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I never took out a loan the first time I went to school, but it cost significantly less at that time. Different degree, different level of education, huge cost difference. The only problem with applying for the loan then filing for bankruptcy is that you only get the loan a semester at a time...

I've looked at debt consolidation, which isn't an option because I don't have collateral (I've called several local places and they've said they can't help). I have thought about filing for bankruptcy, however I have to weigh the possibility it may affect my ability to go to school. Asking a...

@shimmerz I wasn't suggesting you thought I was callous, I see that in myself on occasion. I don't know if I'm numbing out around this or what.

@shimmerz I do see the pain in their posts. I'm not blind to that, no matter how calloused I can be sometimes I do still see that and am affected by it (not meant to come across as sarcastic). It is something that scares me, I won't lie that the idea of committing to this scares me. It's not my...

Absolutely, I'm open to discussion. Looking at all angles is what I need, the only reason I've considered this as an option is for the financial benefits however temporary.

@richter scale I said 6 months because in Canada, or at least my province they test you at 3 separate times. Right when you go in, then 3 months later, and again at 6 months. That's for one incident. I've been accepted to start in 2 months, can't go back any sooner than that. I didn't think of...

Something I've had to experience twice and I'm not even in the sex industry at this point. It's 6 months of torture. People who are intending to abuse you don't care about using protection.

Please don't take this the wrong way, I'm not saying I'm immune, I'm not minimizing what anyone went through or saying I've gone through everything they have, nor am I saying that it wouldn't affect me negatively. That being said, I have been sold to one individual on two occasions against my...

Problem being that I was lucky to find a job like I did without any years of experience, the problem I ran into since losing that job is that everyone wants 5 to 7 years experience with the degree I have OR a bachelors degree to back it up. I lucked out with that job, and I haven't been able to...

@Solara I'm not doing anything illegal as I have not done anything at this point. The only thing I've done is sent in an application applying to the agency, I haven't booked an interview, nor have I accepted a job or started working there. Again I am pursuing all other possible routes first.

@Ayesha I tried to look and see if I could find a thread addressing this before posting, but I wasn't successful. Maybe I wasn't searching for the right key words to get it to pop up. I'm trying to look for all other options. I've exhausted most of my resources - my only two left that I'm aware...

@richter scale thank you for sharing. I don't have words to express how I feel towards you for sharing that (nothing bad about you), just thank you for sharing. Sending hugs and love your way if you want to accept it.

@Justmehere yes that makes more sense. I am aware of that happening with women/men who have been repeatedly abused. I don't think that is the case here because I am aware of the risks of doing this, I am aware of the emotional toll it could take on me, I'm just trying to make sure I can still go...

@Justmehere and @scout86 I don't know what the laws are regarding the escort agency, they blatantly advertise in the phone book and city newspaper - I wouldn't think that something they would be criminally charged with would outright advertise in the way they have. Their advertisements aren't...

Survival sex means that the reason for doing it is not just for the money, it's about providing for basic needs. In my case that is what it is, by providing myself with the money to get out of debt I won't lose safe housing, I will be able to feed myself, provide for my pets, and then move onto...

@Solara I see your point, I'm not able to file for bankruptcy as it would affect my ability to apply for funding for school. If that were not a factor I would seriously consider filing for bankruptcy and attempting to piece my credit back together. I see where you are coming from in regards to...

For those that don't know what Survival Sex is here is a link to give a brief idea of what it means: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Survival_sex I'm not proud, I'm scared, but I'm also desperate. Some of you are familiar with my past from previous posts a year ago or so, and some more recent...

@Cool Cat as frustrating as that experience might have been, I agree with @digger it's good they asked those questions. Even though SH wasn't the case in this situation, it shows how informed your health centre staff is. They aren't ignoring the possibility of certain injuries being self...

Hi @scout86 @shimmerz and @HollyBeans27 thank you, and hugs back. @Casey_03 I do what I can for exercise to help the depression, I do what my body will let me right now. I'm disappointed in myself today, I didn't do as good with my T as I hoped. I felt the tears and emotions coming up, and out...

Just to clarify it wasn't my T who did this, it was a "friend". My T is very careful about not breaking confidentiality, she takes it really serious.

I haven't been on here in a very long time, not sure when I last posted - if it was before or after my most recent attempt in September. Anyways, here's the update portion before the I need advice/support portion. Update: Made another attempt on my life in September, was taken in by ambulance...

@bell, if it was a cry for help I would have emailed my T who I knew would "rescue" me from that situation, or called her. I followed instructions because I wanted someone to give me a resource to help me not feel that way anymore - which is also why I went to the hospital several times before...

@radicalgratitude, I didn't start having the seizures until after the overdose, and it was before they started me on all the new medications. The hospital wasn't helpful, the other patients were, some of the groups they made available were helpful too. I exhausted all my resources before...

I haven't posted on here frequently since my last attempt at the end of February this year, I've been pretty absent except to read posts, but more recently I've just been absent period. I had a lot of negative events happen one right after another. Losing my car because a coverage I paid for...

I'm in. (((Added to conversation by KP)))