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So I've been thinking a lot about suicide lately. Not that I want to die, I just can't stop thinking about it. I have ended many panic attacks in my life by telling myself, I can always just kill myself if it gets too bad. I need better coping skills! I've talked to T about this in the past...

I've spoken to my t about suicide while in crisis and while not in crisis. She was very helpful. It isnt a subject to avoid. We have discussed voluntary and involuntary inpatient. We've discussed emergency plans. You should definitely talk about it. Have a plan. Your t isn't going to...

Yes I definitely intend to. We are going to talk about it next week. She didnt have time this week. I'm just super stressed right now with other things and thought maybe I could get some onsite here. I cant hear when I dissociate so I dont know.

I just recently started dissociating in therapy. How does your T address this? My T said we will have to address it as it happens but did not elaborate. Curious what to expect. Dissociation for me is that I feel like I'm floating, get tunnel vision and cant process auditory input. I can...

So I got my 2x a week appointments for the whole month of October. Hopefully I'll feel better!!

@Missycat, there is another t she has set up as an emergency contact for me However, it is the other t in her office and my husband has started seeing her. Not sure where that leaves me. Right now I just want to be held by my husband. Nothing more! Just held. It makes me feel safe. I...

So we ( t and i) talked a little last week about the dissociation at the end of my session. I dissociated just talking about it. I only heard about half of what t said. I admitted that to her today. She was very understanding. We talked more about it today and I was able to stay with her...

I had a really productive but difficult session with T. I asked about seeing her more often until I feel better and she said that was fine but she can only do one appointment next week because she is only in the office 2 days. I'm really distraught. I know she cares. I know she would do it...

Thanks everyone. I hate this feeling of just being a burden on people. But I really need to talk and only t has the information i need. I have questions about my dissociation that i really need answers to. I talk to my husband about everything, but he isnt a professional. He listens and...

Ok, I see t 1 time a week. Last week I had 2 issues I needed to talk about. We talked about one and ran out of time. She said we would talk about the other this week, which is fine. But...I need to talk about both again and know we will run out of time again. Is it wrong or needy to ask to...

We have agreed I can email her anything I'm not comfortable saying out loud. This has helped tremendously. I use the 5 senses grounding occasionally but I havent in a while. I think i need to start again. I use peppermint too!! Dissociation is scary for me. I dont have many memories of...

I dissociate during sex with my husband. Mine is in the form of body numbness mostly. I finally told my husband about it and at first he was a little upset that I had let this go on so long without telling him. Now he just wants me to talk to t about It and find a way to heal and be present...

So I saw t today. She confirmed what I'm experiencing is dissociation. We didnt get to talk much about it as I had something else going on that I had to talk about. We are going to talk about it next week.

I'm having a really hard time with the accepting part. I have no concrete memories of being molested but lots of vague memories, flashbacks and intense fear of sex. I really need to talk to t but I'm so scared. I'm sitting here with me email open thinking I could email her and not have to say...

Thanks @piratelady. I've emailed her before and she almost always responds. I'm thinking the difference this time is that we agreed to the email in session and said we would talk further in the next session. It would have been nice to at least get and thank you or I recieved your email. But I...

You are probably right. Thanks for pointing this out. I've been seeing her for over 2 years and we have a good relationship. She has been practicing for 27 years, so surely she has dealt with this before. If I have the nerve I might just ask her. I have a feeling her answer would be...

@FauxLiz and @somerandomguy Thank you for your response. She has also made the comment that she "feels like she is prying" when she asked me a different question. I really don't know if she is feeling uncomfortable or if she is afraid of making me too uncomfortable to talk anymore. She is...

Thank you @grit grifor your reply. I often project my feelings on others. You might be right. I was really uncomfortable with the question. Maybe I'm projecting my feelings on her. Maybe she was just trying to give me a more comfortable way to answer her.

So...in my last session with T she asked me at what point intimacy becomes uncomfortable. We've been talking about mine and my husbands intimacy issues for a couple of weeks. It is a very uncomfortable conversation for me and T knows this. However when she asked at what point it becomes...

Thank you both for your responses. I plan to talk to T about this in the next session. But it freaked me out when I started "Shrinking." My husband only knows that something made me cry. I couldn't tell him what happened. He knows about the numbness. but not the shrinking into myself...

Is this Depersonalization? When I'm making love to my husband my body goes numb. Like physically numb. I can't feel anything in certain areas of my body. Well last night, we tried. I felt like I was sinking into the bed and just growing smaller and smaller. I just started crying. My...

Coffee, black with stevia. I was a cop. Nuff said!

I'm going through this right now. I've had PTSD since 2004. My husband has been my rock. He recently began having mental.health issues due to the stress of his job and family. We have an autistic 7 yo son and a 5 yo daughter. He became overwhelmed with it all and has started seeing a t...

Ok, so I've been reading about depersonalization and apparently physical numbness is a symptom.

Thank you @somerandomguy for your response. I really want to tell my T. I'm just embarrassed. I have a week to come to terms with this and tell her. I think it would be more comfortable emailing her than outright telling her. She assured me it was ok to email her and even said I'll be...