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Sorry I am not clear. For example 2 days after my trauma(my dad and mum attacked me) I got my first long term part time job, deputy fire captain. 2 weeks after the attack because of all the stress after the trauma, a memory of doing this job got damaged. As a result I had trouble with having...

I have come across a curious thing in recovering from PTSD that the worst PTSD symptoms I had were actually not the result of the trauma I went through. The worst symptoms were the result of a positive non traumatic memory 2 weeks after my trauma becoming damaged. I forgot this memory for 13...

You already have so many qualities that bring joy to life Gizmo. Keep going although you seem to have a good handle on it life that is..:D

Oh that is exactly what I am feeling at the moment. Actually burst into tears when you said that gizmo. I liek how you said you don't know what all the inner shifts mean you and they are aftershocks. I think they are like aftershocks of my therapy sessions that went into the really 'deep'...

Way to go gizmo. It is great news that you have found improvement from resolving those 2 memories.

Huh, I was about to start the same thread and I noticed one already here about how to grieve? My psychologist said people get to a point they can channel the grief into something. Like she channels it into her plant garden, keeps doing a bit every now on then. Her garden is a work in progress...

This thread would most definantly apply to me. lol. Both me and my husband have computer addictions to a degree. He spends a lot of the weekend playing Doom. And I am on here after breakfast with a coffee for a hour, after lunch with a coffee for 30 minutes and after dinner for 20 minutes with 5...

I would like to point out, it is in the report of what happened that the 24 year old man that he had other options available for mass killing that he deployed that were not guns. He rigged his apartments with explosives. If he didn't have guns, what would stop him using these explosives that he...

Wasn't there a report back somewhere about a 19 year old who just attended her husband's funeral. She returned home with her 4 month old baby that night. 2 large men tried to break down her door. She recognised them as being at her funeral. They were people she didn't know, they came to her...

Speaking from experience, I did want jobs that paid money when I got PTSD, but I ended up leaving them as the PTSD made it too hard. If you want to but can't, it is good to try to get therapy to improve your head-space as a part of your job hunting. I worked at BIG W for 1 1/2 months when I just...

I don't think you are ready to find a job just yet. To have a job, you have to have the right mind-set to do it. I think your PTSD is clouding your judgement. There is nothing to be ashamed of, just the misfortune of PTSD and how it can effect employment.It doesn't mean you can't get there. I'm...

Also what makes a difference is support and feelings on whether you were ethically wrong in your trauma. I have been through other traumatic things since I started healing like witnessing a road death and having nearly died from dangerous kidney failure insulin lows while I had a 2 month old...

I was immediately before my PTSD thriving chosen to be a deputy fire captain in a fire brigade due to my many fine qualities and had a drive for work and study that was unbelievable. I also had a good social life. There were many many qualities, not just drive, about 300 qualities, that I have...

I've got it down to a fine art. I use to have enormous troubles finding psychologists that I could make progress with. Not being able to pick a good psychologist probably put 5 years onto my healing time.My first psychologist told me I just after someone to write centrelink forms and had no...

Yep very common. I can't remember if I have done something one minute to the next either. I compensate by setting multiple alarms on my apple iphone which tells me what it is. Even had to cook a slow cooker meal at 8.30 this morning, and I had forgotten it already. So thanks for reminding me.:)...

Thanks Froggie, it's inspired by good people in my life, and support avaliable too.

I became strong enough to remember my trauma. I wasn't able to work after my trauma for 13 years in a paid position. I have now been working for 2 months. I wasn't able to leave my house 13 years ago. I conquered that 4 years into my therapy. I was on anti-deppressants for 6 years. I...

Hi Angel, oh dear, I have to say, I don't know if I could be much help on this matter as I know only what my psychologist has told me (not much). One psychologist suggested a website where I talk to these alters (while I didn't really find it useful, maybe that would help someone else). The...

Dissacotiative personalities in PTSD is just a dissacotiative state which is really really intense. Dissacotiative states are is like spacing out into your memory times 10. I have been diagnosed with PTSD and I have not been diagnosed with DID. 2 of my psycholgists have told me I have...

I have imsomnia at times when I am processing something very big. There was a night last week I got 2 hours sleep, and the next night 3 hours. Partially related to my diabetic blood sugar being between 7.5-9 (my heart rate goes up between these amounts). But being over 9 a few times during...

I am remembering my younger siblings emotionally abusing me, physically abusing me when I was 17-19 years old. Mostly this abusive was through copying their abusive parents. My siblings emotionally blackmailed through ignoring, they copied my dad's experience deprivation thing that I experienced...

If it wasn't for my husband my parent's abuse with my work 13 years ago would have put me into poverty. It scared me I couldn't do anything, even work for 2 days a week, although apparently my PTSD would let me volunteer 2 days a week.But volunteering doesn't bring in money. You are right that...

I understand what this can be like. Crying children also triggered me a lot until I got a memory back of my sister crying as a baby in a room with her sexually abusive father. 5 minutes before I had been babysitting her and making her laugh with funny faces. I realised my happiness and her...

I had quite a lot of memories repressed. It took about 10 years of therapy to bring them to light. I'm still going. It is wierd how the earlier I was into my therapy it felt like I was looking at me in my trauma from a distance. The further along, the closer the view of me in my trauma is.And...

wow, sounds like you have a good balancing act going on there. You must be pretty clever to do that. Those triggers are awful, but you might find lots of people have them. Welcome.