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  1. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Right! I’ve been in a couple of partials and had largely the same reaction. Cool enough but meh. But this, this was a hell of an experience. Way too quick but pretty powerful nonetheless.
  2. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Thank you! It felt spooky honestly. The birds stopped chirping and the crickets came out and there was just a weird feeling in the air.
  3. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    When is the next total eclipse? 😅 Because being blessed enough to be able to photograph that today was one of the best experiences and I want to do it again and again lol. My favorite from today.
  4. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Today has been busy putting together a new garden area, spending a couple hours at the laundromat, reading a bit, and going to dinner. I’m tired 😴
  5. OceanSpray

    Being on the Supporter Side of PPA/PPD

    Thank you!!
  6. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Thursdays doings: worked a full day and then had a miniature road trip through non stop construction. I swear just going from one side of the city to another is an actual road trip now. The workday went fine, just long. Today: it’s been a long day, chauffeuring people, getting the car...
  7. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Today was the most intense day in a very long time. I didn’t work, just took my niece to school, fed the beasts, and then napped for a bit. Sometimes I try to get my thoughts together before therapy but sometimes I just don’t have it in me to function. Therapy went longer than normal and I’m...
  8. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    There was only a little damage, nothing major so that is good. My anxiety can’t handle living here. Decided on a church I’m going to try out tomorrow night, we’ll see how it goes. Cleaned a bit this morning after taking niece to school, then worked and did some book brainstorming. Nothing...
  9. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I did a little bit of cleaning but struggled to get out of my head long enough to do much else. There’s a lot that’s floating around in my brain that I don’t know how to articulate yet. And then we had a tornado go right by so that was an eventful evening and my body is fully drained after...
  10. OceanSpray

    Being on the Supporter Side of PPA/PPD

    I’m not fully certain that this question is relevant to this forum given that the person in question to my knowledge does not have PTSD. I do, and it takes a lot of spoons every day, so maybe that counts. I have a nephew who is married to a wonderful girl and they are expecting their first...
  11. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I visited with mom for a couple of hours this morning and had every intention of doing *something* today. Completely failed. But hey it’s a holiday so doesn’t count right?
  12. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Comparing the two, they aren’t all that different. So what *could* I have done differently today to bring it closer? Laundry: there’s not exactly anything I could have done directly today. It’s a matter of working and saving money which is more relevant during the week. Yard work: I’m not...
  13. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    If today were my ideal day, what would it have looked like? I would have been able to sleep in a little bit because I would have had everything needed for laundry right here at home. Breakfast would have gone about the same. Someone else would have done the bulk of the mowing so that I...
  14. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Refilled all the animal food things including the birdfeeders. It’s stuffy and gross out tonight, I was going to water the plants but I think I’m going to do it in the morning. Hopefully I’ll remember.
  15. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    I feel like I’ve either started this before or thought about it but never really followed through. But I have a hard time with letting myself be tired, or letting myself recognize that I had a busy day and so it’s okay to be tired or stressed. I forget my own mental issues and I forget how much...
  16. OceanSpray

    Words for depression?

    Blue Cheerless Crestfallen Crushed Deflated Dejected Dismal Doleful Downcast Dreary Forlorn Glum Grim Melancholy Mopey Mournful Somber Sullen Touchy
  17. OceanSpray

    Boundaries Around the Sex Talk and More

    So I’m really close to my niece who is finishing her freshman year of high school. Her parents are my brother and his ex wife, both of whom I’m relatively close to as well. She’s starting to notice boys and talks to me about them. The thing is, I know her parents aren’t really about the sex...
  18. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Feeling a little weird. It’s not something I didn’t know cognitively but I never paired it with real introspection. I love art. In all its forms, writing, painting, photography, everything. I want to be great at it. I feel like that’s an of course. But no, maybe it’s narcissistic or whatever...
  19. OceanSpray

    Beginning Again

    Last night was hard. I broke down pretty hard but that’s more progress I guess. It felt weird. Not as horrible as before but certainly not great. But it sent me down a rabbit hole on YouTube. As an author, I scour YouTube for all the writing education I can get but I missed a whole niche of...
  20. OceanSpray

    When you turn your home into a refuge/ base/ sanctuary/ fortress

    I feel like that’s mostly fair given your space is your sanctuary. But I’m curious why it’s weighing on your mind so much? Are you looking to have more people over? How has it gone before when you’ve had people over? I am definitely not one to be crazy about random people coming in and out. But...
  21. OceanSpray

    I’m Going To Be Discharged From A Partial Hospitalization Program (Day Program) in a Few Days and I’m Worse Than When I Started

    Oof, was this necessary? I think most understand that you’re frustrated. That’s no reason to drag someone else’s stuff into something that has nothing to do with them. I do want to point out though, the extra precautions are there for a reason. Is the death toll as high as it was? No, but it’s...
  22. OceanSpray

    Hunger Scale

    Maybe. I came across it from this guy. He doesn’t explain what the cues actually are. I had started working with a dietician years ago and we kinda went over that stuff but I just don’t have the same awareness of my body that other people do. I’m basically just ravenous all the time. I...
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