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Thank you @shimmerz and @Rumors for responding. I really appreciate it.

My therapist said that he has found in his practice that patients who consistently had crappy parenting actually faired a little better than patients whose parents were sometimes good and sometimes bad because they just automatically knew they couldn't depend on their parents for anything...

I definitely have that feeling. My mom wasn't the only one leaving. We were sent away a lot to live with other relatives....maybe the coming home from that is my skeleton. Just as I was thinking about your question and thinking about one of the times coming home I felt my face flush and a...

I can see how someone could think that this could possibly provide comfort but I can also see how your brain could take it and twist it so that you feel it is your fault. It is not your fault and just because someone is well meaning and wise doesn't necessarily mean it is true. I learned after...

I am so sorry for your loss. My mother passed away four years ago. I am the oldest child and had the task of being in charge of her funeral. She left no plans or wishes. At one point I was really struggling because I always feel like I have to make the right decision and what if I make the wrong...

Anywhere five minutes to ten days. I also get light headed and dizzy. Sound can sometimes be muted too. I go through phases where I dissociate a lot and other times where I seem to be able to stay grounded. Wish I could get s better handle on it though.

Let me start by saying my therapist and I have been working on my attachment issues for a while. I fall into anxious ambivalent attachment style. My mother struggled with serious mental illness and drug dependency until she passed away from on overdose four years ago. She would often disappear...

@Brenton....My therapist hugs! They are out there and actually I am hearing more and more people say they are having that experience. It is great for the ones who want and need that. I can't tolerate the intensity of therapy without feeling comforted and it is very reassuring for me at the end...

My therapist has cried. He is the only one out of a handful of therapist that has even remotely shown any emotion. And he's the best one yet. He actually cares about his patients.

Well I am in the medical field and we wouldn't be any where without the kind people who let us...for lack of a better word...."practice" on them....free or not!!!! But the same thing just happened to a friend of mine at a oral surgeons office. He is really great and been in practice for years...

Wow. I'm really sorry that happened. It sounds pretty scary to me. I'm impressed you were able to stay as calm as you did. The dentist freaks me out on a good day! I hope this oases quickly for you! I don't have any great words of wisdom but I am sorry that you are going through that...

@Snafu thank you for your bravery in sharing. I'm amazed at your courage. Your post inspired me and I went into therapy today and talked about a similar incident that I thought I would never have the courage to ever tell to another soul. I don't feel lighter yet. But I feel my brain chugging...

Welcome!!!! The one thing I have most appreciated about this site is that I feel like there are people who truly understand me and I can feel what I think is the absolute craziest thing and some one will have posted and been honest about it and it makes me feel less crazy. I'm kind of shy so I...

Is there anyway she could have said resilient?? Because we survived so we are! It took a month before I told my therapist I was there for any other reason than trying to help my son who was struggling with addiction. He knew because of the paperwork I filled out....... What does it mean if...

1. I'm so excited I have therapy today 2. Ah shit....I have therapy today 3. It feels good to be juicing again and eating healthier 4. I want gummy bears and soda 5. I'm tired of being tired

Good advice @Stickler. I get my husband or son to drop me off and pick me up for appointments during times that I am particularly dissociated. I have gotten lost both going and trying to get home so I get a ride now.

@Ragdoll Circus I wonder if your part is worried that if she likes the therapist that maybe she will go away. I had a part like that. She was so fearful for me to fix anything because she thought that would be the end of her. I wonder if you reassurred her that you still need her in other...

That is a really good point. My protector part is actually little. 9 years old. Which may not make sense but I was the oldest of five kids. My mom left when the baby was still in diapers. My father is a narcissist. I took care of my siblings and I protected them at that age until my father...

Thanks for responding. I think you may be right. I have been married 26 years. Although I don't feel this "feeling" in my relationship with my husband....only with my therapist...as it pertains to the work I am doing. Sometimes I feel like...geez...we gotta be hitting the bottom of the barrel...

I can imagine!!!! Feeling trapped is a huge trigger for me as it was also part of my trauma. I freeze as well. My best friend has PTSD and she is a runner. I secretary wished cat times I had the courage to run instead of freeze but that is not how I operate. It actually hasn't served her well...

@JEKBreatheandBelieve I think the journaling is a good idea. In going to try that. I used to email therapist my thoughts before every session but as I have progressed and built more trust with him I haven't needed to do that but just now reading what you wrote.... I think I miss sorting my...

We are often traumatized when we find ourselves in powerless situations. Your concern for her trauma and recognizing a situation that is difficult for you don't have to be mutually exclusive. You can feel concern both for her as well as yourself. It doesn't diminish her trauma to recognize that...

It can be really frustrating for sure and I find the more switching I do in the dreams the more I wake up feeling like I haven't rested at all. I think getting good sleep is so important for me and my well being but it sure is hard to make it happen sometimes.

PTSD is truly draining. Some days it sucks the life out of you. I have really good days and then I have days like you are describing. I have been married for almost 26 years and yet I still wonder why he would want to be married to me or if he still loves me the same. Through therapy I realized...

I wish I could express myself in a way that would provide you comfort. I can tell you that I understand a little. I have gone through the experience of having kids be the same age as my parts. It was particularly difficult when they were teenagers. When it was younger parts I think my kids...