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Hello and welcome! Abuse and other types of traumas from childhood until adulthood is mostly why I have PTSD too! You're brave for reaching out. Hope to see you around!

I have very many physical issues that I think are directly caused, or at least related to the PTSD and all the trauma that's happened since I was a child. For example: As an infant/toddler until I was like 4 or 5 maybe even 7 or so, I'm not sure, fuzzy - I had SEVERE chronic ear infections...

Very proud of you! I think that was the same age I stared self-harming too. And it's been a daily thing since I can remember. Even now. Although I don't cut anymore really but injure in other ways. I haven't gone as long as you and that is okay. We're all at our own paces. And you have such a...

Does anyone have the feeling of having multiple realities all at once? I seem to and I don't know how to explain it to my BF. He gets so mad at me and calls me a liar and it gets us into lotsa troubles. Cuz a lot of times I DO have problems saying things that are untrue. I lie a lot. Idk...

***I don't think I have ever been able to "see" what any of my alters looks like, at least that was what I thought...*** ***Nor have I been able to see any internal world, so of course I believed I didn't have one...*** ***Nor have I ever been able to communicate with my others, at least I...

This is how dissociation is for me. I have DDNOS - DID-type and I am like a shell where my others act through me/shell and depending who is present that is who "I" am. It could even be more than one at once. For me it's like when the Others are close to the "top layer" or to "the front" of the...

Wow you are so not alone. I don't have any diagnosis yet as far as my dissociative issues go but I very much relate to the DDNOS diagnosis. I am being evaluated in October. But yes I feel the EXACT same way. I will describe how it is for me and my feelings related to this all. I think I have...

That's actually a very common type of flashback/trigger. Smells are one of the most strongest link to memory.

Well I guess I see. What you're saying. That doesn't sound okay at all. I don't know... Just feels different. Like these things really were games. Lots of games. I ASKED to play them and even initiated most of them. I was really messed up. Have always been really messed up and perverted.

That's how he plays games. We always was playing games as a child with him.

Thank you! How about, "What Ate Your Triggers?"

I see where you are coming from. It was not my intention to cause shame. I will see if I can edit the title.

Not having a good night. Just crying. So very sad. I hate PTSD symptoms so much. I hate how I feel like I mess everything up. I hate that I start freaking out during an innocent and playful time with my boyfriend. I hate that I start crying. I hate that I stress him out and hurt him. I hate...

Does anyone else have weird triggers? Feel free to share below. This is my list: The video game 'Skyrim'

 'Star Wars' (or anything associated with it) 

 Breathing or being kissed on or around my neck (but I can tolerate it during sex only now, and only because I trust my boyfriend 100%) 

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Yeah I understand that. They just don't seem to be "full". It is really very confusing. I don't have a diagnosis so I won't say I do have DID but won't say I don't have it either because I honestly have no idea. I just know I have significant issues with dissociation. Thanks. :)

Also pocket riding!

I do not have a therapist at all. I had one who I really liked but it came to a point where I didn't feel she was helping me anymore. I'm just really confused. Because I really do NOT think I was RA (ritually abused). But I DO know I was RA (religiously abused and spiritually) from birth until I...

I'm sorry. RA is Ritual Abuse. http://ra-info.org/faqs/ Thanks for the support. Means a lot to me. And no, the spaceship is not a place I went to I don't think. Yes traumas from small age until I was 21

If any of my RA survivor friends could help me out I would appreciate it. Love and light to you all. All day I keep getting blips (of what I'll describe below) and I feel like I'm shocked, being pulled out and away somehow. Just not sure what I experienced. I just know I have triggers on RA...

Hi hi! It's me Ciara (birth name) although for privacy reasons go by Chantel. I am the only one who has ever been out. What I mean by that is that I'm always out, or at least I think I am!!! In fact I mostly feel single, except when I don't! And even then, when I switch, I still feel like "me"...

Was also in a cult from 0-21 years old. You're not alone. I'm sorry she acted that way. It's difficult for people to understand if they haven't been through it.

I got 73. I've taken this many times. I've gotten anywhere from mid 60's to upper 70's depending on when I've taken it. I also have fragments. I call them Aspects. They can influence me greatly and sometimes take over but I'm aware so it can't be DID, perhaps DDNOS/OSDD without much amnesia. I...

@WhisperingUnicorn, thanks for your input and insight!That's usually how I am. I really am not always aware I've even switched until after the fact, because there is like an emotional "after taste" from whoever was out prior. All the support to you and your H. I've been checked for my lady...

You're brave for sharing.

I get bad jaw pain (but I think that is from teeth grinding), but I do get severe vaginal pain (both externally - like my pubic bone feels like it is being slammed and crushed or something and it hurts so bad... and also internally - like inside my vagina and up inside my ovaries and uterus...