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I really like playing Texas Hold'em on my Android. Turns out I'm actually pretty good at it. It hyper-focuses me so I don't have to deal with my thoughts.
Anyhow, currently internet sucks at my house. I'm on Satellite, so it's about dial-up speed most of the time. And it's splotchy. This...
Tell me about it. No really, tell us all about it. Sometimes it helps just to get it all out.
I'll just say that I've been there.
I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Because I've been there. 6 years. 2 years straight curled up on my couch, could not function or interact with the...
I hope so. Thanks.
It stresses me just to think of the stress that I will have considering the stress that you have about talking about your stress. That kind of stress?
Just try not to toss your cookies on me, k? That's gross. 🤮
But, yeah, I'll do what I can.
Sometimes it just helps to...
Hi @SeekingAfrica,
I didn't know you were seeking work again. I'm sorry you have no savings and a lot of debt. You know the saying, been there...I'm sorry we have to experience such things.
I remember when I was clawing tooth and nail through each day. I didn't understand about C-PTSD back...
I slept with my eyes closed and my mouth open. That's what my dad used to say. 😉.
I've been taking Mirtazapine to help with sleep. I still had a hard time falling to sleep last night. Once I fell, I fell hard!
My dad also was big into CB radios. Our last name is like a fish name so he'd be Big Fish on the CB. I was little fish. Until I got a little older. Then I was Night Hawk! Lol
I'm glad you are finding healing.
Woodsy1
Good questions! It was more a matter of curiosity as to how people do it.
Let's say companionship. All the time in the world. Sometimes energy is pretty low. Caution would be lower on the online side of things, higher if ever meeting in person.
Enough courage to inquire. 😁
One of the hardest things to deal with is not being able to find "normal." Things seem to change so quickly and everything feels like it's falling apart.
I sometimes have to force myself to stop and breath. Look around. Accept where I'm at. Reassess my options. Move forward as I can...
Hello @Chris416,
Welcome. Sorry for the trauma that lead you here. You'll find a lot of warm and welcoming folks here. Many will likely relate to your experience.
I've been shattered by trauma myself. I can tell you that there is healing.
Woodsy1
Maybe it's a little different for each of us? I find meaning in all our discussion here. It's one of the only communities where I feel safe and understood.
I'm so sorry for what you're feeling, @AnnieMae. Betrayal and manipulation can be crazy-making.
I get intense physical manifestations of my anxiety too. Sometimes it can be debilitating.
It's so frustrating and disorienting when abuse strikes at our very character, the essence of who we...