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Same here.. it's a nightmare. I pray you stay strong enough to continue and able to be there for your kids - you are super important even tho you may not be seeing anyone treating you the way you ought to be treated.. take care and my thoughts and prayers to you..

Absolutely Mim - like every word you said I can relate to and going through right now 100% - I feel so helpless and out of my own control and that all my dreams and strength I used to hold so dear for my survival are shattered and now what do I have left to turn or hold onto? Trying to not end...

That's so amazing - I think it's permanent for me (my T and Doc even said it, but I refuse to believe it or allow it to sink in as fact), which is so depressing for me to imagine/accept - so was great to read your post - give me a glimmer of hope I may or can be symptom free too for a week, at...

I think @Silver means u need to heal and ur not ready for a close intimate relationship - it's going to be too toxic for both of you till you can help urself or get further in ur recovery.. my heart weeps for you and I pray you find peace and strength very soon - and if I'm wrong about ur point...

Beautiful post, Radise - and she is right, @Notsowild - I can relate completely to what your saying - I'm in a SUPER low now for over a month and just when I thought I finally loved myself, I find myself hating myself and getting SI thoughts again.. it all is so multi-faceted (the damage...

My mother and later the woman I married and had kids with was a sociopath - my sister I think learned or was predisposed for narcissism, my Dad is likely narcassist as well (all this comes from my T, trauma specialist not just me throwing labels around to make myself seem like a victim of...

Very insightful junebug, I agree..

I know what you mean - even tho I'm aware that it was wrong (the abuse as a child and criticisms and lack of empathy support or lack of 'building confidence' as every child needs - still to this day, every day, shapes my view of how others see me, how I see myself - even when I know I'm an over...

Ok, thank you - my symptoms are on oberdrive right now so my short term memory takes serious hit and doesn't take much to worry or frustrate me.. it's so annoying!! Lol well thank you I knew you were just doing ur job I just felt vounerable and also didn't realize I was in suicide ideation...

Thank you - I will do that and try my best to calm symptoms and have faith - thank you for your response! Take care

Thank you! On goodness that sounds so incredibly wonderful I certainly hope so! I'm just like so used to giving giving giving and getting kicked in face I just feel like if I'm in front of anyone asking for help they will deny me because I apparently have a sign on my forehead that says "I LOVE...

Thank you so much - I will contact them, that gives me some hope. I am so sorry you are homeless right now - it goes beyond words of comprehension how difficult it is to lose the roof overhead - you have intense strength, and sound incredibky together considering what u have gone though - very...

Wow - I'm confused - this post was actually a reply to another member who said she could help apply for social Security Disability process if ne can't work due to PTSD?! (sounded like member has been through process or was familiar) - looks like moderator edited the beginning of my post, took...

Your absolutely right.. I can't believe how every post I'm reading is a facet of myself - I can't believe others are able to describe exactly how I feel or what I go through and all the shit that scares me to death every minute of every day, others are right there with me just no where in...

I feel so apprehensive about opening up, it's so friggin scary - thank you for response.

I am so touched by this - it brought immediate tears, I'm now sobbing like a child. I'm a man now (43) but this spoke to me.. my mother is a sociopath - I just wanted to be loved, cared for. While homeless at 15 I caught her at her home (shortly before moving away without telling me or leaving...

I so can understand - I have 10 yr old son with autism but it's my 14 yr old daughter - I go from being so proud of myself and the job I'm doing and all I do for my children then next minute something is said (or not said) and I suddenly spiral into thinking I'm terrible father and useless...

Welcome..!!! This is such s great site - it's already helped me feel less isolated and ppl are so nice I actually post things after beng abused all my life, living on streets as a child and mother sociopath and later married and had two children with a sociopath who is hell bent on destroying me...

I have applied for Social Security Disability (filled out firms best I could in condition I was in and possibly foolishly 'employed' Premier Disability which is a firm of some kind but it is very impersonal and you talk to reps basically moving cattle but at least they make sure I'm hitting...

Wow great info - I love natural cures I'm on this first thing in the am after I drop kids at school (which causes me a lot of anxiety, unfortunately) always loved tea but green makes me nauseous so I have to go earl grey in the past.. THANK YOU SO MUCH for posting - I'm actually so excited to...

Thank you for sharing - God bless you on your recovery/process.. it's a living Hell, I know - I had similar background but mother sociopath - emotional neglect constant verbal emotional abuse from all family members and homeless after mother abandoned me at 14.. so thanks for reaching out...

I had sane experiences with SSRI - now afraid to take them - all I have is Xanex which is great for panic attacks or severe anxiety attacks but I only get two per day and lasts only hour or two - apparently just enough to handle bare minimum of my daily unemployed father responsibilities and...

You are not over-reacting.. I got similar (either a sudden dose of 'tough love' or complete emotional/spiritual withdrawl) reaction from my therapist I was seeing up to 3 times a week for 16 months before it hurt so much I had to stop seeing her cause it waa too much.. she told me contact her...