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Feel the love? It is beautiful, just as you are Laurie!

The subject hasn't been talked about since I asked him what he thought about it. I don't want to push it if he is uncomfortable with the idea. We communicate daily, for several hours, about the server we run. He has shared some of his personal life and has been supportive of me with...

Thank you all for your responses. I am quite nervous/excited about the idea of making plans, but for me It's the "need to know", is there a possibility for a "real" thing with us, or not. My life now is kind of stagnated. I know it will also be a relief for him to know I will insist on staying...

Hi everyone. I haven't posted a new thread in a while, but figured I might as well get peoples thoughts on something I am contemplating. I came to the forums to learn about PTSD as I became friends with a sufferer on-line while gaming. It was a rough course at first. I eventually learned that I...

This is how I feel, too. It is quite difficult at this moment in my life to be an adult. I feel helpless, like a kid that not only needs comfort and safety, but guidance on life skills. I don't know if it's my stage of life, pre-menopausal and kids being mostly grown, or what, but the depression...

I'm glad you got a little relief. Are you able to just call him and talk instead of the texts?

I stopped reading the responses after the OP replied. I tend to lean towards wanting to find good in people, and forgiving them if they messed up. That is how I want to be treated. I do think people may be ignorant and not know the full extent of what they are doing. Everyone's experience is...

sorry to hear seagreen. I have only had one major anxiety attack. I found that listening to lullaby music and watching this sort of psychedelic video that went along with it was helpful. I haven't been able to manage responsibilities in a while, though, so you're doing pretty good. Hang in there.

You have a friend here Glara. I relate so much to where you are at in life. I have struggled with depression throughout my life and things have gotten worse. Winters are awful, and I am pre-menopausal (46). I have lost my job of 20 years. Things are a mess and it's a long story. You can pm if...

feel for you too Glara, I know it's painful and there isn't any quick fix. I am a romantic and have been rooting for your relationship to work out, or that he would provide you with some hope, anyway. I'll say it with you, "blaaaaaaccchh"

Good advice, Scout. I tend to go online and game instead of dealing with stuff. I have been divorced several years and find that if I have no one to hold me accountable I avoid/don't do. I don't think I could ever be self employed as I lack self discipline. I tend to label myself as lazy, but it...

I can say I relate, I constantly procrastinate and avoid and so much has piled up. I get myself in a mess that could've been avoided if I hadn't procrastinated...like paying bills, getting car inspected, etc. I don't know why I I am like this, I have been diagnosed with depression, ADHD, and...

Holy cow Simon that must of taken some time! Glare I truly feel for you. You love him, you worry about him, you keep hoping he will fulfill some of your needs but continue to be in want, feeling lonely but trying to continue to be strong and selfless for him. I can relate. I have a hard time...

Hmm. I kind of feel that you pulled back as soon as he expressed feelings to you, which I believe is common among PTSD sufferers. So in his eyes you did become cold. It's true he may have been much more emotionally invested than you and if you didn't feel the same then it was best to end it, but...

So are crowns

I want love

Wow. I don't have an answer to your question but you definitely need a break. It is also okay to have to leave the relationship to take care of yourself. It doesn't have to be permanent. With some time for yourself you may be better apt to see more clearly how best to deal with this...

It's funny how one will down-play they're history, I rationalize thinking it wasn't that bad, I never really was physically abused, etc...etc..doesn't mean that it still wasn't traumatic. Thank you Kwan and Justmehere, your words are greatly appreciated.

I was extremely fearful that my parents would either kill each other, or that my mom would lose it and injure or kill one of us kids. She would be full of rage sometimes. She also drove drunk more than once with us kids in the car, which was extremely scary. She broke all the windows in the...

Thanks for your replies. I have never personally met my friend, Ayesha, everything is online and through voice chat. I really don't know what is going on with me, that is why I made the post. I also am not tring to self diagnose, just attempting to understand and curious of what other people may...

I haven't posted anything in a while as things have been somewhat stable with myself and my suffering friend. We are friends online, I have known him now for a year. He has shut me out twice, the last one lasting for four months. This past time we reconnected he was clear with me that he does...

Feel for you Ayesha. I deal with depression and all the problems that come with it. I changed meds last spring after a major episode, and felt better, but with winter coming my symptoms are worsening and I just don't have the energy to even want to fight it. I'm worried about losing my job. I...

Glara I too have been following your story with this man. I am amazed how level headed you are, though I can imagine the toll it must be on your emotions. It is not easy to be selfless and put aside your own needs and wants while supporting and trying to understand the one you care for. It can...

I'm one of Jehovah's Witnesses, I believe in God's word. Life is still tough for now, but His purpose will be done and things will be the way he originally intended them to be for us when he first created us (before sin infected us). I couldn't imagine how my life would be without having that...

I appreciate that Gingerly. I'm a basket case mostly because I can't stand the rejection and what it triggers in me. I see my doctor next week and hope things will pan out for medical assistance so I can get back on antidepressant meds and do some counseling. It's nice to get your response and...