Sheer Force of Will
Silver Member
I do this ALL THE TIME. I am really strongly affected by music, so I have play lists for different moods. I have a whole list of songs that remind me of the things that happened to me and how angry and hurt I am, and I listen to them because I feel like music is a safe place for me to feel. Sometimes I just sit at my desk and cry, sometimes the music makes me want to smash things. Sometimes it puts me into this numb state that I feel like I can't get out of. I like being able to change my mood with music, but I don't like listeing to the radio, because I never know how a new song will affect me. Also, there are songs that my abuser used to play, as loud as he could (loud noises frighten me), because he knew that those particular songs were very disturbing or upsetting to me.
