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Gyrlwolf, That is EXACTLY what we are about! (y) Ba

Welcome Gyrlwolf, take a knee sister, your among friendlies here. Lot's of stuff to read here and a few good listeners to boot. I see you hang your hat in the land of "Christy Cream" me too! We have a great Vet Center in Secacus if your in the north. Ba

There are days when my ass can fall off and roll in to the sewer and the whole world is in ciaos - I deal with it. Then!!!... there is the day I may brake a shoe lace and I explode. The f*cking beast is on a tear for the balance of the day, week - whatever. Its not what happens at that precise...

Hey Lurch, good to see all is well by you, welcome back/ Ba

Welcome Nate, your among friendlies here. IU does allow some of us the leeway to find the balance dealing with the beast and that's a good thing for sure. Then, there those of us who forged our lives using work and booze to to mask everything and anything related to our behavior and raining...

Normal? My normal is not your normal - the behaviors related to PTSD differ from individual to individual. That face you recall will be just as clear twenty - thirty years from now. On December 17, 1965 I witnessed the look on a shipmates face before he fell to his death on the orders he...

Welcome brother... Semper Fi! Your in the right place - take a knee. Your very fortunate marine, today, you have an answer for your behavior. Although that understanding does not lessen the severity of the problem it makes it manageable. There are several 'Ol Nam Shits' like myself that had no...

Can't add much here..... ditto on all counts! Ba

Welcome K, Take a knee brother. What you describe is all too familiar with those of us who have experienced the same cycle. The good news is at least you have a name for it today. Like you I also tried to drown the Beast with booze for twenty five years. Twenty years later without the hooch I...

Welcome Joe Ba

Welcome Home brother! And welcome to the forum there are a few of us old Nam shits that hang our hats here. You are among friendlies here. Ba (Danang 65/66 USN - FMF)

We hope, we pray there is another way - a softer easier way. After all these years and thinking that *huh, NOW, I know what it is* the beast knocks me on my ass and reminds me AGAIN - you don't know SHIT. My old AA sponsor told something me very early on that I come to believe applies to PTSD...

Welcome Mdmx - Yup the beast brings the worst out of us for sure. I still had the job and the wife and the house and a whole bunch of worthless shit. In the end none of it and all the booze didn't get me a moment of true relief from the beast. Twenty plus years sober and anger on a hair...

Welcome Luke - your among friendlies here .... take a knee. Ba

Welcome Dave, take a knee brother your not alone. Listen up, your not the first and won't be the last to consider *Door # 2*, The guy's and women here know a thing or two about what your going through. I can't add too much to the conversation as my drug of choice was booze to quiet my...

Yeah SD, the shit does not stop flowing. Just got back from the hospital this afternoon having a *ream and clean* on my esophagus - again! Had 3 years clean of annual checkups up until March. Doc says I'm back on the 6 month merry-go round until further notice. You ol' f*cking jarheads pounded...

Welcome Maveric, as Vikingr24 said it's a merry-go-round with the VA and the meds. You have to be your own advocate with the meds and therapy. You have to be direct with these folks who swear they have your best interest at heart. In the mean time some of the guys and ladies here have run the...

WC, you hang tough brother. We have your back so look around the forum lots of good stuff to read. Ba

Take a knee Raider - your among friendlies here. Yup, the beast plays that tune between your ears all day long. I'm just an Ol' Nam shit and it took me 40+ years to finally reach out for help. I did the booze, jail more than once for a long time - been out of jail and sober 27 years and still...

A little late to this dance, these are great issues raised for discussion. Thank you Anthony. After reading all of these responses I feel that the big issue (as many see it as well) is the stigmatization along with education of those close to those effected. We all have experienced the...

Welcome home brother took me 40+ as well. One of the *old Nam shits* here. You're right brother - we were the last to know and if it were not those vets poking the VA I'd still be in the bunker. Take a knee - you're among friendlies here. Ba (Danang 65-66) BM3 USN

Way to go Sludge! Your disease is morning and calling you back to the place you came from - don't go! Celebrate! Celebrate all the good you are experiencing without the Booze Beast calling the shots. This is the beginning of a beautiful thing called LIFE! No matter how much shit comes your...

Welcome Gabe, take a knee you're among friendlies here. Ba

Welcome brother! Not much to add, Spock bagged it, Fly your desk into retirement, use the next two years to plan your next 20, in the mean time we're to lean on. Ba

Thanks Grizz, you got to laugh or it certainly will kill you. Ba