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@Ms Spock Usually, I listen to music and clean. :) Uplifting, angry, "tough", 90s (my teen years), or floaty music. But since my relapse and starting therapy, I've had a lot of things rushing into my mind: flashbacks and connecting reasons for why I am the way I am. I also am noticing how...

At the risk of sounding too far out there, has anyone else created imaginary people in their head? As in, an imaginary support system of family and friends that you needed, but didn't have? Also, do you talk with them and do they encourage you or talk back? I've talked this through with my...

This quote will be my motivation for today! Because, very much like you, I woke up feeling extremely different from last night: just because I could barely wake up and started worrying about everything surrounding my chronic illness (especially nutrition) and I always seem to go straight to the...

I went to my doctor today and admitted to a problem I was going to not admit. I also got through a test that I was dreading, but it turned out to be not as bad as I thought, but still triggering. Then I came home to see a note on my door about apartment inspections...so I'll have to clean...

@Abstract I hope you can also find something that helps you: it is a frustrating thing to try to do. It's only been a month for me: but even though I kick and scream with driving myself to appointments, feel like fleeing the therapy office at emotional (or unknowingly emotional) times...I...

I see what you all mean, and maybe I *am* calling it something it might not be (positive?), but there's a part of me wondering why my new symptoms are so different from the problems I've ever had before. It's either hard to explain the exact feeling, or I'm holding back my exact explanation as...

Well, just to be clear: it's not any magic anything. It's been about 15+ years of stress I've been trying to get rid of for as long as I've had it all. ;) And it's weird to get to a point now and not know what I finally am doing. Maybe arguing with myself in a more supportive way? But I'm not...

Hi @arfie ! Yes, I count both as stress to, because out of all the "diets" I've tried in 12+ years: stress level is the only thing that makes a difference. The best thing I've found (randomly suggested by GI, but I'm a very anti-med kind of person in most cases) was an anti-spasm med called...

Thanks @franciemarnie I'd like to think that too! Yes: everything you mentioned is very much what I've noticed with this weird stuff. @Radise See, that's a tricky question! The thing is: I've had so many bad therapists/psychs and I'm only in the "getting to know you" stage, but I guess it's...

Has anyone else noticed sudden (especially more frequent/worse) health problems when they started feeling "helped" by a new therapy/therapist/psych? Yes, I had skin problems (eczema) and an IBD (digestive disease) before I started seeing this psych, but it seems as if: -My stress, strong...

@new gamma rays Yes, I completely get the whole parents in denial thing. :p It makes me think it's common in dysfunctional families (which they put together as parents). For example: Right now, I'm in some serious therapy-time. I kept it a secret from my parents, until a sibling mentioned it...

That's awesome, @Ghostybear73 ! I was realizing a similar idea today, too, while I was out shopping (still for presents): If you accept that it will be loud/crazy Xmas music, with mostly rushed and rude people: it can bother you *less* if you just tell yourself it will be exactly that. (Of...

@GingerAli I've gone through very similar things and I feel the same way about the thought of cutting off toxic people: it would be my entire family. This is really hard to think about, especially when they're nearly all I have left. It's also tough when I'm currently dependent on them...

Beautiful Pain -Eminem ft. Sia This is a great illustration of overcoming PTSD or abusers.

Parents pushing the exact buttons: yes, I experience this very often. My mother in particular "forgets" the exact things I ask her to avoid or quit, in how she interacts with me. Or she gives me the exact thing (like this Xmas tree) that I expect her to know the details of why I do not want...

I hate all of my social/people problems in general: talking normally, eye contact, using the tone I mean...connecting.

Always. I also find myself pre-preparing for any interaction with people, planning for the reactions/answers I might get, and picturing how I might escape or react.

Depression/Depressed= My parents used this word to scapegoat all of their problems on me. My mother called anti-depressants "your happy-pills. I was the only one who needed therapy: nope. Shy/Sensitive= I grew up with everyone, even my parents, using these words to describe me. If I had had...

@DMerish, I could NOT relate more to all that you just said. Even the guessing time talent and the "being adult" versus fun-easy-going kid parts. :p

Absolutely. I was having this exact feeling tonight: I baby-sit for a family I'm really close to (we consider each other family). My "aunt" is probably the person who knows more of my secrets than anyone, but I'd only told her things after knowing her 10+ years. She's had problems in her...

This song is my childhood and teen years shoved into a tiny box. It's actually a comforting song, with a really empowering ending. The style of rap catches so much of the feelings of having a past like this. The female chorus singer creates a comforting message, like the support you needed from...

This song could be about many people, including talking to yourself for abandoning you. Bad Guy -Eminem It's like I'm in this dirt diggin' up old hurt, Tried everything to get my mind off you: it won't work. All it takes is one song on the radio, you're right back on it, remindin' me all over...

-First year since my awesomely funny aunt passed away from cancer. -Found and waited with a lost child at a park, while the police gave up and called Child Services. (Huge trigger for me) -Found a "great" teaching job, but had to quit after 2 days, after realizing everyone who "worked" at this...

-I only lose my purse/keys/phone when I'm at home. -Now that I keep a spare car key in my purse, I've only locked my keys in the car twice in the past few months. -I find that most of my injuries (cracked fingernail) happen when I am stressed out and in a rush. -Whenever my two cats are...

My screenname is the title of Iyanla Vanzant's daily motivation/self-improvement book. I really enjoy how she is just a real person who is good with explaining ways to help yourself get through life. I've loved her as one of my imagined mother-figures, since the TV show 'Starting Over'. ;) My...