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I got traumatized early, life threat a couple of times before kindergarten. I was called high strung. I could only feel anger, and sadness for no good reason. My emotions were safely turned off til I went to an EST workshop designed to reconnect people with their feelings. Worked well and I went...

i would caution against chronic use or the rationalization the it cures everything so constant use is good. it is not a cure even for glaucoma, just a treatment.

I was raised very christian. I'm not sure I ever bought it but I could recite the verses and tell the stories in Sunday school. My dad was a leader in the church I grew up in so on Sunday, we were a Norman Rockwell painting. Most of the rest of the week, there was a lot of yelling and random...

So, got a report from the shrink in clinical terms today. I am a traumaed up mo-fo. Nothing like confirmation to reduce anxiety. Now I know! But then there's the job search. Nothing good happened today!

While there is some light withdrawal, to call it addictive is a stretch. Don't do anything you are not comfortable with. I was not comfortable with opiates and had I used them for the pain for the last 4 years I would now really be in withdrawal or addiction.

I use it to defray anxiety and to help me sleep. It enhances mindfulness for me. It was also very helpful after a car/bike encounter that I lost. Va wanted me on pain pills, opiates. I refused. For me there is only the side products of combustion, so edibles or vaporizer. And don't get...

I am not saying not to and it may be part of your healing later, but maybe you should fix what you can, and the only thing you can fix now is you. People have to be ready to face their demons. They may not be ready now.

I am in better shape now than any time since basic training (38 years ago). So my normal way of getting by has been to be charming and often funny. Now I am looking good in jeans and a t shirt, still got the charm act going, i seem to have flustered some cashiers and waitresses. This is new. And...

Well, I have a couple of associates degrees in electronics and robotics, so the next trick is to get past the part in the interview where they ask about credit rating and homeless history. Right, they cant ask that in the interview, they can check prior to the interview. and if they do, then...

Thanks. Too much time on my hands. I started a divorce recovery class. The divorce was 19 years ago but the nature of it and my level of trauma from it prevented me from talking about it 18 years ago. My exe was diagnosed with boarder line personality, I surmise her trauma (s) was much worse...

So I have a bunch of little traumas, some narrow escapes and some weird occurrences. Failed to bond with primary nurturer (mom), who did periodically, without warning or predictability sometimes physically "correct" me often from behind, and I had contentious relations with my siblings... MDD &...

I have been wondering how healthy this is. I get triggered pretty bad on here. Maybe I should limit it, maybe 2 visits per day.

Lots of practice with rejection. I take it well. This new attraction thing.... not sure about that. Plus, in addition to my normally nice non threatening persona, I now can laugh and converse in public. I had some break troughs in my last breakdown.Charming witty and getting svelt! Heartbreak is...

You statistically cant meet 20 people like me per day without having to meet 20000 people. Got that Mensa thing going, no, that does not make women hot and bothered. Which may explain why I was willing to give up so much to get so little. However, doing a train/bike trip this weekend now that...

No, i went silent because I was in a meeting.I am making general observations about me. I am sorry if I am making you go defensive. I was fat and now I am not so i am pretty sure I understand what shows in a bathing suit. I also understand self isolation and paranoia. again, sorry. I am kind of...

Self isolation works best if you like yourself.

High iq's are self eliminating in the gene pool. See Big Bang theory. Turns out big brains don't show in a swim suit for either gender. We are all animals and we all look for the physically attractive which likely includes a low body fat, but enough, general smooth gait and movement and good...

No, we are all scoundrels, some are just better at not getting caught. Again, sorry. I also look at fast cars and fast horses, neither of which can I afford.

When I was 5, my grandfather dropped dead. My brother was staying at our grandparents and saw it happen. We both lost someone dear, but saw it from different perspectives. We had vastly different experiences. I am saying, we aren't better or worse. We are different in a predictable way than...

First, thanks for posting that.It had a lot of good info. second, oh crap, more confirmation of my particular form of krazy.

Being a vet and an American, I am offended by your treatment. Heck, I am offended as a human being. No one should be treated like that. Thanks for your service and for being the bigger person. Shit gets better. Stick with therapy.

I think the stupid immoral unwholesome thing is a way of externalizing the internal unhappy I have. I don't drink and have had some impressive aversion therapy to women so they aren't a problem for me. It must be work. And here is why! (insert rationalization here!)

Not much support, new in the neighborhood and worked too much to develop one. I keep getting nibbles on my resume, I have a new interview wed. so, the job search is going well. I just need to do something. I started divorce recovery class a week or two ago, 19 years ago I got divorced and I can...

The no use, no future fuc*it thing is a symptom of PTSD. So good for noticing that symptom. Yes, I got it, and just to make sure I get that it is useless and all will fail, I got laid off last month and am now going stir crazy thinking I will never get to be useful again. Then I will get a job...

Body English. How we carry ourselves is a reflection of how we feel about ourselves, we communicate social status without words.Social status determins who may aproach whom on such maters. My body English said "I don't value myself enough to protect myself so I will be a good victim." And hers...