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I love little dogs, so much more together than people.

The thing about Christmas for many of us is that it reminds us of the family we never had.

I have long had difficulties through the holidays. I really looking forward to them being done. I have been no contact with all my family since early April with the exception of my brother. I was planning on going to California and hanging out with the gal I have been seeing but with the...

Sorry for the slow response I had some medical issues this week. The ramifications for me have been beyond belief. I was married for 28 years. During that time I lost all sense of self. I could not tell what was real. I thought I was losing my mind. I believed all my perceptions were...

John O Groats to Lands End, the classic bicycle touring route.

I want to do a bicycle or motorcycle tour there, that is amazing scenery.

Congrats.

You are spot on, we are the only species that fouls its own nest.

Thanks. I am beginning to think I stuff my anger around people I care about and then I get pushed to far for too long and then some A hole conveniently arrive and I let go. I really don’t like loosing it like that. Even though the circumstances may have justified it I feel ashamed for not...

Sorry for the slow response, I had a severe medication reaction and spent the night in the ER. I live in a small town 50 miles from the interstate highway. No one wants to deliver here because of the distance and skinny streets. They gave me a week window for the delivery and insisted I do it...

The last two days I have been riding dirt bikes all day out in the desert with a friend. I am surprised I am not more tired, it was a workout both days.

I do it particularly when I feel like shit. It lifts me out of the abyss.

I really lost it today with an A-hole. I just had the floors redone in my home and I am buying a lot of new furniture. Yesterday and today were supposed to be delivery days. Only one of the scheduled deliveries happened yesterday while I waited all day for no shows. At 6:00am this morning I...

Here is the Southwest restaurants give you salsa with breakfast, it is great on eggs with our without tortillas.

It is hard to feel good about yourself if you are living in a self induced S hole. Also there is a value in ritual and house keeping is a bit of a ritual. Every moment you are doing it you are telling yourself you are worthy of decent living conditions. There is a sense of accomplishment even...

I get this. I have always felt like I was from a different planet. I am currently waiting for a full psychological evaluation particularly looking at autism, cptsd and prolonged narcissistic abuse. The last one has come up in therapy and I really never thought of it until it was pointed out.

I did an hour and ten minute bike ride this morning. I wasn’t feeling well and I thought the ride would snap me out of it but it didn’t. I wasn’t feeling well just plain weak. That is what I get for taking 5 weeks off the bike. I also did an hour of restorative yoga with my trainer...

2HR 40MIN bicycle ride.

BICYCLE RIDE

Peanut butter and jelly sandwich.

I have gone completely no contact with my family. It is painful during the holidays so I am planning things with friends. I was in Africa over the thanksgiving holiday. I will be in California with my girlfriend for Christmas and new years. It is painful but less painful than dealing with...

I used to have to leave like that. I can’t explain it well but it was an overwhelming compulsion to get some solitude. It had nothing to do with anger with my family, I was just overwhelmed. Zoloft and Buspirone really helped. I take a sub therapeutic dose of Zoloft and it mad my frustration...

Festive

Looks like my decorating.

I take a sub therapeutic dose of Zoloft that immediately removed my frustration. I also take buspirone. Between the two it has removed 90% of my frustration and my swearing stopped immediately. Your regular doc can prescribe. I was resistant to the medication idea and I am glad I gave it a...