ReachingOutJ
Silver Member
This afternoon, I have been under a lot of stress, so I have been watching videos on YouTube on how to help the subconscious mind. I want to learn to keep my thoughts more positive. I want to learn how to operate from my wishes and desires. I am actively trying to deprogram my negative thinking, which is not easy, but I'm trying.
I am choosing to tell myself that I am safe, and loved, I that am healing more every day, and I choose to learn to help myself. The deep parts of my mind have been hijacked by trauma, and I want to take back my control.
I want to stop being afraid, and this is part and parcel of all of the therapy. You might not believe this, but two days ago, I stopped all of my OCD rituals. I just said to myself "This is superstition based, and it is not needed." I had an obsession with the number 5, I would do counting rituals, checking rituals, I would hang my towel a certain way, dry off my body a certain way, walk so many steps to the bedroom, and I JUST STOPPED IT.
I think if I can do that; and yes, it is a bit scary, perhaps I can change my perception and help myself get past the PTSD fear? Again, it's worth a try.
I am choosing to tell myself that I am safe, and loved, I that am healing more every day, and I choose to learn to help myself. The deep parts of my mind have been hijacked by trauma, and I want to take back my control.
I want to stop being afraid, and this is part and parcel of all of the therapy. You might not believe this, but two days ago, I stopped all of my OCD rituals. I just said to myself "This is superstition based, and it is not needed." I had an obsession with the number 5, I would do counting rituals, checking rituals, I would hang my towel a certain way, dry off my body a certain way, walk so many steps to the bedroom, and I JUST STOPPED IT.
I think if I can do that; and yes, it is a bit scary, perhaps I can change my perception and help myself get past the PTSD fear? Again, it's worth a try.
