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I absolutely abhor when anyone compares me to others. My mom has compared me to my dad. It just burns me to the bone. A previous live interest compared me to others around us. Ugh! I'm not them. I'm me. Take it or leave it. I "get" you on this. This is a hard thing on so many levels...

H Hello @Ash_3, I'm sorry you are feeling so poorly. It sucks when life just seems like one monotonous, grey, numb day playing over and over again on repeat. I struggled through six entire years not really sure why I was even bothering to get out of bed each day. The only thing I was...

Hiya @RussellSue, Happy holidays to you and yours. You'll have to post and tell us how your hiking adventure went! I went for a 4 mile walk yesterday. Headed off to mom's for dinner this afternoon. I'm sorry you can relate! Sounds like you are finding some healthy and effective ways to...

Thanks @Sideways, I apologise that I did not see your response until just now. I appreciate your feedback. Like yourself I have tried countless numbers of the "standard" meds and even many off label approaches. Mirtazapine helps me sleep and that's about it. I can tell some interesting...

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T Thank you @WonderWriter, I appreciate your kind and thoughtful words. Trying to relate to others and hopefully encouraging them is also therapuetic for me. I hope you have a great Thanksgiving. I'm going to have dinner with my mom. Your fellow survivor, Woodsy1

I'm glad the Spidey analogy gave you a smile. You are not alone in what you are experiencing. While it is crazy-making, you are not crazy, nor will you go crazy. You will feel crazy, especially since you have been told that, but you won't go crazy. I went through something similar. I built...

I'm a Veteran and very interested in this. I was JUST speaking with my roommate about it this very evening before seeing this post. I did not know VA was looking to approve this for vets in 2021. Thanks for sharing!

I totally understand the conflict of being alone (for safety) and being afraid of being alone. That's my relationship life in a nutshell. This is a common feature of C-PTSD which overlaps with and can be mistaken for BPD. It's absolutely maddening. I have recently dubbed this "Spidey Syndrome."...

Hello @PretzelPopcorn, Yes! Both items 1 and 2. Not so much item 3 for me, but I can totally understand that happening. I am in a near constant state of hypervigilance. Any interaction with people brings on 1 and 2 almost without fail. I can rarely ever just "be" anymore. Oh the joys of...

We all help each other through it.

You are welcome. And it's great that you are gaining the insight. Simply understanding what is happening to us and knowing we are not alone or crazy for experiencing what we do often helps a lot. Glad to make your acquaintance though I'm sorry for the circumstances that bring you here. Woodsy

Hello @barefoot, Yes! I've done this too. Incessantly for the first year or maybe two. There is much insight in all the responses here, more so than I ever had! For me, I just simply got bored with the same material after a while. That ended it for me. Wishing you the best, Woodsy

Hello @amber.000, You are not alone! it is very common to find it extremely difficult to belive we've been abused. This is especially true when our abusers are close to us and are supposed to be the ones who nurture and protect us. I was in a spiritually abusive church for 18 years. On...

Hello @WonderWriter, Ouch! You've really been through it. With all the abusive relationships you have endured, it is amazing that you are still functional. You are a survivor. I also suffered childhood abuse at the hands of a father who had been abused. This type of treatment in childhood...

UPDATE: She read and appreciated the letter. She has closure and is moving on. This gives me closure and release. Phew!

There was a time when I was confident that I knew myself. I was friendly, emotionally stable, happy, had a positive outlook, maintained healthy friendships, gave of myself for others, and could do anything I put my mind to. I worked hard at people-helping jobs, and had a vision to be a...

Thank you, @RussellSue. We actually both quit drinking at the same time the relationship was coming to an end. How ironic, right? She realized that drinking brought out the aggressive in her, and I just simply didn't want to keep drinking. Not even sure why I quit beyond that. I've tried...

I am good at encouraging people (I think?). I am a fairly good writer. I am good at avoiding conflict! I am good at going on walks. I am good at being an easy roommate to live with (so my tenant says). I am good at being friendly, at least in a "Hi, how are ya?" kind of way. Everyone who...

Hello Friends, So, as you may know from my other threads, I have suffered a lot of abuse. In the aftermath, I spent 6 years basically self isolated in my house so stricken with Social Anxiety (among other things) that I just could not even function in the outside world. Just coming out of...

Yeah. It was my own fault. I was just beginning my recovery from 6 years of hellish torment and social isolation after 18 years of spiritual abuse and 12 years of spousal abuse. I went on a party spree, thinking I was just going to try and enjoy what ever life I had left. I had zero self...

This is awesome news! Thanks so much for sharing. I'm super happy for you both that you have come to a mutually agreeable solution this time around. 😁

Hiya! My walk went very well, thanks. I spoke with a few folks in the mall and actually highly enjoyed it! I'm experiencing that more and more. I came home and learned a couple love songs on my keyboard. I played and sang them in memory of my love lost to PTSD last year. Maybe singing and...

Welcome to the community. I'm so sorry for all you've been through. I'm happy though to see you've made it through and are doing well. Pull up a seat and make yourself at home. Woodsy

It will get easier! This is exaggerated anticipatory anxiety. I would imagine that the more you keep returning to therapy, the less this will effect you. It's similar to a fight or flight response in that your body is saying, "I don't want to do this. Flee!" Your bowels are preparing for...