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    Relationship He's Withdrawn From Me - Need Some Perspective...

    Maybe if you send a short text saying something like "I only want to let you know I'm still here for you, so please respond when you are ready" that probably won't do any additional damage? The trick of course, is to wait for his response, which may be difficult for you. It does sound like you...
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    Cant Sleep Anymore

    Hey, that's ok. Remember, you can always find a therapist who will record a diagnosis of just 'adjustment disorder' if, from time to time, you feel like you need a little professional help in addition to what you can accomplish on your own, and you need insurance to cover it. Often, before a...
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    Sexual Assault Fear And Vulnerability

    Resolved! I vaguely asked the guy how can I lock the door to the room where I work from the inside on a weekend (its an old, weird deadbolt but he said how), if I need a place to ride out a migraine but I'm not really in need of assistance. He asked if he should bring someone with him, and I...
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    Sexual Assault Fear And Vulnerability

    Here is a numbered list of current problems during a systems medicine research internship, all related to fear and vulnerability from sexual abuse (abuse not discussed in any detail). 1) Migraines sometimes paralyze half my body and make speaking difficult, while previous sexual abuse makes...
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    Ptsd During Research Internship

    Oh hey thanks so much! Wow yes I guess what I mean by "unofficial" is there is no medical record. She said verbally, "If we were going to use your insurance I would enter a diagnosis of PTSD, but if you pay me cash, there is no official record or paper trail." Thanks so now I feel like I...
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    Ptsd During Research Internship

    You misunderstand. I do know I have it, according to a therapist, but I asked not to be officially diagnosed. My therapist would diagnose me if I were opting to be covered for insurance, but due to my fears of employers using this against me, I pay out of pocket so there is no medical record...
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    Ptsd During Research Internship

    OK for this post the details of my traumas do not matter. Suffice to say, I have a spinal issue, a migraine issue, a sexual abuse issue, and a false mental break which was really just a migraine med that made me nuts, so I have spent time in a psych ward but I have no official diagnosis other...
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    Sufferer A Little Over A Month In

    "Insignificant"? Who says your problems are any less significant than anyone else's? I think a lot of people here can relate, even when they are years into this process. I happen to be in a similar mood and I was thinking to write about my own problems, but sometimes I like to be distracted...
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    Can't Commit To A Relationship (but Its So Much More)

    You said "I tend to get into these situations where [1] I can be extremely emotionally involved with someone, but can't do the physical side of things, or just the opposite, [2] its just a physical relationship with no emotional connection." I'm there at #1, and my friend is there at #2...
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    Coming Off Medications

    I can't help you about psychiatric medication, but I do want to say, I am so happy you might have an accurate diagnosis that could lead to therapy that actually works, and good luck! I believe strongly in mind over matter, as in, you might be able to get healthier psychologically and learn to...
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    Goals Jeopardized By My Ptsd

    Oh real quick I want to quote you: "I'm fu**ing tired of coming home only to give parenting lessons or to fix these problems when I really should be trying to fix myself or get to where I need to be." See, you already know what your priorities should be! Listen to yourself!
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    Goals Jeopardized By My Ptsd

    Hey swordsmen, I'm sorry to hear that. My mom and I had a similar (less severe) discussion a couple hours ago and I feel the same way you do (less severely). I am really sorry. But please hear my practical suggestions, of how to get where you want to go. You will get there someday! I heard...
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    Goals Jeopardized By My Ptsd

    Hey you sound a little like me. Brief background: I was never abused that severely, but I did get abused once by a pediatric nurse. I had a big surgery, and then a run in with a bad neurologist whose forged prescription landed me in a psych ward with seizures I was accused of faking to get...
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    Undiagnosed I Think I Have Ptsd

    You should absolutely talk to a professional, who can help you find resources to rehabilitate you a little so you can learn to be more social and get support from other human beings. For now, you should absolutely ask people here for advice and understanding. I have lots of support in my life...
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    Is It Really Dissociation, Or Does Everyone Do This?

    Thats ok did you move your conversation someplace else? I had a similar realization after recovering some fragmented memories and dissociating in therapy. My parents always said "Earth to JB, you're zoning..." kidding about it. People assumed I was a thoughtful daydreamy type of person. I am...
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    Trying To Make Decisions

    OK...my private conversation came out kinda long. I split that second post into two, so there are really three posts. You seem like you really have a lot on your mind, and I tried to give you everything I've found that helped me. I tried to structure each post as a numbered list. You should...
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    Trying To Make Decisions

    Ah, I find that once every other week is good for me, but sometimes I have to call for an extra session in between. My therapist is where I go to college, but I am not there this summer, so lately, you guys are the best help available! Maybe someone has ideas for how they make it through...
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    Flashback At Work Today, Now Have A Meeting Tomorrow.

    I am so happy you manager is a smart woman. She let HR hear what they wanted to hear, and she let you hear what you needed to hear, and most important, she listened to you. I am glad she cares about you. By the way it is understandable that you viewed the worst possible scenario initially...
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    Trying To Make Decisions

    Hi @JEKBreatheandBelieve yes, I have a story to share and possibly advice to share as well. Please be patient with me. I want to structure my narrative in the most helpful way possible, and phrase everything in terms relevant to help you. Also, I prefer to share my story in a private message...
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    Panic Attack At Work Yesterday

    Your department probably has not lost faith in you. They may have seen you have a bad day, but that will not erase all of their respect for you. You can tell them, you received bad news and you expect to be feeling on edge for some time, but this is not a new problem for you and you will try...
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    Flashback At Work Today, Now Have A Meeting Tomorrow.

    Where do you work? First, see how the meeting goes. Then, I would recommend doing a little research about the American Disabilities Act. You may find that certain laws protect you from being fired or disciplined by an employer who "regards" you as having a disability based on how they treat...
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    Had The High!

    Hey Tiger, your last post does capture my present feelings. I am graduating from a chemical engineering program one semester late because I took a co-op last fall. My friends are all moving on now. They are so busy with friends and family, that I have mostly been alone in the evenings...
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    Had The High!

    Hi Tiger I'm at a low spot too. My feelings may not be quite the same as yours, but the same color, if that makes sense. I am not glad you feel this way, but it is a relief to see that you do feel this way and you are still handling it. Motivates me to work harder. So thanks for that. Good...
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    Sufferer A Little About Shmeg

    I tend to get worse when I feel less pressure. I am a chemical engineering major. When I have lots of lab stuff and homework and exams, I seem to be doing better because I have to be efficient and stay focused on school. When the deadlines pass, I fall to pieces and my brain goes to work on...
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    Is It Normal To Not Have Nightmares Unrealated To Trauma?

    I have had two kinds of nightmares. Most of them are variations on my traumas, with sometimes obvious or sometimes very subtle connections. When something really stirs up my traumas, I can also have video-like repeated memories of actual events. These can recur in exact detail, with no...
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