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Thanks for sharing! I am makeing an effort to focus more on myself now, instead of focusing on him and my relationship. The most important relationship in my life has to be the one I have with myself. I am a very recent diagnosis, so i feel like i have really bneen relying on him or...

Thanks for your thoughts, Bubba. If you feel comfortable, would you mind saying a little bit more about your faith?

This is no sour grapes. The idea of having a long term relationship has never appealed to me. I always wanted to grow old with a close friend, instead of a sexual partner. I never liked the idea of having a boyfriend be a primary confidant. I tried it out, and honestly I find that it does...

Thank you for reaching out, Let It Be. Inconsistency is a terrible thing, especially to those who have been abused or abandoned. I grew up in a no family family too. It was one of the hardest things in the world for me to accept that I will never have one. I am sorry that you lost sitting...

My dog. She lives with me now and I have to take care of her. Also, my best girl. She is wonderful and we need each other. I suck at cooking and she sucks at working with kids, so we help each other. We are a family.

I have decided that I am going to rely on no one but myself. He is clearly not someone that I can safetly share myself with. I need consistency, support, and unconditional love. If he can only love me when there is nothing else to do, then he does not really love me. I am sad to say it, but...

Thank you Gizmo. You are right, I should not have to deal with this. This is crap. I deserve better than this.

Hi Seeka, I have the exact same problem. I even start to panic when I know that the separation is coming. I have found that having my dog around really helps. Journaling is not particularly helpful to me because I can find it very triggering. Its a lot of relieving my trauma, which I know is...

Srain, thank you so much. The problem is, I don't feel like I am worth it to him. I fell like if I were really worth it to him, he would be willing to make the effort to be there even when it is not easy for me. The fact that he can't reinforces the idea that my parents gave me, which is that...

My therapist thinks that he needs to really think hard about what he wants. The worst thing is, he is so good to me sometimes! When my brother tried to kill himself while he was on the phone with me. it almost destroyed me. My University barred me from taking my final exams the next day. I...

I have a wonderful man in my life. He is so smart and funny and kind, but he is terribly incosistent in his support. It kills me because when we are together or if we are apart and he is at school, then everything is great and he is the most supportive, kind, gentle soul in the world. He...

Thank you all again for your support. I was really alone while this was happening and y'all made me feel like I had somewhere to turn. I cannot tell you how much that means to me. You are all so wonderful.

Freya, Brunhillda, Athena, Hera, Brigdet, Eoster, Aphrodite, Cerridewn, Cierce, and Ayesha. What do these women have in common? They are all Goddesses, with the power to shape thier own destinies, who can achive anything they set thier minds to!! WELL DONE, YOU ARE A GODDESS!!!!

Thank you all again for reaching out. I have always been alone and never been allowed to have feelings about this situation. You are amazing. Junebug, you are right. He is very sick and his sickness is as consuming and difficult to treat as cancer. I have a lot of nuero traning, so I know...

Thank you all so much for reaching out to me. I have been alone all my life. I have no other siblings but my brother and I have no close relatives. I am so scared for my brother. And even though I hear you all when you say that I need to take care of myself, it's so hard to turn away and...

One of my traumas stems from watching my mentally ill brother try to kill himself over and over. On Wednesday he over dosed on drugs he got off the internet and now he is in the hospital. He is doing really badly and it looks like he may have actual cerebral damage this time. His speech is...

I could use a PTSD buddy too! I would love to meet up with you when you get back. Do you live anywhere near central? If not I am happy to travel. I am going on vacation too, starting Tuesday. I may not be around much for the next two weeks, but after that I should be much more available.

Hey there. I am not sure if you are still looking but I am 22 and dealing with ptsd in the Boston area. By which I mean Cambridgeport. Let me know if you are still interested.

There does not have to be a connotation. When you are having a good day, you can smell the smell, so that you train yourself over time to respond positively to the smell and recall the good feelings. I am trying to do it by smelling a bag of lavender while my supporter sings a lullaby to me. So...

I am having the same problem. I will get triggered, and I am still learning what my triggers are and I will go in to this depressive, self loathing spiral where I feel utterly hopeless, and utterly helpless, like I will never be free of my abusers, I will not be able to stop my brother form...

Thanks Jen!

I think I am taking the cake on this one. Cinnamon Scope mouthwash.

I had my worst night in a while too. During the day, when the memories hit, I get this feeling of my insides turning to ash. I feel like everything inside of me just crumbles and is dark, dirty ashes. Its the words think i have ever felt, but it usually only happens when something triggers me...

I slept for two hours. I just lay on the floor for the rest of the night feeling numb. I have never felt so numb before. It feels like everything inside of me has turned to ash. Yesterday my aunt told me that I am a bad person for holding the abuse against my parents. I am not sure I even...

I do this ALL THE TIME. I am really strongly affected by music, so I have play lists for different moods. I have a whole list of songs that remind me of the things that happened to me and how angry and hurt I am, and I listen to them because I feel like music is a safe place for me to feel...