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I always get chest pains from my anxiety and because it’s been so many years I have learned to stop freaking out that I’m about to have a heart attack. But recently I went to a doctor for the first time in over two years and he said my heart rate was high (tachycardia) and prescribed...

I had a session today with T... usually feel good after that. Think I know why I'm feeling soooo low. We've been trying to get me into a routine of doing 15 minutes of mindfulness daily but I've been spotty with it. After session today I did it. But I couldn't focus on my breathing. Thoughts...

That's what the doc said he'd give me, low thc. There's such a thing as only cbd?? With no thc?? So glad it helps you! And gives me hope for myself :-) Im confused. You say it's been really helpful but yet you're still taking anti-anxiety meds? Then what is it helping you with? Are you...

I live in a state in which marijuana has just been legalized. Has anyone seen help from it? Have you been able to stop taking all other meds? Thanks!

I never ended up going into the ER. Sat outside it for an hour but I was too scared. It was night so I took a double dose of my sleeping pill, went home and felt manically better next day. I impulsively booked a hotel for 2 days and that was good. Came back just in time for T session, aka real...

Also, had T session. She apologized for it being available. Doesn't think I should ever admit myself, unless I'm seriously going to harm. She says they will just send me home or they'll take me for a bit and drug me up-> she said that as a negative. To me, it's a positive

I'm only fighting because it's a human instinct we were all born with. I don't understand how some people/religion decide that suicide is bad and poof! It is. I've been on this world for quite a while now and don't think I'd be missing much if I left it

Tks. I may try it. Maybe my bro can carve out some of his precious time to go with me tonight. I'm not worth fighting for. Believe me. My life consists of nothing.

I'll give it some serious thought. Thank you!

Thanks for ur supportive words. Not yo rain on ur parade or anything but I really want to change my name from "smile"

But if I go to the ER they'll commit me, no? I'm petrified of that

Thank you. Really.

Phone calls give me anxiety. And I can't email her bc she's told me k the past she can be held liable for blah blah blah

I hate posting in this forum bc I have to walk on eggshells. I've been reprimanded before for being "too specific". I just want to say what's on mind! Which is obviously dark if I'm posting here. Anyway. Today's a horrible day. I've been working with my T on weening myself off all meds and it...

YES! December is looming like a dark cloud that's coming in a week! I keep reminding myself that it's FIVE months but that doesn't calm me. Still feels so short. Maybe I need to count down on hours Thanks but I'm just counting down the days until I leave... a bit less than 2! Ridiculous, I know

Oh! And I just exchanged my car for a better one and they said I'm gonna be charged $300 smoking penalty. I KNOW I'm not allowed to smoke in the car but I was careful to have all the windows open. BUT I was too scatterbrained to make sure there were no ashes :( Vacationing for ONE week and...

So I traveled to another state for 1 week, which I happen to have never really visited. I came for 2 reasons: 1. I have a lot of family here so just plain old visiting and 2. Im thinking of moving here so I want to check out the jay of the land and see i I actually like it. Now, the reason I'm...

Thank you for your non-judgment and info re clomid. I am aware of all the issues that come with it which is why I'm still working it all out in my head. FYI, my T is all for it. She thinks I can handle it

No. I'm not a pet person. I've wanted to have children since I can remember

I've almost 100% decided that I want to do artificial imseminaton and have a child of my own. Does anyone know the law, if I can lose my disability if I do this? Seeing as I'm seemingly competent enough to have a child... Thanks!

after researching/googling and hearing your explanations of it, I don't think I have sleep paralysis. I'm not awake when these "nightmares on speed" occur and as soon as I wake up I am able to move and talk

Only other thing I've noticed is that I seem to be more clear headed and able to finally start losing some of the crazy amount of weight I love gained over passed few years Just woke up from 38 minutes of nightmares. Again. This is getting to be ridiculous. My T says I have too many meds...

Thank you all!!! I never heard of sleep paralysis so thank you for that info! I just had it again... 23 minutes of nightmares I just realized that a contributing factor may be that I went cold turkey from lexapro 40 mg a bit over a mobth ago. It makes sense that this would be a side effect but...

I went to sleep and started having nightmares (similar theme to previous but not the same) before I even fully fell asleep. Spent the whole time trying to wake up but I'm guessing icxouksnt because I was just too exhausted. Finally was able to wake myself up and when I looked, it had been a...

I'm glad you have that comfort :)