Home Alone

[Berserker14]

I have been left home alone (my choice) while the husband and kids go to an event (I had no interest in sitting around with a bunch of people I don't know watching the kids participate in something I have no interest in), and I have come to the conclusion that while I like to be left alone, I do not like to be alone. Strange that I want everyone to leave me alone when they're here but when I am by myself I feel nothing but anxiety and loneliness.
Just had to vent that.

 

[Deleted member 1860]

Isn't that part of being a parent? I mean sitting around and watching your kids participate in things you don't give two hoots about?

 

[illusionist]

Don't you get something out of watching your kids enjoying themselves? That is a shame, both for you and the kids.

 

[Berserker14]

Yes, it's part of being a parent. It's also an activity they are involved with that has the purpose of being a "guys bonding" thing between my sons and my husband since I do everything else with them. This alone time is supposed to be "me time" though usually I'm at work.

 

[illusionist]

Ah, so you are having some well earned me time. Take the time to do something you enjoy doing for yourself....as parents we often forget how to do that.

 

[theotherside]

You dont have to exlplain skipping out to me. My supporter takes our kids out without me a lot. If its a social thing for sure. Im not in a good place right now to be around a lot of people. Things were not always like this and im working on it.

I know what you mean about wanting time alone and then not being able to enjoy it or at least using it wisely by getting things done that are hard when everyones home.
Btw i bid on a cabbage patch kid and got it :) i think your post inspired me. So thanks!

I think that was you in the introduction with the stuffed animal right? If im wrong nevermind about the cabbage patch lol

 

[illusionist]

Let your inner child out...put some music on and dance around the house singing at the top of your voice.

 

[Berserker14]

@theotherside that's awesome! I'm glad you got it and I hope it helps like my Fox helps me:)
@richter scale I did do some housework and read some of my book.
I think an hour alone was sufficient. After that I started feeling lonely and feeling anxiety (increased heart rate though I'm just sitting here) and my mind going wild with negative thoughts that I am sure will never happen.
It's kind of obnoxious that I'm not enjoying silence more.

 

[Berserker14]

I even lock the bathroom door even though there's no one here. Yeah, an hour was sufficient.
They should be home soon so I guess I'll paint my nails to fill the rest of the time.

 

[illusionist]

I know the feeling, I'm sure we all do on here. I used to look forward to my own space, and then when the kids were not under my protective wings I'd worry like mad until they got home.

 

[Berserker14]

It is a comfort to know I am not the only one who feels this way :) thank you all

 

[Digz]

OMG - I read this and felt like you could have been describing me! I do the same. As a parent who works, I of course, need some down time sometimes. But if my hubby takes my son out, I can start feeling lonely, anxious and sometimes (especially at night) - scared. I haven't really got an answer to it yet, unfortunately. I do find, if it's a shorter time period I'm better - rather than if my hubby is away working and my son stays at his nan's for the night - a full night alone does my head in!
If I can manage to do some exercise, or focus on something that requires more attention like reading, that's a bit better than just watching tv.
I have 2 dogs, and I find that having them inside with me helps a little too... unless they start barking - then I freak out that there is someone outside or someone breaking in!
I wish I had a better response with an answer for you. All I can say is, I feel your pain.