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    Summer Sad And Ptsd

    Hi. I have PTSD from childhood bullying. I am fiercely territorial and hate it when people invade my space. Also, I am fearful of noise from unknown sources, like when I'm inside and someone starts their car up, I have to find out who it is so I can feel safe again. I'm like a horse who...
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    Any Ways To Reduce The Startle Response?

    Shimmerz: yep, me too with the tailgating. I feel like I'm being pursued or in for imminent attack. When I was a kid, there were bullies who used to approach me from behind to "get" me. I still haven't lost the fear.
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    Any Ways To Reduce The Startle Response?

    My response to unknown-source noise is a small amount of fear, the thought that someone is going to attack me. I don't lash out or whatever. My esr isn't severe but it is pervasive. And I am starting now to realize how pervasive it is.
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    Any Ways To Reduce The Startle Response?

    Hi. I was in the shower yesterday. I have PTSD, non-combat. From childhood bullying. While in the shower, I heard my kids playing in the hallway. I heard someone come up the stairs and instantly I thought someone was going to attack me or invade my space. Then I realized what was...
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    Season Changes

    You are welcome. I'm sorry that I've been away from here for awhile. I want to tell you how far I've come in one year's time with therapy. Here is a situation at home this morning. Three doors down there was a group of men doing a reroof on a house. They had their music playing. It...
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    Season Changes

    shimmerz: yes. This is me too. I live in a small town. I struggle with nice bright sunny weekends because people will be around that normally aren't during the week. Monday is the best day of the week. Back to routine, back to quiet. I even used to compulsively watch the weather...
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    Season Changes

    For me, it is a work in progress. A lot of it is acknowledging the noise, first. Then sending someone else to find out the source of the noise (if necessary). The noise irritation thing is a big part of what brought me to therapy in the first place. I was bullied, like I said, and my...
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    Season Changes

    I most certainly have the same seasonal triggers. Not fireworks, but winter-turning-into-spring is very very hard for me. I live where it is cold in the winter and people hibernate then. It is very quiet and peaceful. Then warm weather comes along and BOOM!!!!!! it is time to revv up the...
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    After Jr. High Gym Class Trauma: Helping My Son Learn How To Bat

    He had a good hit on Monday. :) Again, what is happening is I am projecting my past onto him. I want him to succeed because I had so much trouble with sports.
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    What Do You Call It When You "see" Your "inner Child" Standing Next To You?

    And Laurie: you have a gift with words, my friend. Just wanted to let you know that.
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    What Do You Call It When You "see" Your "inner Child" Standing Next To You?

    Russ: We do hide the inner child, I agree. I'm glad that he is coming out of the inside now. I have T on Monday. I'm wondering what will happen and if I will see him again. It was just SO weird, to the point of freaky. There he was, as clear as day. And... I hated those pants. :)
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    After Jr. High Gym Class Trauma: Helping My Son Learn How To Bat

    Thanks so much --- the more I think about this, the more I realize a few things. First, that it is OK if he isn't the best at batting. It is a life-lesson. We can't all be great at everything. Second, he loves sports, but not baseball. The crux of the matter is that I want him to succeed...
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    I Share My Poem For All To See, This Explains Why I Am Me!

    If only the bullies from childhood realized what lifelong pain they caused...
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    What Do You Call It When You "see" Your "inner Child" Standing Next To You?

    What do you call this? Last time I was at therapy, my T and I were talking about past childhood trauma. The "little boy" inside of me wanted to be heard. First I felt, literally, like I was shrinking - not getting shorter, but becoming a little boy again. It was totally bizarre. We kept...
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    After Jr. High Gym Class Trauma: Helping My Son Learn How To Bat

    And, yes, Nov.Star, watching my son have trouble with baseball does trigger past sports trauma from my life. My mind says: I don't want him to have the same trouble I had with sports and jock-bullies (and my Jr. High gym teacher), so therefore I must help him/protect him. I'm overcompensating...
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    After Jr. High Gym Class Trauma: Helping My Son Learn How To Bat

    I posted a really long reply and the computer ate it :( Thanks so much for all of your input. Basically with me I was your typical nerd kid that was horribly teased, picked-on, bullied, kicked, etc. Now as a 43-yo man, I am hypervigilant. I extremely distrust anything that is not "known."...
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    After Jr. High Gym Class Trauma: Helping My Son Learn How To Bat

    Keep your heels down -- thank you :) Made me feel a lot better.
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    After Jr. High Gym Class Trauma: Helping My Son Learn How To Bat

    I get what you all are saying here. Getting picked last isn't PTSD. But regardless, I didn't ask this question just out the blue. It has bothered me for a long time and I finally got the courage up to ask it here. I was looking for an answer or advice and not a lecture on the clinical...
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    After Jr. High Gym Class Trauma: Helping My Son Learn How To Bat

    It takes a village... yes, maybe. But more importantly, it takes parents first and foremost. And it is hard to be a dad and not know how to teach your son to bat. And I know it is OK not to be able to bat, but when you see your kid in tears, it is nonetheless hard to watch.
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    After Jr. High Gym Class Trauma: Helping My Son Learn How To Bat

    I was always the last one picked for a team in gym class. Except once. I was second-to-last. Such a great victory. Can any of you relate to this, and did it cause you any PTSD issues? It has been awful for me. I am now 43, and my younger son (age 7) is in sports. He is doing baseball...
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    If The Story Of My Life Helps Others, Then Let The Story Be Told

    They have, good man. If nothing else, it is very comforting to know that I'm not the ONLY one that has been bullied. I'm not the only guy always the last one picked on the team in gym class. I'm not alone. Until I started therapy last year, I never understood how pervasively bullying had...
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    Does Good Weather Make You Feel "unsafe?"

    Fade: never thought of this. The worst of the bullying tended to happen when I was walking home from school off the bus, and that wouldn't happen when it is cold and snowy out. hmmm... the puzzle is starting to come together.
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