

ROAMMINGGNOME: I have been taking 50 mgs. of Seroquel for the last few years before bedtime to help me sleep and amplify the effects of my antidepressant. No side effects. My shrink told me the normal dosage of the medication for psychosis is 800 mgs. a day. Sounds like you are still within a...

Anxiety can be extremely physical, FALLING-WAVE! This has been my experience, at least, for years.

I struggle equally as much with the lack of understanding on others' part as I do the PTSD itself!

Just sounds like a simple parenting philosophy difference -- not abuse!

SOLARA: Thank you so much for your kind and empathetic response. I needed it badly today, as my nightly nightmares were extremely injurious last night -- literally. I ended up punching the lamp on my side table in my sleep, knocking it over the side and slightly hurting my hand. I also shocked...

LIFECUTSHORT: I haven't gotten a decent and restful night's sleep in about 15 years. Every single night, I have nightmares -- sometimes more horrible than the actual traumas I've suffered. Alternately, there are nights I can't even sleep at all (even with medication) because of the dreams'...

DIGZ: It's nothing short of amazing how the ego works to protect us from our trauma and memories. The problem is all too often, the defenses it creates are even more painful and troublesome than what it is supposed to be protecting us from in the first place. You landed up with DID in addition...

SOLARA: You are absolutely correct! I have noticed for the past five years (and have complained) that people are using social media to avoid actual wholesome face-to-face relationships. Several times I have requested, after a year or more, a Facebook friend and I take it to the next level: phone...

SheilaKathy: Fortunately, you live in a much more progressive country than the U.S. Several friends who went there to avoid the criminal Vietnam War ended up staying, even after pardoned. America likes to brag it is the "greatest country on Earth," and while that is true when it comes to wealth...

Thanks for your understanding, people! If there is one thing I can wish for before I leave this world, it's that emotional disorders are treated with the same dignity and compassion by this society as the ones below the shoulders.

Just my take, influenced by my experience: I wouldn't tell anyone at work about any mental health issues. The world just don't get it yet! It had been thrown back in my face by some when I did years ago. No more!

Notsowild: I honestly can identify with your horror completely! I have always struggled when figures of authority -- especially bosses -- have called me into their offices. It feels so much like being called into the principal's office. I just want the whole thing to be over with already so I...

Recently, I have rekindled childhood friendships on Facebook with people I haven't seen in over 40 years. I just can't tell these people the truth about my PTSD and that I had to retire on go on disability 13 years ago. So I lie about why I still don't work, making it sound like I am only...