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@scout86 I just want to clarify what you're saying because I'm not 100% sure. Are you saying I should provide T with the details of what happened in the email I'm going to write, or just make sure to notify her that something happened and I will tell her more about it when I see her? By details...

@theshadowoftheliving that line is something I'm learning about right now with T. It's not always the same, a lot of it has to do with learning to listen to what your body is telling you. You would be surprised about how much your body will tell you in regards to that if you learn how to listen...

Could I? Yes. Do I want to ruin T's weekend, not really. I was considering emailing her Monday to give her a heads up that something happened this weekend that I need to bring up with her. That way I don't forget or chicken out telling her about it. I know if I email that, then she won't let me...

It kind of is off the rails already, trying to manage until I see T. Just not sure how I'm going to talk to her about this. I have a few days to try and work out a game plan for this, but I know it has to be done no matter how hard. Fear is my driving factor, I'm scared I will have gotten one...

@stenni I take birth control, but not for the prevention of pregnancy because I don't have sex. So I don't take it in the way that I would need to in order to reduce the risk of pregnancy. I know I don't have STI's, but because I don't know this person I can't guarantee they don't. As much of a...

@SeanGeo I've been with T for almost 2 years now. I trust her more than anyone who has ever walked into my life. I don't believe in keeping secrets from her, does neither of us any good, she isn't a mind reader and she also can't help me if I hide it from her, no matter how much shame I feel...

I tried to read up on this when I got home, but I can't seem to find anything pertaining to this particular thing. I've been diagnosed with dissociation in correlation to my PTSD. Not something separate. I've been having a rough last few weeks, and I've been dissociating more frequently. Today...

Verbal vomit wasn't that bad, only small chunks. I never cut T off but I wasn't done a thought, and she thought I was and I just continued right on. Bless T for being an awesome person and letting me blow/vent. Also Bless T for granting me another session this week, I asked (in an email on...

I see T tomorrow afternoon, not sure if I will get the extra session I asked for. We will see when tomorrow comes I guess. Verbal vomit... I have this huge "need" to just spill my heart out to T tomorrow. Is there some kind of common curtesy in regards to that? Do I warn T about the upcoming...

Hey @Casper1018 I heard from her yesterday. She was hoping something opened up, she was able to get me in one day earlier, so I see her tomorrow. Not sure if I see her twice this week or not, I guess I will find out tomorrow. I hope she understood what I was asking for, not sure if she did based...

Man @anthony you are really getting into being a puppy parent :) Love it!

@Casper1018 my T doesn't text. T is usually really good at checking her email. Which is why I'm getting more out of sorts because she hasn't responded at all.

Still no response back from T :( So now the fear of her not ever responding until I see her Thursday is growing. I don't want to bother her and call, but I'm scared she just won't respond at all. Feeling this way makes me feel needy, I feel guilty for feeling this way.

Thanks @desiderata310 it was hard as hell to ask for what I needed. I hope she remembers asking me for what I needed, it was in a group setting. Oh and one more thing, during a "exercise" (for lack of better generalized word) I needed to feel present and grounded, and the person I had with me...

Good God that pup is cute! Especially in the bike basket.

Today I just finished a long weekend of group therapy (T was one of the two therapist's running it), it was really hard. I was already having a really rough week leading up to it, hadn't been to work for the first 3 days last week because of mental health reasons, then Thursday and Friday I was...

@theshadowoftheliving it's almost 1am here, so I can't call her.

A lot of this has to do with Little (little side of me) coming out 2 weeks ago. Little just consumes me and takes over, I try to shove her away, back into the closet but she fights back. When Little gets really upset or angry I lose, and I don't know what she does, but I get hurt when she takes...

I personally am donating my body to science. They can use whatever organs they need for those on a donor list, use the rest for learning purposes. Nice this is, they cremate your body after they are finished with it and return your ashes to your family at no cost to them. Win-win. My death helps...

@Born to Run no session :( T had to cancel 2 hours before I was supposed to see her because she was feeling sick and went home. That was hard, because I was having trouble even just making it to Monday, I only just spoke to T tonight a few hours ago on the phone because she had to ask some...

@Born to Run she said we needed to book another time but she didn't respond to my email back asking when. If she's sick then she might not respond tonight. Trying to tell Little that. But Little is getting more upset. Thankfully I just finished work. So I can go home. Hopefully Little behaves.

Just got an email from T. She cancelled our appointment that's in 2 hours. Little is losing it inside. I'm upset as adult me, but I get that T isn't feeling well and she doesn't have a habit of doing this. But Little is pushing me and I still have another 1.5hr at work before I can go home. Just...

@desiderata310 I'm sorry you had such a crappy day :( I would have been the same way if I came home and realized my door was unlocked. I hope you can settle yourself and relax a bit tonight. You did the right thing calling the police, better to be safe than sorry - and besides, it's their job to...

Update from Little and Me: Today was better than yesterday. Little got mad at me yesterday, I think, because I did like 6 hours of course work. I felt Little start raging, and then I don't remember anything for a while. Little ended up getting me hurt, or hurting me, not sure which, but I have...

:hug: @WildMermaid I hope it's nothing new and just because of your existing RA. I'm the same way when it comes to medical stuff - right now I'm being tested for MS (they are hoping it is a spinal cord injury and not MS). I get anxious when they rush tests, which I should be happy about because...