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  1. Aprilshowers

    I want to be a kid again

    My childhood was so awful most of it is repressed. I am living my best life right now - surrounded by the family I (helped) create, supportive friends, a lovely country home, freedom, security, stability, love, and peace. I am content. 💜
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    Last movie or tv series you watched?

    Thank you...that theme song will be stuck in my brain for the rest of the day.
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    What Is On Your Mind Right This Second?

    How much I'll miss all my hummingbirds when they leave in a month. I've had so many this summer, they've been so tame and friendly, and they've given me so much joy.🪻
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    Sufferer Overcoming Lifetime Trauma: Seeking Support and Connection

    What a sad story! Please reach out here. People here have suffered all kinds of trauma, heartbreak, loss, loneliness, and more. There are people here who understand your pain, your fears, and your journey. 💜
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    Evil

    "Order" as in New World Order! "You will own nothing and like it." - Klaus Schwab
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    Evil

    I'm going to put on my tinfoil hat and try to explain what I mean by "cosmically" evil. There is a scientific theory that our universe is a hologram. We could really get into physics and string theory and a bunch of academic jargon that has nothing to do with evil, but the simplistic point is...
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    Accepting that they hurt you

    So much of what happened to me was repressed for a long time....most of it still is. I have always had an awareness that "those people" - my family - were cruel people who hurt me in all kinds of ways. Eventually, I also had an awareness that those cruel things they did (even if I couldn't quite...
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    One Thing That Made You Smile Today?

    I gave my 3 year old grandson his first ever freezer pop. He gave me a thumbs up and said, "I don't know what this is but I'm saying it's yummy." He went home with the rest of the box.
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    Evil

    I've been trying to figure out how to post this ever since this topic went up. Setting aside the concepts of "religiously" or "ethically" or even "morally", what about "cosmically"? I am not speaking in a religious sense.
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    Trying to find healing

    You said in an earlier post that you journal and do art. Great! When I was at my very worst of my emotional and physical battles art and journaling were two of the best tools in my coping toolbox. They helped me sort through and process the chaotic thoughts and memories in my head and quiet the...
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    What are your hopes and dreams for future? It feels like my PTSD stopped me from having them

    A lifetime ago, in a house hundreds of miles away, as a pathetic, abused teenager talking on the phone to a friend I have not seen in decades, I remember describing to her my perfect future life....the unattainable, reach-for-the-stars, hopes and dreams of a broken girl who had learned as a very...
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    Readers thread: what or who are you reading right now?

    Just finished The Spirit of the Antichrist, Volume One by J.B. Hixson - one of the best books I have ever read! Can't wait to start Volume Two.
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    Write a happy story in 3 words

    Strawberries are ripe
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    Positive Coping Skills Thread

    Gardening - I find digging in the dirt and pulling weeds great therapy. Art, especially painting - the movement of the brush for me is mesmerizing. Reading Music Playing with my grandkids
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    Gardening

    Don't know why it sort of double posted like that. My son and I are both having weird phone issues today. Must be the rabbits.
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    Gardening

    We have rabbit repellent to spray on the plants but it is the absolutely most horrific stinking stuff! We used it once two years ago and stunk up the whole neighborhood - and we live out in the country. 🤢 It seems nasty to do that to bunny families I've bonded with. I'm such a mother. When some...
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    Gardening

    My cottage garden I put in this spring is finally starting to take off, but not as quickly as I hoped due to the hot, dry weather and munching rabbits. The conversation piece is the path. After I set the paver stones I realized there was 11 of them. I have 11 grandchildren, so I painted one of...
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    Struggling with Emotional Turmoil and Despair

    Several decades ago I could have written your exact post. My family was controlling, abusive, and off-the-charts dysfunctional. My narcissistic, tyrannical father ruled us through his fat bank account, intimidation, and brutality. First, stop telling yourself you are a horrible person. Your...
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    What are your pet peeves ?

    Preach it, sister!
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    Fear of screamings

    I grew up in a violent, loud, abusive, dysfunctional family. My father in particular was a brutal man whose voice yelling profanities was just normal conversation. I lived in constant fear of my dad for decades. My solutions were not thought-out or pre-planned. It is only with time and...
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    What are your pet peeves ?

    Pet peeve: People who think using profanity makes them sound strong in character and their points more valid. In reality, it only illustrates their immaturity, poor communication skills, and lack of an adequate vocabulary.
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    Our Future With AI

    I know huge groups of people who are passionately anti-AI. They are just sitting back quietly amused in a culture excitedly embracing the "next big thing." My thoughts (and theirs) are not appropriate or welcome in a thread devoted to those jumping on the AI band wagon. I may address it when I...
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    Our Future With AI

    Read the book of Revelation. Those of us who study prophecy have been discussing for years that this will be the ultimate use of AI.
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    Death of the "ego" ?

    @Tinyflame I spent several decades teaching young children at our church. For lessons about faith, I always began with this acrostic: F - Forsaking A - All I - I T - Trust H - Him A pretty simple concept for any age to grasp. Trust. I wrote in someone else's diary recently that in the Harper...
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    Death of the "ego" ?

    @Denial-River Thank you for your kind words. They are appreciated. 💜
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