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This is the same for me. Im desperately trying to find a way out. Living here is killing me. I have no home but only a space i exist in.

At my uni i have a disability liason who has set up a whole lot of reasonable adjustments which means i get automatic extensions on all my assessments as well as extra time in all exams. Also if i am not well or not coping i can leave class at anytime and still be counted as attended. It...

I can very much relate to most of what you posted. I can't help out much with the family side as I'm in a similar boat and have no idea how to even begin approaching that stuff. Uni stuff... I am about to start my 5th and hopefully, the final year of my 2nd degree and I'm 40... depending on...

Not sure how much i can help but ive been on oroxine since i was 6 weeks old (40+) years. If your thyroid is out and you have depression/anxiety on top it is a major pain in the arse. Hou spend your whole life balancing .. tsh too low and everything slows down , depression, brain alows and you...

I'm not in any way saying "how dare you say im psychotic" ... I have a background in mental health and know why they are prescribed for different conditions. It was more I felt I should have been informed about it rather than just not given any information about what drug it was. It was...

ok so yes i have not been doing very well lately and have chronic insomnia due to cPTSD and the medication i was on was working adequately for insomnia but not working so well on my moods. He discussed putting me on a new drug that would cover both insomnia and spiralling mood. Ive been on it...

My family is a very dysfunctional unit and me living with my parents is a large part of what is causing me to want to end it all. I don't mean to sound like im blaming them. Telling my parents that I have to go into hospital will cause a huge issue as it is for 4 weeks (from what I can figure...

Thank you .. I am doing my best trying to make this a good time for the boys and keep myself safe. I have sorted of numbed myself in order to cope and I know in the long run that will come back to bite me. I still dont understand how I can be a shaking sobbing mess in my T's office one minute...

Thanks for this ... my T is definitely trying to help me make this decision for myself as she wants what is best for me. The hospital she wants me to go to is a sub-acute ward that runs a program and also works alongside your local dr and possibly psychologist?? I can't remember if she said that...

I need to apologise upfront about how often ive been posting lately. This site has become a bit of a life line for me as i dont feel safe getting advice or help from people who don't really understand PTSD and cPTSD. I have posted in the past about how how strong my SI is lately and my anxiety...

My T called first thing this morning and got me in for an emergency appointment. It is looking more than likely I will be admitted voluntarily into a sub-acute mental health care unit next week. If I don't agree to go in next week by my own choice I will be sectioned and sent to the acute...

It's my T's first day back at work tomorrow after the Christmas break. I haven't seen or heard from her for over a month. I was desperately hoping her receptionist would be able to get me in for an appointment as i was on the waiting list for an early appointment but that didn't happen. I am...

Oh wow can I relate to this. I was constantly told by my family and school that i was slow or needed special help to get through. My mother regularly took me out of class and made me go to tutoring and attended special classes so my classmates viewed me as stupid too. My brothers were both...

:cry: I had to go and see my GP today and he set off some major triggers ... also he is switching my meds but doesn't want me to start the new ones until Sunday (I have to drive a round trip over the weekend of about 10 hours and he doesn't want to start me with any unknown effects of the...

I think it might be disassociation? Im currently trying to complete a commerce degree and often i vague out and have trouble just doing simple sums. It makes you feel crazy cause you know that you have the answer but you just cant get it out

I could nearly have written your first paragraph word for word for my own post at the moment. Glad you were able to reach out. Don't have any words of wisdom as I'm only just keeping my head above water at the moment but know there are people here that hear you and care.

I can sort of understand some of this ... my previous T would not let me even begin working on inner child stuff as she said I would not be kind to her so said it was better to just let her be. I'm guessing here but maybe the work you have done and the therapy may have calmed your inner child...

I tried writing a letter to my T last night but found it difficult to even open up about how serious my ideation is at the moment. I have gone from thinking vaguely about it every few days too now thinking about it all the time and working out different plans. I had to fight the urge today to...

Hey Leisel I too have no memories of my early childhood and have a huge amount of issues with working out boundaries between who is safe and who isnt. My T says I'm not in a safe place to even start unpacking any of this so now I'm just left trying to band-aid myself enough to survive till im...

Yikes ... I don't know how I would cope with 3 cancellations in a row. My pessamistic/paranoid voice was pretty strong after just today. Hope you are able to get in for a session soon.

No she doesn't really do phone or email outside of my sessions. Ive only had her ring me a couple of times when she was concerned of my safety. I am going to sit down tomorrow and write a letter which has helped in the past. Just have no safe place to stop here at home at the moment and no...

Things have been super tough these last few weeks and I was barely keeping it together till I could get in to see my T next Thursday ... this afternoon I got a call from her office to say she has had to cancel that appointment and I now can't see her until the following week. Really don't know...

I live in a state of hyper-vigilance so never feeling safe is normal... its just the degree that changes. I feel bad that I am not the "fun" auntie the kids are used to. I just don't have the energy I used to, to put the facade on that I did when I last saw them. I just want to hide in my room...

No My T got me in for the first day she was back in her office so that is as soon as I can actually get in. My GP is also on break for this week. I might think about doing the self-contract idea as I think my T would like that idea.

Follow up... I have a long history with migraines so when they announced that they were all going to the beach today I could truthfully say I had a migraine so I could stay home. Woke up this morning in full blown panic attack as I could hear people outside my bedroom...and then when I finally...