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So i had a flashback in church. Standing, first i felt tugging and rubbing on my back. Terror floated into my mind and i kept saying just look behind you no one is there. I finally looked, and looked 2 more times. As i sat between 2 very safe people i focused on the mass and plasterer my smile...

I have to say you are very brave to disclose and dont expect all therapists to react the same way. They dont have the skills, they have their own stuff and maybe she is really concerned about you coming to this realization from a trauma based mental process. I am a women, married to a women who...

Yes, wow this is a great question. This is what i neefed and got from my therapist. I didnt realize that his reaction would mean so much to me. I burned myself badly and i didnt tell anyone at first. My psych, who never reacts asked to see my arm and wanted me to call my therapist. I wouldn't...

No shame, when you get the urge hold ice in your hands until it hurts. I squeezed the ice so tight until that moment past. I know it can come on suddenly. The longer you avoid, the easier it gets. Hang in. I have you in my thoughts. You can do this.

I am just starting to trust, i have no friends but my therapist. Go out for a walk, nature has so many beautiful things to show. Keep talking and posting my friend. I feel your pain, i hear you. For me God is my light, i understand it may no be others way, but it helps me to know my higher power...

Oh man is this such a true statement weird brains. But beautiful hearts. I know we will all find peace. Little steps forward, sharing our truths. Healing piece by piece.

Hold on and reach out. Call a friend, a hotline, get some support. if you need to hear a caring voice. We all care and have had similar thoughts. It will get better, thoughts, situations change from one moment to the next. Hang on my friend, you are needed.

I have scars so i understand. Here are my thoughts. What i was doing is replaying and replaying the helplessness. It feels good after its over, the relief because its done. Someone did something to you and you are in turn punish myself to get that relief. Until i decided i was not my attacker, i...

Thank so much for your support! I am trying to flip it around. I shared first here, next my therapist. So wish me luck pushing through this new challenge. Well congratulations to you, you are sp close and you can do it. I just need to take one step at a time. Thank so much.Need to here other...

You will rally and you will make it through. I know it doesnt always feel that way. Its like here i go again. I have watched all my peers over the years move up, most are now VP. They dont talk to me anymore, reputation for being mental ill. I know i cant and dont want it. Ahh the salary would...

Hi all, Maybe someone will understand. I left school after 10th grade. Lots of horrible reasons why. But i have managed over the yrs to have a pretty successful career. I have a new good job with a very good company. They never higher people without degrees and i got support from Director and...

Yes, i understand the burnout. I got to the point i couldnt remember passwords to get into different systems or what i did the day before. I went down quickly, it happened multiple times in the past 15 yrs. I was hospitalized the last time. I was out for 6 months i time and 3 months another...

I think we try and busy ourselves so much so we can try and escape the symptoms. I am a project manager if i get too much of a lull, the anxiety and depression take over. I know i have more than once driven myself to breakdown to try and out run the symptoms.

Your words speak so much truth. Thank you for your wonderful word's of support.

Yes, the manipulation and bullying waa very tough. My sister, brother both felt that i needed to just accept and forgive that my son was sexually abused by her husband. Thank god none of them had children the abuse would have continued for another generation. This is how multigenerational abuse...

Hang in, we are all supporting you.

I know your fears, i know its tough. I have done this to myself many times. Convinced myself that my therapist didnt want, didnt want to deal with, hated me, i was too much. He made suggestions, i automatically jumped to desertion in my mind. ask her directly, i have been quite surprised by my...

People think i am confident and have it under control but they have no clue how small i feel inside. When confronted with arrogant and dominate people. I pull the nice card kill them with kindness. Even as my stomach is turning and my smile is forced upon my face. If that doesnt work and its say...

Yes, its a huge problem for me. Anyone yelling, too excited, even if i hear it over someone elses phone call. My distress is real, my fear is real. I want it stop. I immediately go into this place, i want to escape, sleep. My anger is hidden underneath, not allowed to be expressed. All it takes...

Realizing my mother was ill. Still has not changed my reactions. In my families presence, i become compliant, no words. Since full blown PTSD hit, 10 yrs after i sent my mothers husband to jail for sexually assaulting my son. My mother stayed, my brother took them to dinner after he came out of...

Hang in @MichelleMillen. Hope is the one thing we have control of. Sending love and support.

Its strange certain violent movies i cannot even begin to watch. SVU wins over the abuser so many times. i am drawn to movies or shows where the victim or heroine gets justice, anyway that has to happen justice or death. I dont show anger much, i still internalize it all. The Hunger Games, The...

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Thank you, i am going to take some courses but i can only do one at a time. My job is very stressful and i need to keep it together without overwhelming.

Hi all, so excited after a year of working as a contractor, i was hited full time. its not the same position but i am sure i can do the job. Just a little nervous, I love the team I worked with they are amazing, fun and supportive under stress. Not sure the other team will be the same. i also...