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I have spent my afternoon watching positive and healing videos on YouTube, and later on, or tomorrow, if they get on my nerves, I will go out of the house. My Clonazepam dose makes it possible for me to drive my car without fear, and I am on a low dose, I might as well go with it.

This afternoon, I have been under a lot of stress, so I have been watching videos on YouTube on how to help the subconscious mind. I want to learn to keep my thoughts more positive. I want to learn how to operate from my wishes and desires. I am actively trying to deprogram my negative thinking...

Thank you. Trying, and trying not to updose on my anxiolytic.

Thank you for your responses, and yes, there are doggie pics. So cute. :)

I currently live in a house owned by my family; who has a toxic dynamic, and they often emotionally and verbally abuse me. I'm stuck here right now due to my illness, and financial situation. There is going to be a party here this weekend, and I'm scared, because I have no choice in the matter...

I have multiple traumas, and I have been diagnosed with C-PTSD. It makes sense to me now why she doesn't want to do this yet, or not at all. Today, she told me that she wants me to be prepared for IFS, so we're taking some time to get to know one another, and she wants me to be able to be calmer...

Yes.

I know this is an older post, but I feel the need to chime in and say that I am also an adult child of an NPD mother, and it is HELLISH.

I'd like to go back to being a kid but with caring parents who gave a crap. Yeah, Okra is slimy. As for the being thinner part, please believe me when I say that because I have PTSD, I don't feel any happier than I did when I was heavier; prior to my breakdown. I should also mention that every...

Your post deeply resonates with me. I can't even begin to express the empathy I felt when I read it. It's tear inducing, and intense, and I am so sorry you have gone through this pain. I was a parentified child, and I did not get to have a real childhood. I was mostly forced to take care of my...

Spot on.

I'm just going to come out and say it... my mother was a real a**hole to me, and you're right.

I know about it from reading up on alternatives for Clonazepam. Unfortunately, I have sleep apnea, so it is not the safest drug for me to take, as it is higher in Anticholingeric properties than Clonazepam. I wish I could take something else, but right now, I can't. I was on Ativan for a while...

Thank you, Hodge. It means a lot to me that you took the time to write this post. It's been especially difficult, because not only have family denied my PTSD diagnosis, but a couple of other people I know, including my boyfriend; who used to verbally abuse me, says things like "If it's in the...

Thank you, Skitzii.

Thank you.

I was raped multiple times by one of my mother's husbands. He told me that if I told anyone, he would kill me, and he beat me to shut me up. It worked, and I didn't tell anyone until I was in my late 20s, after he had passed away. I think it was the beginning of my PTSD, which has been triggered...

She says she thinks I can't handle it, and it will trigger me, so she's going to try IFS. I have been doing EFT at home, by myself. I've been to this new therapist 3 times; she says she is taking some time to get to know me before giving me therapy. My last therapist did not give me any real...

Xander, I am deeply sorry for what you have gone through, and I empathize. My home is triggering my PTSD, and I have no way to move out right now, due to financial problems. I can't have pets here, but even if I could, I don't think I could handle the responsibility.

Than you, mrsps. It means a lot to me. :hug:

My mother has been abusive since I was 3.

Yes, and I am trying hard to use mindfulness techniques to stop the worry. It's not easy. When I have a "what if" thought, my mental response is "I don't know."

Hi, SheilaKathy. I've heard that hydroxyzine is worse for breathing issues than Clonazepam, and I am on a form of CPAP, so that's why I don't take it. I think the word is anticholingeric?

Thank you, Willy. I have a therapist now, but it feels good to be here on this site.

I have a lot of guilt and shame for taking .75mg a day of Clonazepam, because I never took meds before. The doctor tried to get me to take Lexapro, but I can barely handle this one medication, and I fear being poly-drugged. I had managed to taper myself down slowly a few months ago to .38mg a...