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He is my supporter. But sometimes not that supportive. He has his own things to work on too. I think he meant well..as in he saw me slipping into the dark and wanted to distract me with family game night. It kind of worked..even though i dealt with anger and tearing up in the middle of it. It...
Thanks guys. I suffer from migraines to @Glitterkitty . Every day of my life it seems. I take exederine and have never seeked help from a doctor. Do you take or do anything that helps?
All i want is to be left alone in my own world right now and he pretty much forces family game night on me. I feel distgusting and angry and dissociated and guilty/ ashamed all at once. I feel URRGHH...
Anyone ever in this situation? Im probably close to snapping and making a big scene. And of...
Thats a good example for me to think about.
I think working, school and socializing made me feel good enough and normal enough. Without it im like nothing.
I miss working and being in the world but im scared to death of it and can barely survive taking my little one to the park...
I guess i dont know how to not shame myself since its a lifelong habit. How do i not feel like a failure?
I use to work and go to school and take my kids out, have friends, have fun. I dont have any of that anymore. I used to be happy and have hope.
I think all those things made me feel better...
Today again for the second time (that im aware of) derealization, at least i think. And everything feels weird. Im sooo sick of this.
Does anyone have this?
I just slipped back into the dark. All of a sudden. I had been doing better keeping ny mind off things..not cured though, thats for sure.
I took my little one out by myself for the first time in a loooong time. It was high stress to say the least but u tried to push myself
But today im a mess...
And feeling like a failure..
And im gaining weight..
And thats making me feel worse. Im so tired of feeling like dog #%@` with no hope for the future. I really hope my new T can help. I use to be generally happy and hopeful.
Is there hope for me? Has anyone got better with meds?
Ive been trying to just forget everything.
But i made small steps. I took my little one outside. By myself. That is huge. I cant say i was comfortable because i wasn't. I was on edge the whole time.
I also made an appointment with a T. I finally picked one. Even though he is a male and i might...
Thanks for sharing :) i have been diagnosed with ptsd recently and im doing horrible. I wonder about DID. Did you know? I day dream A LOT. I always have. Kind of like zone out..i have experienced derealization a few times. Once when i was driving and really upset i came to a four way stop and...
I had a breakdown panic attack flashback thing yesterday and i felt like i was going mad. Like compmetely could not handle the hurricane of emotion inside me. I managed to caln myself but for the rest of the day i felt i couldnt get good breath. Then today my body hurts soo bad from it being so...
I do have the major body and self hate thing too. It is so hard for me to care for myself. I was also neglected from birth on by mom and abused by my dad as well. I can not get comfortable witb my body at all. I go back and fourth with my weight.
Sometimes eating more to feel better but i start...
@Justmehere how do you go about finding a trauma therapist? I went on psychology today or whatever and i find some that say trauma and ptsd but i look at what they treat and the list is a mile long.
Anyway i did call RAINN and hopefully that will work
You dont have to exlplain skipping out to me. My supporter takes our kids out without me a lot. If its a social thing for sure. Im not in a good place right now to be around a lot of people. Things were not always like this and im working on it.
I know what you mean about wanting time alone...