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    Mother in law anxiety

    I don’t want anything to do with her at this point. Before my husband and I had even got married, she was already telling my husband she wanted him to buy her a house when he graduated law school. He took out loans to go to law school, she didn’t help with that. He graduated with tons of debt...
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    Mother in law anxiety

    Funny thing is she's gotten worse since I posted this. My husband and I found out we are pregnant, after being told by a fertility specialist it wasn't going to happen for us. We were quite surprised after I got like every brand of pregnancy test which came back positive. We wanted to wait...
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    Thanksgiving plans for one

    The holidays always stress me out. My husband and I, and many of our friends, live far away from our extended families, so usually we'll just get together at a friend's house with the other friends that stayed in town and do a pot luck. I come from a large Sicilian family, and my Thanksgivings...
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    Cbd oil?

    I was using it for a while, and I loved it. I did notice a big change in my social anxiety, and my stomach issues related to my eosiniphilic esophagitis got better. I was using the same brand for a while, but tried the one that I hear advertised about a lot, CW, but I didn't like it as much...
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    Um...accused of being a sociopath?

    People like to throw around the terms sociopath and psychopath a lot, but don't really know anything about them. My ex husband was clinically diagnosed as a sociopath during a mental health evaluation during our divorce. He once killed the cat I had for 5 years while I was at work because the...
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    Dom Violence Blame game

    I completely agree with you. I was in a violent DV marriage for 10 years, it nearly killed me and I was terrified to leave because the guy would literally hunt me down when I did. People choose their actions for sure. I didn't ask to be abused. I now just feel like I was really unlucky in...
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    Steps to go no contact for good

    Thanks for all the support. I had talked with my husband, who has been biting his tongue since before we got married, and just the fact that my father refuses to listen to my concerns or even say, "I'm sorry I didn't know that's how you felt", it's just not ok. Anytime I express my thoughts...
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    Steps to go no contact for good

    Yep, I agree completely. And I've decided that I'm not dealing with him. Maybe down the road, but I'm pregnant right now and I can't have the stress affecting me this much. Plus, I did talk to him, via text of course because he refuses to talk on the phone with me... It went no where. He...
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    Steps to go no contact for good

    I actually haven't spoken to him in a week. The last time we did speak was via text of course because when I do call him, he'll just hand the phone to someone else. He had wanted me to give my step sister money to help with her divorce and wanted my husband, who is a licensed attorney in the...
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    Steps to go no contact for good

    That was years ago. I just ended up paying it. It was really upsetting to think of my mother being dug up and moved, and my father is such an ass he probably would've let it happen. But the other debts he has scare me.
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    Steps to go no contact for good

    I posted a huge long update in the trauma diaries, but that was just to vent because I was fuming. I really just do not like my father. He doesn't have any likable qualities, and for years I've been trying to figure out if he could be on the spectrum because of the things he says. I have two...
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    Need a place to vent

    I basically told my father last week that I did not want to have anymore contact with him because he makes me feel like crap. He says mean things to me, he's passive aggressively cruel to me, and the history is so maddening that I can't take it anymore. Years and years of both abuse and...
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    Steps to go no contact for good

    Recent events have made me furious with my family even more so then I have been in the past, and I can't keep doing this back and forth with them where I feel like crap for days on end for even talking to them. I've made the decision to go fully no contact instead of the limited relationship...
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    Would you disclose?

    My PTSD does not affect my job. Luckily for me, I've been able to keep myself composed even during a panic attack. Except for when I'm at home where I sometimes just let it all go. At my last job, no one knew about any of my health issues, and I was working at a health insurance company. I...
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    Would you disclose?

    Well, the situation has been reversed. I used to be the breadwinner of the household while my husband was studying to take the bar. He was just recently promoted at his law firm and now has the ability to cover all of our expenses, but it doesn't make it okay. I don't like not contributing my...
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    Would you disclose?

    This wasn't just the one company doing this sort of thing either, I've applied to several jobs since this one, and they all have had the disability disclosure at the end. Yesterday, I was filling out an online application for a telecommuting data analyst job, and sure enough, the disclosure was...
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    Believe mother in law makes wife worse!

    I get your situation on both parts. I have a nutty mother in law, but I also have a sister whom everyone in my family obsesses over to the point where I don't exist. I have to keep them at a distance, or else I find myself going down a sadness spiral and wondering why I'm never good enough...
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    Would you disclose?

    Meh, I didn't get the job anyway, but this does seem to be a normal thing with a lot of the jobs I've been applying to. I kinda wonder if it's because a lot of tech jobs require insane hours. They probably are looking for the most stable people they can find. It's not ok, and I'm going to...
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    Would you disclose?

    I recently went on a job interview for a health insurance company for a computer programmer job. Before the interview even started, they had me fill out this really lengthy application. The very last page asked if I had any disabilities with a very long list of things, a few which I have, but...
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    Cbd oil?

    It's been about a month since I started using the non-THC, full spectrum CBD oil. I've noticed it has definitely helped with my social anxiety. Before I go anywhere, I'll take a dropper full, and I still have anxiety, but it's dull enough to deal with. My anxiety is usually pretty bad when I...
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    Our Pets

    We have two dogs, an older chow/shepard mix (our house protector), and a border collie/lab mix (my cuddlebug) who is a teenager at this point. A parakeet, box turtle, bearded dragon, and a bunch of fish. My husband and daughter wants to add a cat to the mix, but I hate cats and am allergic, so...
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    Avoidance or healthy choice?

    I have found a huge difference between what is healthy to avoid, and what ends up making my social anxiety worse. Avoiding family functions is one of the healthier things I can do for myself. If I don't want to go, I don't go. Most of the time if I show up, I leave really angry, or I stay and...
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    Weight/rape/ptsd/eating

    I have had a terrible relationship with food and my weight since I was a little kid. When I'm stressed, I do not eat. When I'm having a PTSD period, I do not eat. I get really nauseous and can't keep food down. But I also have a auto-immune disease where food ends up being my enemy. I have...
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    Marriage 50/50 partnership?

    Having someone control the decision making isn't necessarily good. I'm afraid you are being controlled. I try to think of things now like how would I feel I've lived my life at the end. If I don't feel like I've had the control to make my own decisions, I wouldn't be steering my life in the...
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    Marriage 50/50 partnership?

    My family is half very old country Catholic Sicilian, and half old wealthy English (which my mother really pissed off her family marrying a Sicilian). I grew up being told to learn my place as a woman, not really aspire to much except getting married and having a family to which I would have to...
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