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Not recently. I guess I should hit up the walk in

I’ve been eating rolaids like candy

PTSD related? I have never had anything like this until after my accident and developing this anxiety disorder where I’m stressed 24/7

Lately everyone has been adding on the stress and pushing me hard into what they think I need to be doing. I’ve noticed it for a while now, but the past couple days I’ve woken up with severe heartburn to the point where I think I’m going to vomit lava. My entire body is exhausted, I feel...

That’ll teach her comment is exactly how I feel about my accident. I feel a lot of ppl are watching me struggle now and they are like “hmm..typical attention seeking. Whatever, that’s what you get for being a jerk.” Even though I am the farthest thing from a jerk!

Lol sad thing is, I’m highly aware of all this. Like a good old DVD I keep playing, even tho I hate the movie

In my youth, I've always been heavily shamed for my faults. As a way to cope, I focused on always taking accountability for my actions. I learned that if someone takes the heat, everyone can just move on. Also, if I owned up to everything, then I would be more genuine of a person (instead of the...

I posted this because I've been having quite the mix up of the past few days. Recovery is the ugliest thing you could imagine, but it's not even that which is distressing. It's mainly other's perception of what's going on. I have a really hard time sharing. Lately I've been getting better with...

Now how does that effect change? If all those people affected by the mental asylums way back in they day accepted that line, then we wouldn't have the progressive mental health care we do now. I'm always being told to accept what's there, and that's as good as it's going to get. WRONG. If we...

For me it’s when my therapist asks, “how was your week?”. Well, in all honesty it’s too overwhelming of a question for me to answer. So, most of the time I dick around and make her dig. It’s hard to get it all out or to even know where to start

I feel that is more isolating than anything because then it brings out more trauma and shame. It's opening up to yet another person who may or may not be skilled enough to manage the trauma. I don't need anyone who doesn't know what they are doing messing things up anymore in the name of 'trying...

For Canada day we had fireworks going on in our neighbourhood the day before, day of, AND day after. Ugh. I'm actually surprised none are going off tonight!

I have to struggle through a lot of crap alone. It's me against worker's comp, it's me alone in doctor's or therapist offices...friends say they support here and there, but at the end of the day it's rare I get calls checking in to see how I'm doing. So, when things get tough to the point where...

it's not that it scares me, it's just so irrelevant. Even if I said yes, I'm struggling rn..what would they do? Admit me to the hospital and pump me full of drugs. That's all. Then they want me to return to this 'life'. It's so mundane. And before you tell me it's up to me to change that...I'm...

lol what a question. Everyone keeps asking me this, and I say “I’ll be fine”....but I lie. People are so easy to manipulate. They take your “it’ll be fine” way too easily. Is it just because it’s easier for them to handle instead of the possibility that someone is having that hard of a time...

I was taught to breathe in for a count of 4, hold for 4, and then slowly exhale for 8. The focus was to have the exhale longer than the inhale. Physiologically if you're likely to hyperventilate, it's due to the surplus of oxygen in your body. So, if you're borderline panicking, it's best to...

Yeah I’ve had to argue with worker’s comp to give me more time with my physio as I LOVE being strong and athletic, but certain movements and some muscle fatigue stuff is a trigger. I haven’t ironed out all the kinks. I think today I’m realizing how much effort it actually takes to either avoid...

Yeah, I hear what you all are saying. I'm simply miserable about it. I wonder when the resentment towards my parents will go away. Even in my recovery I work exceptionally hard at it. Others ALWAYS tell me I place unattainable standards for myself to achieve, and somehow am very understanding to...

That's the problem though. I avoid anything that's not work or considered to benefit my future. I mean I totally understand the concept and how important it is to incorporate relaxation into my day (especially with loads of anxiety and triggers), but I guess my issue is feeling deserving enough...

I've been off work for just over a year now bc of a work accident of me striking a moose on the highway. That's when I officially was diagnosed with severe symptoms of PTSD, and now I still am recovering from post-concussive syndrome. As well my body is taking it's sweet ass time healing. This...

I'm really bothered by this, and it finally hit me that this is a huge problem. Every single freaking morning, I wake up with a buttload of things 'to do'. Now I'm not talking about the regular "hey, that's life" type of chores, but it's like I FIND things that need doing to the point where I...

Sometimes, if I was lucky and pushed myself too much I’d also get symptoms of derealization. I likely had dissociation too but I’m thinking of one point where I was at a store and it got so bad I felt I was on LSD. I haven’t tried LCD, but it felt like a psychoactive substance for sure. I had to...

In some situations I find I struggle to have a “satiating” breath. I have a respirologist that follows me and has diagnosed me with asthma. I’ve gone to her a few times reporting that the inhaler does not work. Now I was diagnosed with PTSD and have been working with a therapist, it has come to...

I don't know if this is the same thing or not, but especially when I'm home alone and I'm thinking about the trauma I do this jerk reflex. I assume if it were to go full blown it would be the whole involuntary shaking I get with an intense panic attack, but it's like my body tenses in my hips...

Is the feedback that terrible? I mean he likely would have been able to work with you on it while you were seeing him. I know sometimes I tell my physiotherapist that she’s going to get mad at me for doing something, and it was refreshing to have her respond with “I doubt it” and shrugging her...