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I can relate. I don't hang out with many people. I was getting a 4.0 in college, now it's a challenge for me to find my mental stability again. Sometimes it takes time to understand what has happened. However, we will get a clearer understanding and more insight than before. I think it's normal...

Sounds to me like it's just drama. People should understand if you don't want to be involved in the forum every once in a while. It's not an obligation, it's a social gathering. If you want to maintain friendship with certain people, it doesn't mean that you have to stay in the forum. At least...

You're welcome. :)

Yes, it was hard. I have a similar viewpoint. Remember, focus on yourself right now. Your well being is more important. :)

It can take time. I spent six years trying to combat depression until I finally gave in. Since then, I've been able to understand my issues better with medication, therapy, and learning. What keeps me confident that I will get better is that I learn about my past and how it has affected me. I go...

I am confused regarding my confidence that I am on the right path. Every day, it's like there is a dualism. One part of me wants me to continue Prozac, therapy, and learning until I'm back to being well. The other part of me tells me that I am being lazy and there is nothing wrong with me. This...

For the first time in six years, my depression is going away. I think with medication, therapy, and learning, I will continue to get better. I tried many different things in the past, such as working a lot, having a girlfriend, or making music. I still couldn't escape the black depression...

Kim500, I think that I'm getting close. The door will be opened again. I'll be walking in a new day... a new time.

I can't wait to reexperience this feeling again. The last time I felt completely in harmony has been six years. Getting this back is worth it. When you get there, you will probably realize that you in the past has been a mix of you and PTSD. You will no longer have to talk to PTSD so you will be...

I always believe that there is a point that I'm going to reach and I'll know that everything is ok. Does anyone else have this feeling that there is a point that will be reached and he or she will know that all is well? It will be like a breath of fresh air... a moment of truth. I don't think...

Yeah... a new total package sounds good. I think it's a process of metamorphosis. There is always an underlying feeling that something is wrong. However, it's gradually going away. Once this feeling is gone, there can be nothing left but the step back out into the world fresh and forward...

I think the reason that I am trying to reconnect with older aspects of myself is that they weren't obsolete. I feel like I could concentrate better or I could be involved in relationships better or I had more confidence in myself and purpose in life. I think those aspects were lost or diminished...

Saffy, I understand. For me, it seems like people want to see me for who I was. They accept that I'm different in some aspects. However, I'm always trying to get back in touch with the aspect of me that people were familiar with. Depression darkened it.

Stay strong. You can weather the storm. One thing that I have had a problem with most of my life is the feeling that I am weird compared to the average person. I don't know why this feeling has existed. Sometimes the feeling is stronger than other times. Right now, I'm in a strong state. I'll...

Welcome to the forum Nabii nabzz. Repressed thoughts or feelings are definitely things of importance here. This forum is a good place to try to gain insight on properly opening that box and clearing it out. All the best.

I considered my self a shy kid, but I gradually continued to grow out of it. Because of the traumas, it seems like I reverted back to that state. Like Maddog said, I don't know what it looks like on the other side. It's hard trusting myself again considering I had a breakdown six years ago. It's...

Another thing that I realize is that I used to conform more. I think people see me differently because I don't conform as much, which in turn, can make me feel alienated... Just rambling :)

I'm becoming aware that I have to find a balance again without having the urge to lash out at all of the injustice. It's hard because the human aspect of me always wants to act. Hopefully, things will be seen more clearly in time and I will have a solid footing.

Thanks for the responses. What makes me tend to feel ashamed of myself (even though I don't let myself stay down) is that I behave in a way that I don't want to. It can be emotionally damaging feeling like people see you differently. I do not want to be seen differently. I want to be seen as...

I've held the belief that I'm going to come out a stronger person than I was before the trauma. However, it's been six years and I'm still trying pick up pieces/understand things. Sometimes I wonder if my effort is in vain. Does anyone else feel this way sometimes?

I'm with you. I learn something new everyday. However, I'm concerned how much more I'm going to have to learn. It's getting kind of old (six years).

I understand where you are coming from. I think my mental pain comes from previous traumas and the lack of ability to properly process them. However, with Prozac, my mood elevates and I am able to see the traumas more clearly and process them. I think denial or ineffective coping/understanding...

I thought that I was straight. However, six years ago, a gay guy tried to take advantage. His forceful nature left an imprint on my identity. For six years, I've been confused and it is sad because it is hard for me to maintain relationships because of it. As a guy that ran into a homosexual...

Hi golden_flower. Welcome to the forum. For me, the awareness that I had PTSD came after I quit denying my feelings. I think your therapist will have a certain expectation of what being well is. It will be individual for each person, but only you can be the judge if you are well again. Being...

Saffy, I'm with you. Yes, it is confusing. The thing that keeps me trying to change certain aspects of myself is possibly processing or making sense of traumas. For example, I believed that I was straight. However, five years ago, a gay guy tried to take advantage. His forceful actions left an...