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Well, I don’t speak of my father either. My current therapist went there briefly, but his motto is “first do no harm”. So even though I have much to examine and discover about my cognitive distortions that were created by his abuse, I’m not ready for that yet. When the pot boils over anything, I...

Can you take a self compassion break? A 30 second meditation of doing nothing? Sometimes I take a hit shower and go to bed and take a restorative nap.

@DharmaGirl yes it was much to my surprise. There is one scene I had to close my eyes because a cat got hurt. I like to see all the movies that get nominated for Best movie so I made myself see it the night before the Oscars. It is a love story and well acted. The music was wonderful. Everyone...

The Joyce de paum museum in Paris. The best collection of the Impressionist paintings and sculpture. I went 2 days in a row. My favorite genre of Art.

The Shape of Water.

I cannot handle the complexities of a romantic relationship at this time. Whatever reserves I have, I spend on my children. I have a few cherished friends that check in on me. They ask me to go to concerts and movies or just out to Panera for a small meal. My concert friend gets the tickets and...

I’ve never been given summaries by my various therapists. They don’t take notes during the visit, so if they were to summarize them, it makes sense that they would be brief observations as opposed to a narrative text that has an emotional component. I’ve read Psychiatrist notes on me and they...

I have been crawling out of my skin too. Today I watched “Tara Brach on Real but Not True: Freeing Ourselves from Harmful Beliefs” on YouTube. It brought me to the place where I can put my hands on my heart and tell myself, “It’s OK dear, you won’t always be feeling like this” I never learned...

Also by Tara Brach

Awakening Through Change and Loss is another one I just watched. I am griefstricken over the death of my best friend. I get mixed opinions on grief. Either people embrace it or they accuse me of being too sensitive so stop feeling that way. Neither are helpful, but this video spoke volumes to me.

Safety is one of the realms that gets f*cked up by PTSD. It sounds like vigelence and worry for your safety. Can you examine what else was going on in your life when you have these worries? Does it feel the same as you felt when you know you were absolutely unsafe and perhaps unable to secure...

I’m trying to send the link to a atara Brach talk that explores that feelings are real but they’re not true. Cognitive distortions. But sucking at technology is what I do so all I can say is check it out. *Tara Brach

@blackemerald1 your words are very comforting. Thank you so much for taking the time to write them.

I’m not really ok yet. I’m sitting at an agency waiting for an intake meeting to get placed with a shrink. I have the name of a nurse practitioner here that was recommended by a client who has similar issues as I and we had the same shrink for about 15 years and he retired in December. She likes...

I am considering the same dilemma. Extrodinary sadness and internalizing it as “something wrong about me” that is the reason. My t just yesterday reminded me that I am suffering by not feeling sad. I like the exercise but not feeling quite up to that today. just trying to come to an...

So I’ve had a week of trying to resolve my meds as a result of overusing them and then overreacting to being ignored by my shrink. This begs the question of controlled drugs and proper management of patients. With all chronic illnesses, there may be the need to adjust dosages or seek...

OMG @FauxLiz you are in a pickle. Please take good care and try to take the days one at a time. Little bits along the way.

I love New England at Christmas time. Santa is a big part of the young children’s life at that time. There’s the materialistic Santa at the mall, the philanthropic Santa ringing the Salvation Army bell, the Santa who comes to town in a fire truck. There are lovely traditions in New England. We...

Well, I fired the shrink. At the very end of their workday, a clerk called me to see what I wanted. I stated that I clearly left a message that I was in crisis and needed to see the doc today. I left that message at 8:30 this morning. She offered to make an appt for me next week and I said no...

Litigation is stressful. Take care and pamper yourself in any way you can think.

FWIW I live in Maine and I considered buying a condo in a tranquil setting but no dogs allowed. My realtor said right away that a service dog is allowed. But my kids couldn’t bring theirs so I let it go.

You’re both right. I still have not gotten a return call from his office. I need to get back onto my recipe of pills ASAP. I had sent a text message from my primary doc to tell him how hard it’s been to get a conversation with the shrink. He wrote me back a really nice message that said he has...

Ugh I am so sick in the head. I really need my shrink. So flooded and had to cancel all my clients. I’m really dissociative. I worked so hard to not do that and I’m right back down the mayo jar. I’m not feeling safe. I don’t have my meds, I haven’t slept for a week. I left a pleading voicemail...

As @blackemerald1 i do not judge you. I am here whenever you need me. You can go onto the AA website and take a look around.

Admitting you have a problem is the first step. I’m a recovering alcoholic sober since 1991. I drank all day at the end, tried so many times to quit, always picking up again. I hated that I craved alcohol. I only wanted to do things that would allow me to drink. It was a never ending circle. I...