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So today we had a two hour session and something came up that I have never said to really anyone before. It has to do with something that I should've learned in childhood but I didn't. It came up during our EMDR processing. My therapist stopped because she could see something had come up. She...

I understand, it is scary and hard to open up each time. Maybe explain your situation before your intake session so that you know up front that they will work with you on phasing out your old T?

That describes him perfectly! Thank you @joeylittle !

Did you explain to the T you interviewed that while yes you do have a current T, you are looking to replace that T. You don't want to keep both indefinitely? I overlapped for about 2 months while I adjusted to my new T and then I saw a friend of my current T while my T was out for surgery...

I know I haven't been on in a while- life has been hectic. Around January I decided to retire Bristol out of public access because she was getting too stressed. For a month or so I just told myself I would live without a service dog in public with me, but I just can't. Not only for my PTSD, but...

I see myself in several, although I am working on year 3 of regular weekly therapy. Just now starting to space it out to two weeks unless things are bad. I see myself as a Questioner- I am constantly questioning/doubting myself. My T says this is due to living with a borderline mother. I see...

Sorry guys, I really just had to take a step back from everything. Come to find out my diabetes were out of whack which were/are contributing to my migraines and my depression. I am not allowed to drive until they get better, which it slowly is. I am not getting rid of Bristol. She has...

Thank you @Chava I am typically not the person to think this way. No one can be harder on me than I am myself. If "thinking differently" worked- I would be healed. I've had people shove that philosophy down my throat for too many years. My youth pastor always told me to snap out of it, that I...

I have tried the whole positive perspective- it never lasts. If I could "think" myself better I would! It's like I get better for a while and then everything comes crashing back down.. I wish I had never said anything now..

Because I still feel like Im drowning. I feel like things will never get better. If it was a matter of trying- Im doing it. I cannot keep going like this.

No, its the fact that I feel like I am doing everything possible to get better and it isn't enough.

Its hard when its the parents you live with and they throw it in your face that they are the ones supporting you.

its not just that. I know I'm not the only one.

Im applying for all the jobs that I think I could manage to function in at least part time. I keep getting turned down or not hearing back even after contacting. I am mentoring under another dog trainer, but right now she can't pay me because she just started up her business after quitting...

Im trying- thats the thing! But its not working. I try so damn hard.

I am in a bad place tonight. I am so tired of fighting so dang hard and things never getting better. Or if I do get a small break of peace, it only gets worse after it ends than it was before. I try so dang hard. I'm persistent in therapy, I'm trying to finish school, I'm trying to find a job. I...

So precious!!!

Well just got a call that she is going to be out for two more weeks :(

Thank you @theotherside . I just know I normally do a lot better than this and its like I can't. EMDR has helped a TON with flashbacks- but I am not so sure with the hyper vigilance. Plus the last round of EMDR (we've done 5 or 6) about did me in. We had just went to every 2 weeks before she...

My therapist won't let me bring Bristol, but I understand why. Bristol is trained to respond to my anxiety by trying to alleviate it which would distract from the process. But I am jealous!

I would be willing to answer questions as I have done similar with my Professor. Feel free to PM me and I will give you my email. My PTSD comes from comlex childhood trauma as well as sexual assault.

Ok so, I haven't seen my T in a month because she has been out for surgery. I have been seeing one of her friends and it was a nice change up. We didn't do any trauma work aside from me telling her about any issues I had throughout the week. We mostly worked on learning boundaries with my mom...

I am so happy for you!! You can't explain the feeling of having that calming presence, you just have to experience it! Sending positive puppy thoughts that his training continues to go well!

Exactly. I really thought I was done with the flashbacks. I was doing better in school, was walking everyday, was doing a lot of self care. Now... gone. Thank God I see my T one more time before she is out for a month (perfect timing, right?!). I also have set up to see another T that she knows...

2 flashbacks this week. One is new, one is one that I get off and on. I went almost one month without flashbacks or nightmares. Why? When will these be over with?! Ugh, sorry guys I am just in a very sour mood. My migraines have upped their intensity again and apparently so has my PTSD. The new...