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I see your concerns… perhaps just get to know each other again? Honestly, for me sex confuses things, but that is me. I think you should listen to your gut… and I know that is hard. I visited an old love, and it was great. I fantasied about us being together again. I was convinced it was...

Thanks for the kindness Arfie…I am sure I would not fall well of the tricycle either…60 with a bad shoulder 😊🧚‍♂️

I smiled as you circled me arfie...I am really trying to lighten up...I freeze when this happens and everything gets tight and I freak. Right? It is exhausting and ...I really didn't realize it would affect me. Thanks for your support, it embarrasses me to ask but...well yeah...Don't fall off...

Hello everyone, Even though I know it is up and down struggle today is a stop. I have been pulling myself out of a really difficult episode and today my energy to fight/accept/exercise/get outside is very low. I panicked of course, and then I listened to a meditation and tried some gentle...

You are not alone.. I hope you find comfort in knowing that. Fear has had a big hold on me as well. I face it most days at the moment. I think it is telling me I need a change 🧚‍♂️

I understand this, my sister and I had to have a break because I was unable to cope with her drug use. I felt guilty, but I had to make a cut to save myself and take care of my child. She did make it through 👍 and we are now able to have a relationship. My abusive mother was also a alcoholic...

Welcome … I have read that book. It helped me understand things more. 🧚‍♂️

Hello Lucca722, welcome… Yes I experience this. It is very frustrating and stressful. I believe the fear it is me when I was a child and couldn't cope with what was happening. I try and be compassionate and tell myself I am not back there now, I am safe now. It takes a lot of patience with...

I understand, it comes up for me when I am in a bad patch. I refused to believe I was traumatized/anxious/depressed from my childhood. I guess that was also due to my parents never acknowledging what really happened. It made it surreal and I questioned myself. My inner critic hounded me to be...

What a great thing, acknowledging yourself! I am happy for you… 🧚‍♂️

I get it, things that happened in my life, well some of them I cannot tell people, my therapist although I trust him is Catholic and has very strong feelings about things …. I think I may have to open up, practice. Needless to say not everything has to be confessed so to say. Or? 🧚‍♂️

I can empathize with you both. I isolate myself when I am not doing well and I feel unsure what to do when someone does it to me. My real cure has always been honesty, telling the other person what I feel and trying to accept their response. I also try not to react quickly …. sometimes waiting...

It seems you did have a reaction, and were not able to articulate it, in the way others did. Be kind too yourself, everyone has a way to cope... you are not weird, you are human. BTW I have a lot of things I find weird about myself, but when I listen to other people's experiences I realize...

I totally understand, I started a downward spiral in January and I am working my way out. I was going forward, and if I am honest even though it is a real struggle, this episode is lighter than the last, but I am still unable to be at work, at the moment. Chat gpt? It doesn't have "it", and...

I reread my last entry, and I felt my nerves were really in control yesterday. I feel a bit more in the drivers seat today. That only took 1 real phone call to see that my sister landed safely, and a short chat about my effin feelings. Then a check in with a very good friend, and I felt...

My sister just left; she was here visiting for 3 weeks. Normally. we cancel if one of us is not great, as we both suffer from mental heath stuff. I took her to the airport this morning, and was proud I could drive...like hey I have had a drivers license for three plus decades and driven on both...

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Trying to make sense of the morning depression, it is so intense I feel so panicky. I think I cannot make it through another day. I get up shake off the stomach ache, the fog and the fear and sit on the porch with a decaf coffee. My brain is on overload and panic and I often cry/breath deeply...

Hey Deno, I so relate to this, and I have a habit of thinking this too. My newest was at work, where my boss is a narcissist, and at first I liked it, it felt like home, a father figure and his approval and validation of my hard work made me feel better. This didn't last long, and the...

Welcome to the forum, you are not alone Ronnie. Good to have you here! 🧚‍♀️

Welcome to the forum. I am so sorry to hear you are going through this. In my case, it felt/feels strange as well. For me it was just keeping it at arm's length and then maybe it would go away. That did not work out for me, so I totally understand your feelings. I did not talk about my...

Welcome to the forum. Sorry for your loss as well. I cannot add to the recommendations already given, but I wanted you to know you are not alone, and as Arfie said keep reaching. 🧚‍♀️

Welcome to the forum. 🧚‍♂️

Thank you. I get tired during my episodes. I write in for understanding and support, when I get scared. It is soothing when you feeling ready to give up. That is part of the mind f**k never being good enough 😊

My worst case scenario mindset is usually something I can control, but this time it ran me over like a train, and my frozen panic took over. That lands me in my eyes in the headlights of an oncoming car panic and I land in bed, and then the effin depression comes cause I seriously can not leave...